:Ang Re: Weigh in's request / Gena

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I really think I've gone into some mental ? thing now. It use to be

getting healthy and looseing weight to a reasonable point, not even

thin, just 'better'. Now - my mind has been taken over by some crazy

woman who desperatly wants to be 21 again and seeing how far I've

come isn't good enough or even satisfiying anymore. All I can see is

this " place " I want to be. Young and beautiful and thin, tight skin

and firm thighs, I want my boobs back and the wrinkles gone. I don't

want to get old Gena. I know 34 isn't old by a long shot, but I

don't want to do this...

Somehow I guess I thought that when I lost the weight my old body

would be there waiting for me. Well, that body aged 16 years while

it was hiding under all that fat - now it's gone.

I don't have the willpower or stamina to take exersice and dieting to

an extreme - so we don't have to worry about that. But I think it's

a good thing that I'm not rich - I bet I'd have surgeries done now

that I'd be sorry for later.

(Which remeinds me - someone told me today that if I had breast

implants done, had a tatoo with my company logo on it put on my

breast and showed them at least ?% of the time that I could use it as

a tax right off! Can you believe that! LMAO! Talk about

advertisement.

Ang (who is going to ask her accountant about that - just out of

couriosity of course ;-)

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> Ang,

> Ok you do that but I think you look pretty good right now

girlfriend!

> :-) Just look at how far you have come? I think since you are being

> more active you will see more results then the scale will show so

keep

> taking those measurements! I can only dream of being where you are

now!

> I really think you need to stop looking at what is left and look

at

> what you have done. I know that is easier said then done, I have to

> tell myself the same thing. Just keep at it. You have done great!

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> Gena

> 284/207/190/160s???

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> > Great idea.

> > 226/154/150/130(?) --- I am going to have to rely on you guys to

give

> > me the " stop " signal.  My body image is really bad no matter what

the

> > scales say.  I'll send pics now and again to a few of you for a

> > critique. 

> > Ang

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