Guest guest Posted January 14, 2007 Report Share Posted January 14, 2007 HEY ya there : Nice note. YES..a lifecoach....that sounds like a good choice for you. YOU sound so good at it already... In my case..I know the reason for me to be so particularly frustrated with this aspect is that this wiggy stuff only landed on me after the TT. I was walking around a store one day about three weeks after they ripped out my thyroid and realized I had been there for hours trying to pick out a pair of shorts!!!! I was so late getting back that...I had no time to do my hair...and had to go out with my hair all curly..which I never do. THAT same night...ended with me in tears...and my new boyfriend kicking me out of his car. I HAD never in my life been that way. THAT ended the relationship. I am choosey..I like to take my time, but not from indecision, it had always been because I'm creative and picky. THIS was new...totally foreign and frightening. WHAT in the world was wrong with me? I had been a high functioning influencer in my life...not at all shy about calling the shots and helping others make decsions. NOT...like this at all. I wondered what the connection was.... I found out much later that indecsion is a hallmark hypo symptom..because you basically got some high functioning brain damage. The frontal cortex or something like that that helps you to quickly rule stuff out that you want to say...or what you want to do... THAT little traffic controler in there goes to sleep. SO..you seem a little drunk...saying things that are a little inappropriate....and feeling a little compulsive about what you want. If you realize you are feeling compulsive..trying to find the brakes....to slow things down rather than stop them gets really tricky. People who respected you now think you are a mental weakling. YOU now only want to please them. You are psychotic...that is part of it. SO..then you over-correct and stop making decisions..but life won't let you. YOU must keep moving. THAT is why I never left my bed after that. I just got out of bed three months ago..and its terrifying. I feel like an idiot and I can't do anything right. EVEN if I got something right..the way I arrived at something makes me feel so foolish. SO.. thinking and deciding sort of lurching in circles....and I can't make it stop. I'm just not the same...and you can't rely on anyone else's point of view. Your will is gone..and you want to just agree...because its too hard to disagree. YOU know your decisions are worthless...because they are like nailing jello to a wall. You can't seem to feel surefooted and can't seem to go normal speed.... ITS all compulsive or all dead stop. I know what I want...but I can't afford everything. ITS also true that I have no income...and people just don't buy things without an income in my way of thinking. This is why those so called bipolars...have spending issues. THEY buy houses and cars..without checking their bank accounts. IT can get very out of hand. I can see how that would be. I can really see it. ITS very hard to work around your own brain damage..because we expect that the brain must be okay..or it would burst out of the top of our heads if there was something wrong... LOL People have high expectations of you..when you are walking around. THEY just think less of you because your question yourself so brutally. THEY don't applaud you for being daring and moving and making difficult decsions. THEY should..but they don't. To them...you are just sort of pathetic. I WAS not pathetic before (I could scrap with the best of them)....so you see this is a big loss...and I have to try and fight this imposter self off, so the real me can reclaim her being. ~E:) --- Teague medstudent2be@...> wrote: > > > > Some people that do have problems making decisions > are often covered with anxiety because of this. For > many they have a fear of not pleasing others or > pleasing the right people (wanting parents, spouses, > etc.) to be proud of them. Sometimes they are > afraid that if they make the wrong decision the > house of cards they have built for themself might > crumble down. What you'll need to do is figure out > why you make the decisions that you do and what > reasons you give yourself for those situations. For > instance: > > I think I want to leave the window closed at night > because of the heat cutting on, it will save me > money... > > vs > > I don't want to leave the window open because I'm > afraid a tick will crawl in and bite me while I > sleep and give me lyme disease... (if you're > interested, someone really said this to me once). > It wasn't that funny, except that she lived on the > 2nd or 3rd floor of an apartment building and had > window screens.... > > Reasoning and clarity when making decisions is > sometimes thrown out the window with thyroid > problems and can be the undiagnosed/un-noticed link > to finding out what is wrong. Many doctors have a > fear of conquering or at least peering around at > what is