Guest guest Posted December 27, 2006 Report Share Posted December 27, 2006 Evening, everyone. I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way around the world... My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your head that screams out doom-and-gloom? I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an instrument for others. Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I feel and know that you will understand. Hugs, Lucinda in VA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 28, 2006 Report Share Posted December 28, 2006 Lucinda, Welcome to the group. First try to remember that breast cancer is NOT the death sentence it was once thought to be. There are many women living a good life after being diagnosed. I had my surgery in May 1990. I had a 2.5 cm tumor. The doctor took 23 lymph nodes and one came back cancerous. I had 6 mo of chemo (12 treatments) no radiation or reconstruction. Try to take things one day at a time. If that is too much go hour by hour. Once you find out what is going on it will be better. Fear of the unknown is the worst part. Eighty percent of lumps are not cancerous. I will keep you in my prayers. Feel free to ask any questions you may have. Hugs nne Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Life http://www.geocities.com/chucky5741/breastcancerpatients.html BreastCancerStories.com http://www.breastcancerstories.com/content/view/433/161/ Angel Feather Loomer www.angelfeatherloomer.blogspot.com Check out my other ornaments at www.geocities.com/chucky5741/bcornament.html Lots of info and gifts at: www.cancerclub.com I'm new here Evening, everyone. I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way around the world... My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your head that screams out doom-and-gloom? I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an instrument for others. Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I feel and know that you will understand. Hugs, Lucinda in VA ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ No virus found in this incoming message. Checked by AVG Free Edition. Version: 7.1.409 / Virus Database: 268.15.28/606 - Release Date: 12/28/2006 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 28, 2006 Report Share Posted December 28, 2006 Lucinda - Hang in there girlfriend! We've all been where you are right now and waiting in the hardest part. IF.....and I mean IF..you have " something " to deal with - have faith that you will find the strength to do so. We all have - and continue to do that daily. Welcome to the group - I'm glad that you are reaching out and can talk here - the rest will come. Hugs and good luck with your appointment! Let us know how you make out. Ellen > > Evening, everyone. > > I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the > process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- > November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who > insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a > mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), > and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind > telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth > between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power > so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the > dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and > son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way > around the world... > > My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your > head that screams out doom-and-gloom? > > I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will > be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for > you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in > the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an > instrument for others. > > Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I > feel and know that you will understand. > > Hugs, > Lucinda in VA > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 28, 2006 Report Share Posted December 28, 2006 Lucinda, I know how you feel hun, the devastation is just unbearable at times. When I first felt my lump, it was pretty horrifying. Actually my mass floated to the top of my chest area just above my left breast over night. Like it was not there the night before and walla there it is, and it was so sore. The lady who did my mammogram said that was a good sign as most breast cancers are NOT sore.. WRONG.. they are indeed VERY sore. I had my lumpectomy a week later, in which the doctor said he removed a baseball size mass. After it was sent off , I went to his office to learn the terrible truth.. " You have breast cancer. " Those words will ring in my mind forever. The first thing you ask is Why me? Well Why not me? Who am I? People all around the world suffer from horrible and terifying diseases and experiences. And God is no respector of persons, so Who am I to think I should have been spared from this? I had a second surgery a week later to clean out around the area he said to be sure he got it all. They recommeneded 3 rounds of chemotherapy and 36 rounds of local radiaiton. I refused the chemo. If I am gonna die, I want to at least die with my dignity. And I did not want a poison injected into my body to kill whatever I had good going on inside of me. I did do the 36 rounds of local radiation however. Which left my body very weak and tired all the time. I was anointed and prayed for in church the Sunday before my first surgery on Monday. God healed me of my cancer then,. Some say , " well if He did heal you then, why did