Guest guest Posted December 18, 2006 Report Share Posted December 18, 2006 Hi Barb, I COMPLETELY have motivation issues. I keep trying to explain it like I cannot get myself back. I am 8 months out from chemo but I had many problems from chemo. like my stomach lining was toast and a burnt esaphagus. (and some really bad neuropathy) I threw up my last three months (out of four) and continued to throwup for three more months. It wasn't nausea it was my stomach/lining rejecting everything I put in my mouth. (and I still gained weight.I performed a miracle, eh?) Anyway, as of two weeks ago I started eliminating the drugs I've been on for these various ailments. Going off a couple of them have stopped me from feeling like sleeping but not from still being " tired " I was on an anti-depressant also and I stopped that too. I wanted to see, or try to figure out WHY WHY WHY can I not feel like myself anymore. I still have to take a couple of meds for my stomach & throat and tamoxifen for the after BC drug and I know I feel a whole lot better than I have since chemo but I'm STILL in the limbo stage of not being able to get myself going. I can't stand it. I feel incredibly inadequate. I still have 4 girls in the home (2,3,14 & 17) and I can't keep up with the schedule. I'm accustomed to having up to 8 kids in the house and running around like a chicken with my head cut off. And now, even with my older girls helping and my husband, too, I still feel like everything is such a chore. Which leads me back to saying I just can't get MEEEEEEE back! (and I want me back) hugs! Dari Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2006 Report Share Posted December 18, 2006 I'm so sorry, Dari. Sounds like I need to keep my mouth shut and stop complaining. But at least I'm glad I'm not crazy. For me its not so much getting my old self back as is it getting motivated just to do the things I use to like to do. (Ok, so maybe cleaning the house isn't one of those things, but I always enjoyed laundry and grocery shopping and even those are no fun any more). 'They' say it takes a year, but who is patient enough for that!!!! Like you, it would be nice to be off the medications. Being done with treatment is definitely better.... just not completely. Maybe its just a down day. Hope tomorrow is better for both of us. Barb Michigan Question-Barb Hi Barb, I COMPLETELY have motivation issues. I keep trying to explain it like I cannot get myself back. I am 8 months out from chemo but I had many problems from chemo. like my stomach lining was toast and a burnt esaphagus. (and some really bad neuropathy) I threw up my last three months (out of four) and continued to throwup for three more months. It wasn't nausea it was my stomach/lining rejecting everything I put in my mouth. (and I still gained weight.I performed a miracle, eh?) Anyway, as of two weeks ago I started eliminating the drugs I've been on for these various ailments. Going off a couple of them have stopped me from feeling like sleeping but not from still being " tired " I was on an anti-depressant also and I stopped that too. I wanted to see, or try to figure out WHY WHY WHY can I not feel like myself anymore. I still have to take a couple of meds for my stomach & throat and tamoxifen for the after BC drug and I know I feel a whole lot better than I have since chemo but I'm STILL in the limbo stage of not being able to get myself going. I can't stand it. I feel incredibly inadequate. I still have 4 girls in the home (2,3,14 & 17) and I can't keep up with the schedule. I'm accustomed to having up to 8 kids in the house and running around like a chicken with my head cut off. And now, even with my older girls helping and my husband, too, I still feel like everything is such a chore. Which leads me back to saying I just can't get MEEEEEEE back! (and I want me back) hugs! Dari Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2006 Report Share Posted December 18, 2006 Yeah, for all 3 (thousands) of us. I can definitely identify with both of you!! We do need to give ourselves time. I guess that is the most important gift we can give ourselves, though it is hard to admit you are not super woman! Ruth > > I'm so sorry, Dari. Sounds like I need to keep my mouth shut and stop complaining. But at least I'm glad I'm not crazy. For me its not so much getting my old self back as is it getting motivated just to do the things I use to like to do. (Ok, so maybe cleaning the house isn't one of those things, but I always enjoyed laundry and grocery shopping and even those are no fun any more). 'They' say it takes a year, but who is patient enough for that!!!! Like you, it would be nice to be off the medications. > > Being done with treatment is definitely better.... just not completely. Maybe its just a down day. Hope tomorrow is better for both of us. > > Barb > Michigan > > Question-Barb > > > Hi Barb, > I COMPLETELY have motivation issues. I keep trying to explain it like I > cannot get myself back. > I am 8 months out from chemo but I had many problems from chemo. > like my stomach lining was toast and a burnt esaphagus. (and some really bad > neuropathy) I threw up my last three months (out of four) and continued to > throwup for three more months. It wasn't nausea it was my stomach/lining > rejecting everything I put in my mouth. (and I still gained weight.I performed a > miracle, eh?) > Anyway, as of two weeks ago I started eliminating the drugs I've been on for > these various ailments. > Going off a couple of them have stopped me from feeling like sleeping but not > from still being " tired " > I was on an anti-depressant also and I stopped that too. I wanted to see, or > try to figure out WHY WHY WHY can I not feel like myself anymore. > I still have to take a couple of meds for my stomach & throat and tamoxifen > for the after BC drug and I know I feel a whole lot better than I have since > chemo but I'm STILL in the limbo stage of not being able to get myself going. > I can't stand it. I feel incredibly inadequate. I still have 4 girls in the > home (2,3,14 & 17) and I can't keep up with the schedule. I'm accustomed to > having up to 8 kids in the house and running around like a chicken with my > head cut off. > And now, even with my older girls helping and my husband, too, I still feel > like everything is such a chore. > Which leads me back to saying I just can't get MEEEEEEE back! (and I want > me back) > hugs! > Dari > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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