Re: Re:Speaking of Reclusive

[Guest guest]

I wouldn't force yourself. You don't need stress. You need time to heal and get

right physiologically. In time stuff about yourself will return as it will.

Right now we are all just who we are and really need to be this way. I am not

unhappy being reclusive. And I wasn't unhappy being more social before. Just be

happy! :-)

Roxanna

North Star German Shepherd Dog Rescue Inc

northstargsdr@...

www.northstargsdr.org

Re:Speaking of Reclusive

I am also quite happy to stay at home only going in town for groceries and

the library. I thought it was old age creeping in! My best friend died of a

long illness last January and today was her birthday. The first time in ages

I didn't send her a card. I am feeling berefit....no one in my life who

really knew me back in the day.

I am happy to just be home with my dogs and my honey. Weekends I get my

grandkids alot. I never really thought about how reclusive I was becoming

was

connected to this disease. Wow. That's alot to think about!

Even at work I was reclusive in a sense. I was a weaver at Longaberger

baskets and I wore headphones and listened to music or books on tape while I

worked. A very clear message " I have to be here to make money but leave me

alone! "

I am always happy if I have company, but don't seek people out. I have

thought my life was full, but now I wonder? Maybe this was just a pattern I

got

into when I was so tired and ill. Maybe I should force myself to go to the

park with the dogs, etc. any comments?

Lorry

[Guest guest]

I wouldn't force yourself. You don't need stress. You need time to heal and get

right physiologically. In time stuff about yourself will return as it will.

Right now we are all just who we are and really need to be this way. I am not

unhappy being reclusive. And I wasn't unhappy being more social before. Just be

happy! :-)

Roxanna

North Star German Shepherd Dog Rescue Inc

northstargsdr@...

www.northstargsdr.org

Re:Speaking of Reclusive

I am also quite happy to stay at home only going in town for groceries and

the library. I thought it was old age creeping in! My best friend died of a

long illness last January and today was her birthday. The first time in ages

I didn't send her a card. I am feeling berefit....no one in my life who

really knew me back in the day.

I am happy to just be home with my dogs and my honey. Weekends I get my

grandkids alot. I never really thought about how reclusive I was becoming

was

connected to this disease. Wow. That's alot to think about!

Even at work I was reclusive in a sense. I was a weaver at Longaberger

baskets and I wore headphones and listened to music or books on tape while I

worked. A very clear message " I have to be here to make money but leave me

alone! "

I am always happy if I have company, but don't seek people out. I have

thought my life was full, but now I wonder? Maybe this was just a pattern I

got

into when I was so tired and ill. Maybe I should force myself to go to the

park with the dogs, etc. any comments?

Lorry

[Guest guest]

Lorry

I know eXACTLY what you're talking about here, but the more important

question is Are you truly happy being at home all the time, or is it like

me, having the thoughts run through your head that, yes, I would LIKE to go

here, go there, do this, do that, etc...but I feel unable to do so because I

feel either physically ill or mentally unable to, etc.....This is the big

difference here, I think. You don't have to answer ME on that, but do

answer yourself, for sure. I am more " settled " than I was with

HYPERthyroid, and a resulting type of " bipolar " type behavior, BUT I do feel

in my mind like I WANT to do other things, but feel unable to. It is NOT

agorophobia, because I feel comfortable in public mentally and emotionally

while I am doing other things, it's just that I don't feel physically able

to carry it out when I'm feeling terrible or even just a little " under the

weather " . I have a lot of grandchildren now and love every one of them, but

I raised a lot of children, without anyone's help and with a horrible

marriage,, so I've got to say that I truly don't feel like keeping children

anymore at home, except for an hr or two here and there. I really do WANT

my own life, or my idea of it, but feel physically unable to carry it out.

Some women truly enjoy keeping their grandkids all the time and truly feel

true happiness at home. I've worked 8 hrs a day for the past 12 yrs., have

been divorced for 12 and 1/2 of those yrs now, and other than vacations and

regular days off, I feel like I've been working outside my home forever, so

enjoy being at home more often, yet, I have these other feelings,

constantly. You're not missing anything unless you FEEL you are. I DO feel

that I am missing something.