you have to go thru the surgery and treatments and all? " Well that part of it I do not know, but I do know that God has a plan, and I am a part of it, just as you are and all the ones who are stricken with this horrible disease. Maybe this is the reason. so that I might be able to shed a ray of hope for others who are going thru the same thing.. God works in very mysterious ways. I have had many friends and acquaintances die from cancer, and it just breaks my heart when I hear of someone losing their life to this dreaded disease. I realize how lucky I am to have been spared. Out of my experience with breast cancer, I started writing a song to express my feelings about this experience and trying time. Then another song came and another and now I have written over 40 gospel songs, since August 2005. My husband and I play and sing and are working on our 4th CD. My prayers are with you hun. you have to keep a positive attitude and it is helpful if you have family members who will never let you give up hope, as my husband did for me. There was never a day that he let me doubt or give up, always holding me and comforting me when I cried and was down about things. I am so thankful to God for sending him to me. We had just met a few months pryer to my diagnoses. I had just recently divorced a very controlling and abusive man after 33 years of marriage to him.. NO doubt if we had still been together, I would have given up and probably would not be typing this to you today. God was working and I didn't even know it. So Strange. Many thoughts and prayers your way as you go thru this thing. It takes a lot of strength and will power, but I feel you have come to the right place to get the support you need to OVERCOME. Trust GOD. Rhonda LAUGH and the world LAUGHS with you...CRY and you CRY alone!!!! __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 28, 2006 Report Share Posted December 28, 2006 > > Evening, everyone. > > I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the > process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- > November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who > insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a > mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), > and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind > telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth > between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power > so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the > dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and > son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way > around the world... > > My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your > head that screams out doom-and-gloom? > > I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will > be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for > you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in > the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an > instrument for others. > > Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I > feel and know that you will understand. > > Hugs, > Lucinda in VA > HELLO lUCINDA, HOW RIGHT YOU ARE. GOD HAS PUT THE RIGHT PEOPLE/THINGS IN THE RIGHT PLACE AT THE RIGHT TIME. I DON'T FEEL YOU'RE RAMBLING,OUR LIVES JUST CHANGED DRASTICALLY...NEVER TO BE THE SAME...BUT IN A GOOD WAY...I WANT TO HELP PEOPLE MORE, LISTEN MORE, MAKE PEOPLE SMILE MORE, NO TIME TO WASTE BEING IRRITABLE. NOW WHEN MY KIDS DO SOMETHING_________ (FILL IN THE BLANK), I SPEAK,MUCH MORE CONTROLLED AND WITH A LOVING TONE...I WANT THEM TO HAVE MORE POSITIVE INTERACTIONS TO FALL BACK ON, BECAUSE THIS IS OVERWHELMING AND SCAREY FOR THEM ALSO. AND BECAUSE THIS SITE IS SO SUPPORTIVE, I CAN BE EVEN MORE HONEST WITH YOU AND SAY, " THE FACT THAT 2 MEDICATIONS THAT I AM ON, CAN DAMAGE THE HEART MUSCLE(A/C AND NEUOPGEN)HAS PERSUADED ME BE TO BECOME MORE CONTROLLED AND LOVING!!!(THOSE DAYS OF SCREAMING LIKE A(FILL IN THE BLANK AGAIN)ARE OVER...FOR FEAR OF A HEART ATTACK)!!! " WELCOME, SANDY FROM LOS ANGELES Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 29, 2006 Report Share Posted December 29, 2006 Always think positive, It's not always bad news!! lucinda eaglemom53@...> wrote: Evening, everyone. I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way around the world... My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your head that screams out doom-and-gloom? I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an instrument for others. Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I feel and know that you will understand. Hugs, Lucinda in VA DING __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 29, 2006 Report Share Posted December 29, 2006 Lucinda, For me, it was taking each step at a time. I did not tell my family about my breast not feeling right (I didn't feel a lump) or the first visit with my family doctor (Dec2005). I had a mammogram in Jan 2006, saw a surgeon later that month where I had a needle biopsy that came back negative. Surgeon wanted a core biopsy, so it was at this point that I told my family. I was planning a trip to see my daughter (son lives with us) who lives about 12 hours away. It was at that time, during our visit that I let her know what was going on. I didn't want to worry any one until I felt this was becoming all too much real. With my daughter, she had a good friend go through breast cancer the year before, so I wanted to do it in person as basically, she knew too much. I think you need to beat down that little gremlin of 'doom and gloom' with 'one step at a time' or 'one day at a time'. You are here right now. If what you have is cancerous, it will be treated. Between you and your doctor a plan will be made and it will get better. You'll have a plan to follow. Depending on treatment, it might not be easy, but there will be a beginning and an end to it. I have a tendency to want to prepare for things, so at times its prepare for the worst. My dh and I went away for an overnight and I was talking about what could possibly happen (my treatment is finished and we just hope it got all the cancer and no more treatment is needed) when he said.... 