inside the brain for fear that they will get > over their heads. No pun intended. For others they > are too quick to just assume that someone has a > mental illness and give them their daily dose of > 'candy' and send them on their way. > > I am not in any way saying that you have a mental > illness! What I am saying is that people sometimes > are diagnosed too quickly with things when sometimes > just reassessing their goals and their plan of > action can be enough to help them uncover what the > problem really is. > > If you have noticed this all of your life, I have > these questions for you: > > Are you a people pleaser? Do you have trouble > saying no or giving a definative answer? Do you > often compromise yourself to please others or do you > seek praise from others? Are you indecisive because > you are not confident in your abilities? When > making decisions, do you have to review simple > questions for weeks before obtaining an answer? Do > you have trouble with accountability? People often > use the 'I don't know' defense in order to shirk > responsibility because they don't have confidence > that they can make clear decisions without the help > of others. > > Many many people suffer anxiety like this. The > anxiety can be so strong that it starts to interfere > with daily life and is often misdiagnosed as ADD or > ADHD, typically in adults. Many people find that if > they limit the causes to their anxiety (dealing with > older 'root' issues, etc.) that they are more able > to function normally with no problems. Not having a > clear plan of dealing with anxiety when it happens > can cause a sleu of health problems and other > lifestyle problems. > > If you feel that might be you, you can ask yourself > these questions: > Who first made you feel like you were not worth it? > Who first made you feel like your opinion did not > matter? > When you were younger, can you think back to a time > when you were not so indecisive? Can you compare > what is different in your life now to find your > 'lynchpin'? > Who in your life has encouraged your indecisive > tendancies? Yes, sometimes we can be sabatoged by > the people we think love us. > What current problems do you feel you have in your > life? Do you have an active plan to resolve them? > Is the plan working? > Are you open and accepting to change in your life? > Many people who have problem with this question > often have problems accepting change and personal > growth because they feel change is a bad thing > because (usually when younger - not necessarilly in > childhood) a type of change happened that was > destructive to their environment (divorce -to > themselves or parents-, rape, molestation, > accidents, etc.) > > I hope this email can help you to better understand > yourself and help you find your lost keys to > unlocking yourself . > Let me know if I can assist you in any way.... > > > Just to make you feel like I'm not some wierd quack > LOL... > > I am a Life Coach, that means that I focus on > coaching people through difficult time periods in > their lives by helping them to identify obstacles > that may be in their way and by helping them to > create a plan of action to not limit their end > goals. > > Life Coaching is NOT a form of psychology or > psychiatry. Although I will be more than happy to > work along with a counselor and I will refer clients > to seek medical help should their problems exceed my > expertise. > > My two main focuses are: Working with people who > are afraid of living to their complete potential > (which in one way or another is almost everyone LOL) > and Spiritual conflict resolution. I will work with > other situations if I feel that I could offer > something to the person asking for my help. > > International Association of Coaches (member # > 109991) > Progressive International Coaching Bureau Member > Insured through Lockton Risk Services, Inc., > endorsed by the IAC. > > _____________________________ > Any information given or dispensed by myself is from > my own experience and I am not a medical > professional. It is not intended to treat, cure, > diagnose, etc. but only to help other people gain > information and understanding of their own > conditions or possibly an underlying illness. > Please consult with your doctor or a trained medical > professional regarding your own personal case > history and your best treatment options. > > > > > Re: WAY off > topic ALERT...couch > > > I am really way off topic with this... I do > appreciate EVERYONE'S input...including the > freecycle > advice, with the zebra stipe stuff. > > For me this is about my inability to make > decisions. > I get very tentative, unable to trust myself, and > feeling pretty wobbly. EVERY decision I make I > wrestle > to death before during and after I've made it. > THEN > there are more decisions!!!! > > I wish that would go away.... > > My brain is at least depression free... THAT is > cool. > Now I can stay happy and be messed