Re:Speaking of Reclusive

>

>

> I am also quite happy to stay at home only going in town for groceries

and

> the library. I thought it was old age creeping in! My best friend died

of a

> long illness last January and today was her birthday. The first time in

ages

> I didn't send her a card. I am feeling berefit....no one in my life who

> really knew me back in the day.

>

> I am happy to just be home with my dogs and my honey. Weekends I get my

> grandkids alot. I never really thought about how reclusive I was

becoming was

> connected to this disease. Wow. That's alot to think about!

>

> Even at work I was reclusive in a sense. I was a weaver at Longaberger

> baskets and I wore headphones and listened to music or books on tape

while I

> worked. A very clear message " I have to be here to make money but leave

me

> alone! "

>

> I am always happy if I have company, but don't seek people out. I have

> thought my life was full, but now I wonder? Maybe this was just a

pattern I got

> into when I was so tired and ill. Maybe I should force myself to go to

the

> park with the dogs, etc. any comments?

>

> Lorry

[Guest guest]

,

I understand exactly what you are describing. I have no trouble being in

public, but often do not want to go especially if I'm not feeling quite

right, whatever that is exactly. Sometimes I do feel anxious about going,

not that I couldn't, and therefore do not want to do whatever it is that I

thought I wanted to do. I do enjoy my own company with no problem, which

can be a problem since it allows me to stay home more.

There are things I would like to do but do not feel physically or mentally

able to do them. Next week would be considered a full week for me at this

time in my life (that made me sound old, I'm only 40) I signed up for a

class on Thursday night to make an " altered journal " , Friday I have a

doctors appointment, and Saturday I signed up to be part of a Litigation

Focus Group. I woke up in the wee hours this morning and began to feel

anxious about being physically able to do all three of those things. It is

ridiculous. Now it is a few hours later and I feel no problem in doing

those things, but now worry that I will feel like I can't do them again in

the next few days. I also worry that I will become anxious prior to one of

those events and won't be able to go or will go and feel really crummy while

trying to participate. I find this has become the debilitating part of this

disease for me and the part I'm working the hardest to fix.

I feel like if I could fix this anxiety problem I could go back to ruling my

own world. Right now I feel like it would send me over the edge to try and

obtain and hold down a full-time job outside the home. (I work from my home

at this time) That makes me feel disabled and I don't like that.

-- Re: Re:Speaking of Reclusive

Lorry

I know eXACTLY what you're talking about here, but the more important

question is Are you truly happy being at home all the time, or is it like

me, having the thoughts run through your head that, yes, I would LIKE to go

here, go there, do this, do that, etc...but I feel unable to do so because I

feel either physically ill or mentally unable to, etc.....This is the big

difference here, I think. You don't have to answer ME on that, but do

answer yourself, for sure. I am more " settled " than I was with

HYPERthyroid, and a resulting type of " bipolar " type behavior, BUT I do feel

in my mind like I WANT to do other things, but feel unable to. It is NOT

agorophobia, because I feel comfortable in public mentally and emotionally

while I am doing other things, it's just that I don't feel physically able

to carry it out when I'm feeling terrible or even just a little " under the

weather " . I have a lot of grandchildren now and love every one of them, but

I raised a lot of children, without anyone's help and with a horrible

marriage,, so I've got to say that I truly don't feel like keeping children

anymore at home, except for an hr or two here and there. I really do WANT

my own life, or my idea of it, but feel physically unable to carry it out.

Some women truly enjoy keeping their grandkids all the time and truly feel

true happiness at home. I've worked 8 hrs a day for the past 12 yrs., have

been divorced for 12 and 1/2 of those yrs now, and other than vacations and

regular days off, I feel like I've been working outside my home forever, so

enjoy being at home more often, yet, I have these other feelings,

constantly. You're not missing anything unless you FEEL you are. I DO feel

that I am missing something.

[Guest guest]

,

I understand exactly what you are describing. I have no trouble being in

public, but often do not want to go especially if I'm not feeling quite

right, whatever that is exactly. Sometimes I do feel anxious about going,

not that I couldn't, and therefore do not want to do whatever it is that I

thought I wanted to do. I do enjoy my own company with no problem, which

can be a problem since it allows me to stay home more.