'I feel we did what we had to, went through treatments, killed the cancer and it won't be coming back. Is it okay if I look at it that way?' Of course I couldn't say no. Each of us has to deal with this as we feel best. I hope he's right. Just don't want to lose the lessons I've learned from this experience. This is a great place to find support. I never joined a local support group because I felt and still do, that I can get the support I need 24/7 here. It's a great group of people and I'm sure you'll find an answer for any questions you might have or just a shoulder to lean on when you need to. Keep us posted on how you are doing and what your doctor has to say. Ask any questions.... so many have been through it, so many still to go. Barb Michigan I'm new here Evening, everyone. I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way around the world... My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your head that screams out doom-and-gloom? I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an instrument for others. Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I feel and know that you will understand. Hugs, Lucinda in VA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 30, 2006 Report Share Posted December 30, 2006 Isn't it always an eye opener when things happen.... and we don't really know why.... until later. God then shows us his plan. You talk about if you had not left your ex-husband and met your current husband you might not be here. God was there and knew you needed someone strong and loving to see you through breast cancer. It always amazes me when I can follow God's trail backwards and know He's been there for me for a long, long time. And His plans have been in motion long before I realized it. Barb Michigan Re: I'm new here Lucinda, I know how you feel hun, the devastation is just unbearable at times. When I first felt my lump, it was pretty horrifying. Actually my mass floated to the top of my chest area just above my left breast over night. Like it was not there the night before and walla there it is, and it was so sore. The lady who did my mammogram said that was a good sign as most breast cancers are NOT sore.. WRONG.. they are indeed VERY sore. I had my lumpectomy a week later, in which the doctor said he removed a baseball size mass. After it was sent off , I went to his office to learn the terrible truth.. " You have breast cancer. " Those words will ring in my mind forever. The first thing you ask is Why me? Well Why not me? Who am I? People all around the world suffer from horrible and terifying diseases and experiences. And God is no respector of persons, so Who am I to think I should have been spared from this? I had a second surgery a week later to clean out around the area he said to be sure he got it all. They recommeneded 3 rounds of chemotherapy and 36 rounds of local radiaiton. I refused the chemo. If I am gonna die, I want to at least die with my dignity. And I did not want a poison injected into my body to kill whatever I had good going on inside of me. I did do the 36 rounds of local radiation however. Which left my body very weak and tired all the time. I was anointed and prayed for in church the Sunday before my first surgery on Monday. God healed me of my cancer then,. Some say , " well if He did heal you then, why did you have to go thru the surgery and treatments and all? " Well that part of it I do not know, but I do know that God has a plan, and I am a part of it, just as you are and all the ones who are stricken with this horrible disease. Maybe this is the reason. so that I might be able to shed a ray of hope for others who are going thru the same thing.. God works in very mysterious ways. I have had many friends and acquaintances die from cancer, and it just breaks my heart when I hear of someone losing their life to this dreaded disease. I realize how lucky I am to have been spared. Out of my experience with breast cancer, I started writing a song to express my feelings about this experience and trying time. Then another song came and another and now I have written over 40 gospel songs, since August 2005. My husband and I play and sing and are working on our 4th CD. My prayers are with you hun. you have to keep a positive attitude and it is helpful if you have family members who will never let you give up hope, as my husband did for me. There was never a day that he let me doubt or give up, always holding me and comforting me when I cried and was down about things. I am so thankful to God for sending him to me. We had just met a few months pryer to my diagnoses. I had just recently divorced a very controlling and abusive man after 33 years of marriage to him.. NO doubt if we had still been together, I would have given up and probably would not be typing this to you today. God was working and I didn't even know it. So Strange. Many thoughts and prayers your way as you go thru this thing. It takes a lot of strength and will power, but I feel you have come to the right place to get the support you need to