up! LOL:) > > IT would have been easier to stay in bed...but I > think > that when I finally do get it together...I'll have > some things accomplished at least. RIGHT? > > I think I'll go order that read couch...today. > YIKES...!!!! > > It always feels like I'm jumping out of a plane > without a parachute... > > ~E:) > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op. > > > > __________________________________________________________ > Yahoo! Music Unlimited > Access over 1 million songs. > http://music.yahoo.com/unlimited > > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op. ________________________________________________________________________________\ ____ The fish are biting. Get more visitors on your site using Yahoo! Search Marketing. http://searchmarketing.yahoo.com/arp/sponsoredsearch_v2.php Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 14, 2007 Report Share Posted January 14, 2007 E, I can relate to every single word you say there ! Lili > >Reply-To: The_Thyroid_Support_Group >To: The_Thyroid_Support_Group >Subject: Re: Fw: decision anxiety >Date: Sun, 14 Jan 2007 09:45:55 -0800 (PST) > > > >HEY ya there : > >Nice note. YES..a lifecoach....that sounds like a >good choice for you. > >YOU sound so good at it already... > >In my case..I know the reason for me to be so >particularly frustrated with this aspect is that this >wiggy stuff only landed on me after the TT. > >I was walking around a store one day about three weeks >after they ripped out my thyroid and realized I had >been there for hours trying to pick out a pair of >shorts!!!! I was so late getting back that...I had no >time to do my hair...and had to go out with my hair >all curly..which I never do. > >THAT same night...ended with me in tears...and my new >boyfriend kicking me out of his car. > >I HAD never in my life been that way. THAT ended the >relationship. > >I am choosey..I like to take my time, but not from >indecision, it had always been because I'm creative >and picky. > >THIS was new...totally foreign and frightening. WHAT >in the world was wrong with me? I had been a high >functioning influencer in my life...not at all shy >about calling the shots and helping others make >decsions. NOT...like this at all. > >I wondered what the connection was.... > > >I found out much later that indecsion is a hallmark >hypo symptom..because you basically got some high >functioning brain damage. The frontal cortex or >something like that that helps you to quickly rule >stuff out that you want to say...or what you want to >do... THAT little traffic controler in there goes to >sleep. > > > >SO..you seem a little drunk...saying things that are a >little inappropriate....and feeling a little >compulsive about what you want. If you realize you >are feeling compulsive..trying to find the >brakes....to slow things down rather than stop them >gets really tricky. > >People who respected you now think you are a mental >weakling. YOU now only want to please them. You are >psychotic...that is part of it. > > >SO..then you over-correct and stop making >decisions..but life won't let you. YOU must keep >moving. > >THAT is why I never left my bed after that. I just >got out of bed three months ago..and its terrifying. >I feel like an idiot and I can't do anything right. >EVEN if I got something right..the way I arrived at >something makes me feel so foolish. > > > SO.. thinking and deciding sort of lurching in >circles....and I can't make it stop. > >I'm just not the same...and you can't rely on anyone >else's point of view. Your will is gone..and you want >to just agree...because its too hard to disagree. YOU >know your decisions are worthless...because they are >like nailing jello to a wall. > > >You can't seem to feel surefooted and can't seem to go >normal speed.... ITS all compulsive or all dead stop. > I know what I want...but I can't afford everything. >ITS also true that I have no income...and people just >don't buy things without an income in my way of >thinking. > > >This is why those so called bipolars...have spending >issues. THEY buy houses and cars..without checking >their bank accounts. IT can get very out of hand. I >can see how that would be. I can really see it. > >ITS very hard to work around your own brain >damage..because we expect that the brain must be >okay..or it would burst out of the top of our heads if >there was something wrong... LOL > >People have high expectations of you..when you are >walking around. THEY just think less of you because >your question yourself so brutally. > >THEY don't applaud you for being daring and moving and >making difficult decsions. THEY should..but they >don't. To them...you are just sort of pathetic. > >I WAS not pathetic before (I could scrap with the best >of them)....so you see this is a big loss...and I have >to try and fight this imposter self off, so the real >me can reclaim her being. > >~E:) > > > > > > > > >--- Teague medstudent2be@...