There are things I would like to do but do not feel physically or mentally

able to do them. Next week would be considered a full week for me at this

time in my life (that made me sound old, I'm only 40) I signed up for a

class on Thursday night to make an " altered journal " , Friday I have a

doctors appointment, and Saturday I signed up to be part of a Litigation

Focus Group. I woke up in the wee hours this morning and began to feel

anxious about being physically able to do all three of those things. It is

ridiculous. Now it is a few hours later and I feel no problem in doing

those things, but now worry that I will feel like I can't do them again in

the next few days. I also worry that I will become anxious prior to one of

those events and won't be able to go or will go and feel really crummy while

trying to participate. I find this has become the debilitating part of this

disease for me and the part I'm working the hardest to fix.

I feel like if I could fix this anxiety problem I could go back to ruling my

own world. Right now I feel like it would send me over the edge to try and

obtain and hold down a full-time job outside the home. (I work from my home

at this time) That makes me feel disabled and I don't like that.

-- Re: Re:Speaking of Reclusive

Lorry

I know eXACTLY what you're talking about here, but the more important

question is Are you truly happy being at home all the time, or is it like

me, having the thoughts run through your head that, yes, I would LIKE to go

here, go there, do this, do that, etc...but I feel unable to do so because I

feel either physically ill or mentally unable to, etc.....This is the big

difference here, I think. You don't have to answer ME on that, but do

answer yourself, for sure. I am more " settled " than I was with

HYPERthyroid, and a resulting type of " bipolar " type behavior, BUT I do feel

in my mind like I WANT to do other things, but feel unable to. It is NOT

agorophobia, because I feel comfortable in public mentally and emotionally

while I am doing other things, it's just that I don't feel physically able

to carry it out when I'm feeling terrible or even just a little " under the

weather " . I have a lot of grandchildren now and love every one of them, but

I raised a lot of children, without anyone's help and with a horrible

marriage,, so I've got to say that I truly don't feel like keeping children

anymore at home, except for an hr or two here and there. I really do WANT

my own life, or my idea of it, but feel physically unable to carry it out.

Some women truly enjoy keeping their grandkids all the time and truly feel

true happiness at home. I've worked 8 hrs a day for the past 12 yrs., have

been divorced for 12 and 1/2 of those yrs now, and other than vacations and

regular days off, I feel like I've been working outside my home forever, so

enjoy being at home more often, yet, I have these other feelings,

constantly. You're not missing anything unless you FEEL you are. I DO feel

that I am missing something.

[Guest guest]

I was worried about how I would handle going to a CE seminar a couple weeks ago.

I needed to go. I wanted to go. I was fine before and during, but after, we

stopped at Pier 1 to look at glass paperweights and I started to get fuzzy

vision, light headedness, that chest THING and palpitations in the store. I had

to " rush " slowly to the car to take some HC. It was all too much for me. Then it

took a few days for me to recover from that day. I have a long way to go to be

well.

Roxanna

North Star German Shepherd Dog Rescue Inc

northstargsdr@...

www.northstargsdr.org

Re: Re:Speaking of Reclusive

Lorry

I know eXACTLY what you're talking about here, but the more important

question is Are you truly happy being at home all the time, or is it like

me, having the thoughts run through your head that, yes, I would LIKE to go

here, go there, do this, do that, etc...but I feel unable to do so because I

feel either physically ill or mentally unable to, etc.....This is the big

difference here, I think. You don't have to answer ME on that, but do

answer yourself, for sure. I am more " settled " than I was with

HYPERthyroid, and a resulting type of " bipolar " type behavior, BUT I do feel

in my mind like I WANT to do other things, but feel unable to. It is NOT

agorophobia, because I feel comfortable in public mentally and emotionally

while I am doing other things, it's just that I don't feel physically able

to carry it out when I'm feeling terrible or even just a little " under the

weather " . I have a lot of grandchildren now and love every one of them, but

I raised a lot of children, without anyone's help and with a horrible

marriage,, so I've got to say that I truly don't feel like keeping children

anymore at home, except for an hr or two here and there. I really do WANT

my own life, or my idea of it, but feel physically unable to carry it out.