OVERCOME. Trust GOD. Rhonda LAUGH and the world LAUGHS with you...CRY and you CRY alone!!!! __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 30, 2006 Report Share Posted December 30, 2006 Hi, I've been reading all the emails, and upon this one I discovered the no pain, and pain part of a lump. I have three lumps in my left breast, I feel like I have a basketball siting on my chest, and there is quite a bit of pain with these lumps, I just went through the mamogram, and ultrasound test, owe 395.00 for that which I wouldn't have had done if I knew it was going to cost like that , I was trying to get it done through other methods, now they have sent me a cerified letter, and I have a prescription for a core biopsy. They wanted 1100.00 for that which I am in no way able to afford, I am an unemployed loser I guess. The reports say the lumps are 1.2cm, 0.8 cm, and 0.8 cm. the breast is increasing steadily in size, is quite a bit larger than the other side. they say the lumps are suspicious. the pain I have is not always steady, or there I have brief respites from it. I had a lumpectomy done on the right breast 14 years ago, when I was pregnant, they said at the time that it had cancer cells but had not mestasisized. ok, I now know that means the cancer did not travel, or think that's what they meant. I didn't have chemo or anything else 14 years ago, they said they had got all of it. I will be 40 years old on the 8th of february, so my first bout with this mess was in my twenties, and from what all I have read is not very good. the radiologist I had the recent mamogram and stuff done is trying to tell me that I didn't have cancer 14 years ago, they don't have the reports. unfortunately, all my medical papers were destroyed 10 years ago when my ex husband died from leukemia, his family burned everything with my name on it. I can't remember the surgeons name, or any of that stuff. I am really unsure of what to do I am thinking about just forgetting as best I can that anything hurts and just try to find a job and live my life the best I can. I went through the radiation and chemo as a bystander with my ex husband, and I am not really sure I want to chance it and end up living like he did. I am terribly confused, broke, and I don't really qualify for most of the programs in this country to help someone with medical care. seems, you have to have children in your care to qualify for medicaide, or definately be diagnosed with cancer, or a life threaghtening illness. I don't qualify with a report of suspicous, needing a biopsy. The lymph nodes under my left arm keep swelling, along with the pain, and frequently fevers at night. my daughter isn't very concerned with any of this, my mother is freaking out, and everyone else is on my ass to get something done about it. I feel lost and liked my hands are tied, and foolish for even going to the doctor in the first place. is all of this common? Re: I'm new here Lucinda, I know how you feel hun, the devastation is just unbearable at times. When I first felt my lump, it was pretty horrifying. Actually my mass floated to the top of my chest area just above my left breast over night. Like it was not there the night before and walla there it is, and it was so sore. The lady who did my mammogram said that was a good sign as most breast cancers are NOT sore.. WRONG.. they are indeed VERY sore. I had my lumpectomy a week later, in which the doctor said he removed a baseball size mass. After it was sent off , I went to his office to learn the terrible truth.. " You have breast cancer. " Those words will ring in my mind forever. The first thing you ask is Why me? Well Why not me? Who am I? People all around the world suffer from horrible and terifying diseases and experiences. And God is no respector of persons, so Who am I to think I should have been spared from this? I had a second surgery a week later to clean out around the area he said to be sure he got it all. They recommeneded 3 rounds of chemotherapy and 36 rounds of local radiaiton. I refused the chemo. If I am gonna die, I want to at least die with my dignity. And I did not want a poison injected into my body to kill whatever I had good going on inside of me. I did do the 36 rounds of local radiation however. Which left my body very weak and tired all the time. I was anointed and prayed for in church the Sunday before my first surgery on Monday. God healed me of my cancer then,. Some say , " well if He did heal you then, why did you have to go thru the surgery and treatments and all? " Well that part of it I do not know, but I do know that God has a plan, and I am a part of it, just as you are and all the ones who are stricken with this horrible disease. Maybe this is the reason. so that I might be able to shed a ray of hope for others who are going thru the same thing.. God works in very mysterious ways. I have had many friends and acquaintances die from cancer, and it just breaks my heart when I hear of someone losing their life to this dreaded disease. I realize how lucky I am to have been spared. Out of my experience with breast cancer, I started writing a song to express my feelings about this experience and trying time. Then another song came and another and now I have written over 40 gospel songs, since August 2005. My husband and I play and sing and are working on our 4th CD. My prayers are with you hun. you have to keep a positive attitude and it is helpful if you have family members who will never let you give up hope, as my husband did for me. There was never a day that he let me doubt or give up, always holding me and comforting me when