Freaked Out and Worried

[Guest guest]

Hi guys,

I really need help here. The summer was hellish, but we finally got moved. We've got some serious family stuff happening and the pressure has been enormous. I had family visiting during August/early September and all they wanted to do was eat out. I fell right back into my old codependent behavior and accomodated and of course gained weight. I did not make my September support meeting because we were in the process of moving (it actually took us four days because most of my promised help and vehicles fell through). The stress has been unbelievable. I went into Kaiser to pick up prescriptions and weighted in health educsation and am actually down two pounds since the last doctor's visit August 20th, which means I lost whatever I gained plus two more pounds. The problem is, since I saw Dr. Stiles in August, that only registers as one pound.

I have no appointments scheduled because I had to do a sleep apnea test (the CPAP was a nightmare) and I'm worried that since I missed one support group meeting that I'm out of the program. Also, what on earth are they going to say when they see I've only lost two pounds since August? Course, I could lose more between now and the next group but still. I feel like I let this whole summer sidetrack me from what was really important and didn't take care of my own needs.

Also, do I just show up for the next support group meeting even though it appears I'm not scheduled? I'm so frustrated, I feel like just giving up, but then the last year will have been for nothing and I'm right back where I was a year ago this time (well a bit lighter, but still).

Any advice is much appreciated. There are rocky times ahead and I'm having trouble coping.

in Sac. Gold Canyon Candles Sensaria Natural Skincare