Some women truly enjoy keeping their grandkids all the time and truly feel

true happiness at home. I've worked 8 hrs a day for the past 12 yrs., have

been divorced for 12 and 1/2 of those yrs now, and other than vacations and

regular days off, I feel like I've been working outside my home forever, so

enjoy being at home more often, yet, I have these other feelings,

constantly. You're not missing anything unless you FEEL you are. I DO feel

that I am missing something.

[Guest guest]

ROTFLMAO about the pig's eye! So funny!

Re:Speaking of Reclusive

>

> My granddaughter, Hannah, had a science experiment using pig's

eyes--since

> they are close to human eyes. Her teacher got them right from a

slaughter

> house so the kids could see the effects of chemical on the human eye. It

pretty

> much grossed them all out.

>

> Hannah said the principal was in the room when they did the experimant

and

> was so grossed out when the teacher had an eye with lashes attached that

he

> ran out of the room. LOL. I told Hannah to tell her Science teacher

that her

> Grandma loved pigs and thanks to them she has thyroid pills that gave her

> her life back.

>

> Lorry

[Guest guest]

Hi, Lorry,

I think it's a matter of what you are comfortable with. Try it and see.

So sorry about your friend. (And sorry I'm so late getting to this

message. Still trying to catch

up on e-mails. LOL)

I had thought my reason for being reclusive was depression. I can see

how thyroid can be a

part of it too. Now that I'm taking bio-identical hormones, I don't feel

quite as bad with it. I

think it could be partly a matter of energy level. My energy and

motivation has been improved

by these hormones so I am going out a little more. Not a whole lot

though.

I was surprised that so many of us have this problem!

in Va.

I am also quite happy to stay at home only going in town for groceries

and

the library. I thought it was old age creeping in! My best friend

died of a

long illness last January and today was her birthday. The first time

in ages

I didn't send her a card. I am feeling berefit....no one in my life

who

really knew me back in the day.

I am happy to just be home with my dogs and my honey. Weekends I get

my

grandkids alot. I never really thought about how reclusive I was

becoming was

connected to this disease. Wow. That's alot to think about!

Even at work I was reclusive in a sense. I was a weaver at Longaberger

baskets and I wore headphones and listened to music or books on tape

while I

worked. A very clear message " I have to be here to make money but

leave me

alone! "

I am always happy if I have company, but don't seek people out. I have

thought my life was full, but now I wonder? Maybe this was just a

pattern I got

into when I was so tired and ill. Maybe I should force myself to go to

the

park with the dogs, etc. any comments?

Lorry

[Guest guest]

Hi, Lorry,

I think it's a matter of what you are comfortable with. Try it and see.

So sorry about your friend. (And sorry I'm so late getting to this

message. Still trying to catch

up on e-mails. LOL)

I had thought my reason for being reclusive was depression. I can see

how thyroid can be a

part of it too. Now that I'm taking bio-identical hormones, I don't feel

quite as bad with it. I

think it could be partly a matter of energy level. My energy and

motivation has been improved

by these hormones so I am going out a little more. Not a whole lot

though.

I was surprised that so many of us have this problem!

in Va.

I am also quite happy to stay at home only going in town for groceries

and

the library. I thought it was old age creeping in! My best friend

died of a

long illness last January and today was her birthday. The first time

in ages

I didn't send her a card. I am feeling berefit....no one in my life

who

really knew me back in the day.

I am happy to just be home with my dogs and my honey. Weekends I get

my

grandkids alot. I never really thought about how reclusive I was

becoming was

connected to this disease. Wow. That's alot to think about!

Even at work I was reclusive in a sense. I was a weaver at Longaberger

baskets and I wore headphones and listened to music or books on tape

while I

worked. A very clear message " I have to be here to make money but

leave me

alone! "

I am always happy if I have company, but don't seek people out. I have

thought my life was full, but now I wonder? Maybe this was just a

pattern I got

into when I was so tired and ill. Maybe I should force myself to go to

the

park with the dogs, etc. any comments?

Lorry