I cried and was down about things. I am so thankful to God for sending him to me. We had just met a few months pryer to my diagnoses. I had just recently divorced a very controlling and abusive man after 33 years of marriage to him.. NO doubt if we had still been together, I would have given up and probably would not be typing this to you today. God was working and I didn't even know it. So Strange. Many thoughts and prayers your way as you go thru this thing. It takes a lot of strength and will power, but I feel you have come to the right place to get the support you need to OVERCOME. Trust GOD. Rhonda LAUGH and the world LAUGHS with you...CRY and you CRY alone!!!! ____________ _________ _________ _________ _________ __ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 31, 2006 Report Share Posted December 31, 2006 Lucinda: I have just come through those things that you are describing. I just had a mastectomy on December 11. This is my third week since surgery. The time that you have now is the time to read, read, read. This group is great for information and support. Crying is great and being reasonable --- well, I don't know if a person is ever " reasonable " when it comes to breast cancer. There are a lot of options for you. As many will tell you, breast cancer is not a death sentence. Just take what time is given to you now and gain all the support and information that you can. Just know that you are in the prayers of many, many women and men. This helps immensely. Listen to your doctor and if need be, get a second opinion. This isn't an easy journey but it is not impossible. Cancer can take over your life so take care of yourself and share your concerns with your husband and family when you have the information from your doctor. We are here for you. Jan K > > Evening, everyone. > > I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the > process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- > November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who > insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a > mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), > and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind > telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth > between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power > so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the > dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and > son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way > around the world... > > My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your > head that screams out doom-and-gloom? > > I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will > be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for > you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in > the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an > instrument for others. > > Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I > feel and know that you will understand. > > Hugs, > Lucinda in VA > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 3, 2007 Report Share Posted January 3, 2007 Hi Lucinder, Your response is exactly like mine and many many others. I was very consoled when the surgeon told me that bc is treatable and not a death sentence. He even said that at least it is an external organ that is involved and can be easily removed. So with prayers and the grace from God almighty I was able to go through all the necessary treatments and stay on top of the issue. I'm now a third year survivor. So, be not afraid whatever the outcome. We need to be warriors to win the fight! Suppress the gloom and doom thoughts with knowledge and prayers. God bless you, Aurelia. I'm new here Evening, everyone. I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way around the world... My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your head that screams out doom-and-gloom? I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an instrument for others. Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I feel and know that you will understand. Hugs, Lucinda in VA __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 6, 2007 Report Share Posted January 6, 2007 > > Evening, everyone. > > I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the > process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- > November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who > insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a > mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), > and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind > telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth > between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power > so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the > dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and > son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way > around the world... > > My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your > head that screams out doom-and-gloom? > > I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will > be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for > you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in > the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an > instrument for others. > > Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I > feel and know that you will understand. > > Hugs, > Lucinda in VA > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2007 Report Share Posted January 7, 2007 Lucinda, As time goes on we don't tend to worry as much. We HAVE to be vigilant about our