> >wrote: > > > > > > > > > Some people that do have problems making decisions > > are often covered with anxiety because of this. For > > many they have a fear of not pleasing others or > > pleasing the right people (wanting parents, spouses, > > etc.) to be proud of them. Sometimes they are > > afraid that if they make the wrong decision the > > house of cards they have built for themself might > > crumble down. What you'll need to do is figure out > > why you make the decisions that you do and what > > reasons you give yourself for those situations. For > > instance: > > > > I think I want to leave the window closed at night > > because of the heat cutting on, it will save me > > money... > > > > vs > > > > I don't want to leave the window open because I'm > > afraid a tick will crawl in and bite me while I > > sleep and give me lyme disease... (if you're > > interested, someone really said this to me once). > > It wasn't that funny, except that she lived on the > > 2nd or 3rd floor of an apartment building and had > > window screens.... > > > > Reasoning and clarity when making decisions is > > sometimes thrown out the window with thyroid > > problems and can be the undiagnosed/un-noticed link > > to finding out what is wrong. Many doctors have a > > fear of conquering or at least peering around at > > what is inside the brain for fear that they will get > > over their heads. No pun intended. For others they > > are too quick to just assume that someone has a > > mental illness and give them their daily dose of > > 'candy' and send them on their way. > > > > I am not in any way saying that you have a mental > > illness! What I am saying is that people sometimes > > are diagnosed too quickly with things when sometimes > > just reassessing their goals and their plan of > > action can be enough to help them uncover what the > > problem really is. > > > > If you have noticed this all of your life, I have > > these questions for you: > > > > Are you a people pleaser? Do you have trouble > > saying no or giving a definative answer? Do you > > often compromise yourself to please others or do you > > seek praise from others? Are you indecisive because > > you are not confident in your abilities? When > > making decisions, do you have to review simple > > questions for weeks before obtaining an answer? Do > > you have trouble with accountability? People often > > use the 'I don't know' defense in order to shirk > > responsibility because they don't have confidence > > that they can make clear decisions without the help > > of others. > > > > Many many people suffer anxiety like this. The > > anxiety can be so strong that it starts to interfere > > with daily life and is often misdiagnosed as ADD or > > ADHD, typically in adults. Many people find that if > > they limit the causes to their anxiety (dealing with > > older 'root' issues, etc.) that they are more able > > to function normally with no problems. Not having a > > clear plan of dealing with anxiety when it happens > > can cause a sleu of health problems and other > > lifestyle problems. > > > > If you feel that might be you, you can ask yourself > > these questions: > > Who first made you feel like you were not worth it? > > Who first made you feel like your opinion did not > > matter? > > When you were younger, can you think back to a time > > when you were not so indecisive? Can you compare > > what is different in your life now to find your > > 'lynchpin'? > > Who in your life has encouraged your indecisive > > tendancies? Yes, sometimes we can be sabatoged by > > the people we think love us. > > What current problems do you feel you have in your > > life? Do you have an active plan to resolve them? > > Is the plan working? > > Are you open and accepting to change in your life? > > Many people who have problem with this question > > often have problems accepting change and personal > > growth because they feel change is a bad thing > > because (usually when younger - not necessarilly in > > childhood) a type of change happened that was > > destructive to their environment (divorce -to > > themselves or parents-, rape, molestation, > > accidents, etc.) > > > > I hope this email can help you to better understand > > yourself and help you find your lost keys to > > unlocking yourself . > > Let me know if I can assist you in any way.... > > > > > > Just to make you feel like I'm not some wierd quack > > LOL... > > > > I am a Life Coach, that means that I focus on > > coaching people through difficult time periods in > > their lives by helping them to identify obstacles > > that may be in their way and by helping them to > > create a plan of action to not limit their end > > goals. > > > > Life Coaching is NOT a form of psychology or > > psychiatry. Although I will be more than happy to > > work along with a counselor and I will refer clients > > to seek medical help should their problems exceed my > > expertise. > > > > My two main focuses are: Working with people who > > are afraid of living