Guest guest Posted December 13, 2001 Report Share Posted December 13, 2001 I know there are times my bain nearly shuts down & I race headlong into buying food or eating that I know is not good for me but I am doing it anyway. But why?I am still working on the what if. > I just posted the exact same thing you wrote about to a fellow WLS friend. I too am so scared that a weight gain this past month is going to be a prediction of the future! Even as I fix something to eat, my little voice tells me it is too much or it is the wrong thing and I just ignore it and cram it into my mouth! Why am I doing this to myself? I recognize the effort it took me to loose the 152 pounds and the fact that all my friends and family are so proud of me. Why?????? Why do we do this to ourselves? I found out that eating sugar is no problem after 19 months of denying it. I preceded to eat a HUGE chocolate candy bar with no remorse. Oh yes, it came two weeks later when I got on the scale and saw the 2 pound weight gain. Right now I cannot afford private therapy, and my support group is too big to handle individual problems on an ongoing basis. What are we to do? Yes, we have each other on the group but no one knows me enough to give an answer to my WHY. What can we do? Thank you for posting, Terri. I hope to see more of your writings. Barbie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 13, 2001 Report Share Posted December 13, 2001 This is my shot of inspiration for the day. I see myself in every word you wrote. I have been faced with the true amount of my regain and it is scary. I am working very hard at knowing why I am eating even if I go ahead and eat. It is a new bit of progress for me. After 50 years of concealing my feelings from everyone else, I have very effectively obscured them rom yself too. It is a BIG STEP for me to discover I don't know what it is that I read as hunger. It is not always the same feeling/sensation and I cannot trust that it is always triggered by a physical need to eat. Sometimes I get light-headed or absolutely evil before I noticd an urge to eat. Other times the obsessive thinking about eating occurs and I don't know whether the physical sensation of hunger preceeded it (whatever that feeling is). I know there are times my bain nearly shuts down & I race headlong into buying food or eating that I know is not good for me but I am doing it anyway. But why?I am still working on the what if... I don't eat this or now or in private or? So thanks for the inspiring moment. terri Terri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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