Re: I REQUEST ALL OF YOUR FORGIVNESS AND HUMBELLY THANK YOU!!!

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.......til you walk in his shoes...

Connie

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Hi Bart,

I thank God that you are o.k. We all have a past and some of us have not had a

great past. We were not meant to live in the past and thank the Lord for it

because the way I feel is, if I have to go through some of the things I went

through over again in my past, I would have a real serious talk with the Lord

about taking me home with Him. I'm glad for tomorrow because it holds promise.

The Lord loves us so much and He wants to bless us beyond our expectations. But

you know who does not want us to be happy, so that's why we experience setbacks

sometimes. Nonetheless, God always makes a way out for us. I'm glad He is

making a way out for you and that you will be posting. I may not write often

but when I do it's from my heart. Take care Bart and know that I am praying for

you.

God Bless

Yolanda

I REQUEST ALL OF YOUR FORGIVNESS AND HUMBELLY THANK

YOU!!!

Ok Ya'll; I guess it is time for some explaining. First of all, Thanks

for everyone's concerns of my last written post on Sunday. I really didn't know

that you all cared as much for people whom you have never met before. Sure we

e-mail to one another but folks say a lot and not really mean what they say. But

anyway, it meant a lot to me that ya'll really do care. Second, I want you to

PLEASE believe me. I would do NOTHING to bring harm to myself or anyone else

willfully. I don't believe in it and never will. I am a very strong willed

person, but, I am human also and I do have emotions also even though some folks

I knew in the past would argue with me about it. I am an entravert and not a

extravert so this is kind of hard to say about why I vented the way I did. So

here goes, I couldn't go to sleep that evening so I laid in my bed and looked at

everything that has happened in my life from childhood to middle age. During

this time I seen where I've had been lied to, cheated, used, abused, broke and

homeless. I have been beaten and put down but I always seemed to pick myself

back up again. But this time I've ran into a opposition I just can't beat and he

brought some help with him to give me even a harder time and that's PLS and the

SSA. And if that wasn't bad enough, my Stupid donkey(think about it) lawyer

screwed up and the court; Federal; Dismissed my bankruptcy and now my wife and I

have to go through all that again. But we know what the Bible say's; God will

not give us more than we can handle. Well, I think He has found my limit. So,

thinking about all of that I started thinking, man; if things don't start

turning around in my life, I just don't want to live anymore. Then I got to

thinking that the reason that all this has happened is because God is chastising

me for not doing what He called me to do, which being a rebellious child I

didn't. But there again a lot of the bad things such as physical and sexual

abuse happened to me in my childhood. I just don't know. I guess I was born

under a bad sign. Well that's about the situation, of course you have to fill in

the lines in between, I just summerized the problems I've had. If I went in to

detail this would be a book. So PLEASE forgive me and again, I am very sorry for

venting the way I did. Next time I will type; THIS IS A VENT AND ONLY A VENT,

DO NOT PASS GO AND DO NOT COLLECT $200.00 DOLLARS. The councelor did change my

medicine from Lexapro to a generic form of prozac. She also gave me a sleeping

medication which is also suppose to suppress my " anger " , I told her I was a

entravert. But anyway THANKS for being so caring and I hope I will get to meet

ya'll soon! I was going to try to make it to the NC connection, but there again,

I don't meet the criteria to qualify for travel assistance and not working, I

can't afford it.