to their complete potential > > (which in one way or another is almost everyone LOL) > > and Spiritual conflict resolution. I will work with > > other situations if I feel that I could offer > > something to the person asking for my help. > > > > International Association of Coaches (member # > > 109991) > > Progressive International Coaching Bureau Member > > Insured through Lockton Risk Services, Inc., > > endorsed by the IAC. > > > > _____________________________ > > Any information given or dispensed by myself is from > > my own experience and I am not a medical > > professional. It is not intended to treat, cure, > > diagnose, etc. but only to help other people gain > > information and understanding of their own > > conditions or possibly an underlying illness. > > Please consult with your doctor or a trained medical > > professional regarding your own personal case > > history and your best treatment options. > > > > > > > > > > Re: WAY off > > topic ALERT...couch > > > > > > I am really way off topic with this... I do > > appreciate EVERYONE'S input...including the > > freecycle > > advice, with the zebra stipe stuff. > > > > For me this is about my inability to make > > decisions. > > I get very tentative, unable to trust myself, and > > feeling pretty wobbly. EVERY decision I make I > > wrestle > > to death before during and after I've made it. > > THEN > > there are more decisions!!!! > > > > I wish that would go away.... > > > > My brain is at least depression free... THAT is > > cool. > > Now I can stay happy and be messed up! LOL:) > > > > IT would have been easier to stay in bed...but I > > think > > that when I finally do get it together...I'll have > > some things accomplished at least. RIGHT? > > > > I think I'll go order that read couch...today. > > YIKES...!!!! > > > > It always feels like I'm jumping out of a plane > > without a parachute... > > > > ~E:) > > > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op. > > > > > > > > >__________________________________________________________ > > Yahoo! Music Unlimited > > Access over 1 million songs. > > http://music.yahoo.com/unlimited > > > > > > > > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op. > > > > > > > > >_______________________________________________________________________________\ _____ >The fish are biting. >Get more visitors on your site using Yahoo! 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Guest guest Posted January 14, 2007 Report Share Posted January 14, 2007 Thanks LILI...sometimes I feel so alone with this thing. THANKS...for reminding me that I'm not. I really think I'm going to be getting rid of this problem soon...and it will be a great day. Take care.... You! ~E:) TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op. ________________________________________________________________________________\ ____ 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flick in no time with the Yahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut. http://tools.search.yahoo.com/shortcuts/#news Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 14, 2007 Report Share Posted January 14, 2007 I hate the indecision part of it. I didn't realize how strongly it was tied in with thyroidism. I used to be great at making decisions, and weighing pros and cons and then making a firm decision. Now, I feel OCD, it takes me literally MONTHS to pick out something new like a laptop last spring or a new digital camera cos mine is failing (that's going on right now, I can't just pick one, I have to feel like I'm getting the BEST one and there isn't a best one and I even know that but I still go through the craziness of trying). I can't decide what to eat. Nothing sounds good. I end up letting my husband decide because if it's left up to me, I want mashed potatoes and gravy and corn or peas and that's all. Nothing else. Just starchy stuff. I'm doing that again the last few weeks and that is ticking me off cos i know it means I probably need anohter adjustment and I wanted my blood drawn to get the adjustment and they couldn't hit the vein so now I have to wait another week. UGH. When does the madness stop!?!?? That's exactly how it feels, too. Like there's a traffic controller guy who sits in the front of my head and now he's on strike or asleep or something and the rest of my brain can't do it on it's own. Love that analogy. www.Lane.com www.IwakuniMCAS.com http://stewartlane.com/gallery/ Be sure to check at the bottom of every set of pictures for more pages in the set. Re: WAY off> topic ALERT...couch> > > I am really way off topic with this... I do> appreciate EVERYONE'S input...including the> freecycle> advice, with the zebra stipe stuff.> > For me this is about my inability to make> decisions. > I get very tentative, unable to trust myself, and> feeling pretty wobbly. EVERY decision I make I> wrestle> to death before during and after I've made it.> THEN> there are more decisions!!!! > > I wish that would go away....