health but it doesn't occupy our thoughts 24/7. Its over 16 yrs for me now and I have to say I don't worry anywhere near like I used to. I will keep you in my prayers. Hugs nne Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Life http://www.geocities.com/chucky5741/breastcancerpatients.html BreastCancerStories.com http://www.breastcancerstories.com/content/view/433/161/ Angel Feather Loomer www.angelfeatherloomer.blogspot.com Check out my other ornaments at www.geocities.com/chucky5741/bcornament.html Lots of info and gifts at: www.cancerclub.com Re: I'm new here > > Evening, everyone. > > I am so grateful to find this wonderful group. I am just in the > process now of finding out what is going on. I found a lump in mid- > November, denied it, then fell apart and told my husband, who > insisted that I get it checked. I had it checked 12/12, had a > mammogram on 12/22 that doesn't look good (Merry Christmas, huh?), > and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. I don't mind > telling you that I am scared witless! I waffle back-and-forth > between being " reasonable " and crying. I know that knowledge is power > so I have been doing research, but until I get information from the > dr. I feel like I am in no-man's land. So far only my husband and > son know, and I need to tell my daughter, but she lives half-way > around the world... > > My question is how do you live with the constant little voice in your > head that screams out doom-and-gloom? > > I have been reading some of your posts, and I think that you all will > be a big support for me, and I will try to be just as supportive for > you. My faith tells me that God will put the right people/things in > the right place at the right time, just as he uses me as an > instrument for others. > > Sorry for the rambling, but it feels so good to be able to say what I > feel and know that you will understand. > > Hugs, > Lucinda in VA > ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ No virus found in this incoming message. Checked by AVG Free Edition. Version: 7.1.410 / Virus Database: 268.16.7/618 - Release Date: 1/6/2007 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2007 Report Share Posted January 7, 2007 Cancer was confirmed on Friday. I go see the oncologist tomorrow afternoon...maybe will have chemo to reduce the size of the tumor before surgery. I have already told my breast surgeon that at this point in my life, breasts are a vestial organ, so if we can, I would like to have the other one reduced to match. My husband is okay with that. At this point, he is having more concerns than I am (his mom died of cancer about 27 years ago). I keep telling him to think (and live) one day at a time, which is hard for him, since he is one of those long term planner people. Thank God, I'm not! Baby steps are best right now. I'll report back in tomorrow after I see the doctor Thanks to all you lovely, helpful people. I love and cherish each and every one of you! Lucinda __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2007 Report Share Posted January 7, 2007 Lucinda, Thanks for letting us know. I will keep you and your husband in my prayers. hugs nne Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Life http://www.geocities.com/chucky5741/breastcancerpatients.html BreastCancerStories.com http://www.breastcancerstories.com/content/view/433/161/ Angel Feather Loomer www.angelfeatherloomer.blogspot.com Check out my other ornaments at www.geocities.com/chucky5741/bcornament.html Lots of info and gifts at: www.cancerclub.com Re: Re: I'm new here Cancer was confirmed on Friday. I go see the oncologist tomorrow afternoon...maybe will have chemo to reduce the size of the tumor before surgery. I have already told my breast surgeon that at this point in my life, breasts are a vestial organ, so if we can, I would like to have the other one reduced to match. My husband is okay with that. At this point, he is having more concerns than I am (his mom died of cancer about 27 years ago). I keep telling him to think (and live) one day at a time, which is hard for him, since he is one of those long term planner people. Thank God, I'm not! Baby steps are best right now. I'll report back in tomorrow after I see the doctor Thanks to all you lovely, helpful people. I love and cherish each and every one of you! Lucinda __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2007 Report Share Posted January 7, 2007 Lucinda, you sound incredibly positive. Huge part of the battle, best of luck to you prayers are being to sent for you and your husband. Patti in Alaska _____ From: breastcancer2 [mailto:breastcancer2 ] On Behalf Of eaglemom53 Sent: Sunday, January 07, 2007 6:47 AM To: breastcancer2 Subject: Re: Re: I'm new here Cancer was confirmed on Friday. I go see the oncologist tomorrow afternoon...maybe will have chemo to reduce the size of the tumor before surgery. I have already told my breast surgeon that at this point in my life, breasts are a vestial organ, so if we can, I would like to have the other one reduced to match. My husband is okay with that. At this point, he is having more concerns than I am (his mom died of cancer about 27 years ago). I keep telling him to think (and live) one day at a time, which is hard for him, since he is one of those long term planner people. Thank God, I'm not! Baby steps are best right now. I'll report back in tomorrow after I see the doctor Thanks to all you lovely, helpful people. I love and cherish each and every one of you! Lucinda __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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