> > My brain is at least depression free... THAT is> cool.> Now I can stay happy and be messed up! LOL:) > > IT would have been easier to stay in bed...but I> think> that when I finally do get it together...I'll have> some things accomplished at least. RIGHT?> > I think I'll go order that read couch...today. > YIKES...!!!!> > It always feels like I'm jumping out of a plane> without a parachute... > > ~E:) > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op.> > > >__________________________________________________________> Yahoo! Music Unlimited> Access over 1 million songs.> http://music.yahoo.com/unlimited> > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op.__________________________________________________________The fish are biting. Get more visitors on your site using Yahoo! Search Marketing.http://searchmarketing.yahoo.com/arp/sponsoredsearch_v2.php Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 14, 2007 Report Share Posted January 14, 2007 The worst thing for me is deciding what to wear in the morning ! I just can't !! I can't remember what clothes I've got either. lol So just end up wearing the same things over and over again. Then decide I've got nothing to wear, go out and buy new clothes and just wear those, forgetting about all the other clothes I've got... etc. etc. etc. It's crazy ! Lily > >Reply-To: The_Thyroid_Support_Group >To: The_Thyroid_Support_Group > >Subject: Re: Fw: decision anxiety >Date: Mon, 15 Jan 2007 09:02:21 +0900 > >I hate the indecision part of it. I didn't realize how strongly it was >tied in with thyroidism. I used to be great at making decisions, and >weighing pros and cons and then making a firm decision. Now, I feel OCD, >it takes me literally MONTHS to pick out something new like a laptop last >spring or a new digital camera cos mine is failing (that's going on right >now, I can't just pick one, I have to feel like I'm getting the BEST one >and there isn't a best one and I even know that but I still go through the >craziness of trying). I can't decide what to eat. Nothing sounds good. I >end up letting my husband decide because if it's left up to me, I want >mashed potatoes and gravy and corn or peas and that's all. Nothing else. >Just starchy stuff. I'm doing that again the last few weeks and that is >ticking me off cos i know it means I probably need anohter adjustment and I >wanted my blood drawn to get the adjustment and they couldn't hit the vein >so now I have to wait another week. UGH. When does the madness stop!?!?? > >That's exactly how it feels, too. Like there's a traffic controller guy >who sits in the front of my head and now he's on strike or asleep or >something and the rest of my brain can't do it on it's own. Love that >analogy. > > > > >www.Lane.com >www.IwakuniMCAS.com >http://stewartlane.com/gallery/ >Be sure to check at the bottom of every set of pictures for more pages in >the set. > Re: WAY off > > topic ALERT...couch > > > > > > I am really way off topic with this... I do > > appreciate EVERYONE'S input...including the > > freecycle > > advice, with the zebra stipe stuff. > > > > For me this is about my inability to make > > decisions. > > I get very tentative, unable to trust myself, and > > feeling pretty wobbly. EVERY decision I make I > > wrestle > > to death before during and after I've made it. > > THEN > > there are more decisions!!!! > > > > I wish that would go away.... > > > > My brain is at least depression free... THAT is > > cool. > > Now I can stay happy and be messed up! LOL:) > > > > IT would have been easier to stay in bed...but I > > think > > that when I finally do get it together...I'll have > > some things accomplished at least. RIGHT? > > > > I think I'll go order that read couch...today. > > YIKES...!!!! > > > > It always feels like I'm jumping out of a plane > > without a parachute... > > > > ~E:) > > > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op. > > > > > > > > > __________________________________________________________ > > Yahoo! Music Unlimited > > Access over 1 million songs. > > http://music.yahoo.com/unlimited > > > > > > > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op. > > > __________________________________________________________ > The fish are biting. > Get more visitors on your site using Yahoo! Search Marketing. > http://searchmarketing.yahoo.com/arp/sponsoredsearch_v2.php > > > ><< -Katakana.gif >> ><< -Katakana.gif >> _________________________________________________________________ Avec Windows Live OneCare éliminez tous les virus de votre PC ! http://www.windowslive.fr/liveonecare/default.asp Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 14, 2007 Report Share Posted January 14, 2007 that is an excellent summation of what it means to be hypo or to have any illness. now that you know that it IS just the disease that has made you that way, you at least know where to start from lol. so now you'll form your 'attack cat' strategy. i call it that because my black cat magic will spend her day shredding a roll of paper towels. it's very interesting to watch her conserve all of her energy as much as possible so that she can take all of her energy and use it to shred that roll of paper towels. and she doesn't just shred... she shreds. then she goes back after a rest and shreds some more and after that, some more. living with hypothyroidism is one of those things where sometimes we need to be attack cats and shred our way through our situations. whether they be wandering through the aisles of a store remembering how we got there (been there) or wondering in awe how we managed to win a game of jeopardy to keep our minds sharp (which i've done to). Matter of fact, I think we should all have 'attack cat' signs in our front yards... watch our world!!! here we come. What you'll need to focus on now is making your plan and keeping it. will you pace yourself some days and dive right in on others? will you train your brain to rewire itself? the brain can do that after all... will you give yourself permission to have off days where you can just be your highly dysfunctioning functional self? where you can just lounge around in your robe and play with the puppy... if there is a hormonal reason for your anxiety, will you try to find it? i used to think i had to live my life around my disease, that it planned my day. now, i plan my day and it lives around me. i have noticed that the kid growing up who was really smart but made C's & D's was really just suffering from allergic reactions, lack of proper vitamins and thyroid problems... now when i get enough sleep, have enough vitamins, take my pills on time, don't have allergic reactions, my world aligns and i'm good... but as soon as one of those things is off... oh man, my day goes to hell quick and i spend days and days getting back to good. some of the old timers here (if you weren't here before i was... i don't remember) this group was my life line... i was bed bound when i found this group. i slept 3-12 hours + a day and had the run around by my docs so i can really say, i've been there. for the first time in my life this year i'm seeing just how much i'm listening to my body. i am now in the preventative mode. in et, deeply paranoid psychologically puzzling mode where i really need to live in a bubble and am at the point where i'd be happy with that if it meant that i could still go to school & get my degree LOL. i don't want to have any allergens (which is my big trigger that my hypo-ness is secondary to) so giving up the foods is no biggie... no cheese, beans, etc. is worth WAY worth not being like 'that' lol. when you are able to find your triggers.. which, honestly starting over completely can give you that glory . you will love the freedom that you will take back for yourself. by the grace of having my parents i was not homeless and that was the only reason. the fiance i was with bailed when i got sick because he couldn't understand that it was my illness and not me. i lost job after job because i couldn't work and i was sporadic with my health.... i was in debt and i couldn't even afford meds from the free clinic lol. 'it only costs $3'... they would say, 'can't you get your pastor to pay for it??' they'd say.. then i would say, 'damn it, i am the pastor!!' LOL. you will make it through this and you will find that this experience teaches you one thing.... that you are stronger than even you know . that's the wonderful thing about losing everything... you learn who you are without it. , andrea 'attack cats.... unite!!!!' Re: WAY off> topic ALERT...couch> > > I am really way off topic with this... I do> appreciate EVERYONE'S input...including the> freecycle> advice, with the zebra stipe stuff.> > For me this is about my inability to make> decisions. > I get very tentative, unable to trust myself, and> feeling pretty wobbly. EVERY decision I make I> wrestle> to death before during and after I've made it.> THEN> there are more decisions!!!! > > I wish that would go away....> > My brain is at least depression free... THAT is> cool.> Now I can stay happy and be messed up! LOL:) > > IT would have been easier to stay in bed...but I> think> that when I finally do get it together...I'll have> some things accomplished at least. RIGHT?> > I think I'll go order that read couch...today. > YIKES...!!!!> > It always feels like I'm jumping out of a plane> without a parachute... > > ~E:) > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op.> > > >__________________________________________________________> Yahoo! Music Unlimited> Access over 1 million songs.> http://music.yahoo.com/unlimited> > > TOTAL-Thyroidectomy 26 months post-op.__________________________________________________________The fish are biting. Get more visitors on your site using Yahoo! Search Marketing.http://searchmarketing.yahoo.com/arp/sponsoredsearch_v2.php Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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