New to the group, feeling lonely and depressed

[Guest guest]

Hi everyone,

My name is , I am 28 years old and was diagnosed with stage III

breast cancer in March. I had a bilat mastectamy in April with

expanders (the reconstruction is the one thing that is keeping me

going...) and I started Chemo on June 1st. I just finished my 4th A/C

and will start Taxol on the 28th. Through all of this I am still

working full time and running after my 2 1/2 year old son. I took

yesterday and today off of work, I just couldn't do it. I feel like

such a failure when I don't go in. Today I can't do anything without

crying I am just so fed up with everything. Thanks to all of you for

letting me vent. I just keep telling myself that I have 4 more left

and then radiation (which shouldn't be that bad).

My thoughts and prayers are with all of you!

[Guest guest]

Hi and welcome to the group - I was also diagnosed in March

of this year, have been through my A/C chemo and am now into my 7th

of 33 radiation treatments. Honestly, I believe all of us have had

a spell where " we just can't take it anymore " . I know I have, but,

believe it or not, you do make it through and some days are a little

better and brighter. Hang in there hon - we're all pulling for

you. Just look into the eyes of your 2 1/2 year old and see what

you're fighting for, and then give him an extra hug or two. I am

fairly new here too and the women here have been so supportive.

Look to whoever and whatever gives you support and let them carry

you when the times get rough. Take care.

Ellen

>

> Hi everyone,

>

> My name is , I am 28 years old and was diagnosed with stage

III

> breast cancer in March. I had a bilat mastectamy in April with

> expanders (the reconstruction is the one thing that is keeping me

> going...) and I started Chemo on June 1st. I just finished my 4th

A/C

> and will start Taxol on the 28th. Through all of this I am still

> working full time and running after my 2 1/2 year old son. I took

> yesterday and today off of work, I just couldn't do it. I feel

like

> such a failure when I don't go in. Today I can't do anything

without

> crying I am just so fed up with everything. Thanks to all of you

for

> letting me vent. I just keep telling myself that I have 4 more

left

> and then radiation (which shouldn't be that bad).

>

> My thoughts and prayers are with all of you!

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

,you are so young ...I am 50 with stage 2 my surgery is tomarrow doing a

bilat mastectamy,not doing any reconstruction,will be starting cemo a month

after surgery... just the stress alone of all this has taken controll of me...

working I have 7 childern ..and 2 jobs ...4 of my childern are grown and on

thier own but 3 are at home my 13 year old boy is my issue he is a runner we

live in town a small one but he just dissapres on me the stress of keeping a

rope on him ....so I know where he is and not getting into trouble ...I took a

medicial leave from my jobs a week ago just to get my ducks in a row before my

surgery ... the crying I have a melt down every couple days.... I am now living

with one of my older sons because thier is no why I could pay rent we lost our

home in December...I feel like such a burden on him ....failure...but it is

better to let it out not hold it in you can't heal if hold it in ....I have

even been on this web at 3 am because I

can't sleep it has helped to know that I have somewhere someone to reach out to

.....I keep telling myself that thier is a reason behind all this pain and

insanitey....what I don't know yet ...have faith...

" lauren.stach " wrote: Hi everyone,

My name is , I am 28 years old and was diagnosed with stage III

breast cancer in March. I had a bilat mastectamy in April with

expanders (the reconstruction is the one thing that is keeping me

going...) and I started Chemo on June 1st. I just finished my 4th A/C

and will start Taxol on the 28th. Through all of this I am still

working full time and running after my 2 1/2 year old son. I took

yesterday and today off of work, I just couldn't do it. I feel like

such a failure when I don't go in. Today I can't do anything without

crying I am just so fed up with everything. Thanks to all of you for

letting me vent. I just keep telling myself that I have 4 more left

and then radiation (which shouldn't be that bad).

My thoughts and prayers are with all of you!

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[Guest guest]

,you are so young ...I am 50 with stage 2 my surgery is tomarrow doing a

bilat mastectamy,not doing any reconstruction,will be starting cemo a month

after surgery... just the stress alone of all this has taken controll of me...

working I have 7 childern ..and 2 jobs ...4 of my childern are grown and on

thier own but 3 are at home my 13 year old boy is my issue he is a runner we

live in town a small one but he just dissapres on me the stress of keeping a

rope on him ....so I know where he is and not getting into trouble ...I took a

medicial leave from my jobs a week ago just to get my ducks in a row before my

surgery ... the crying I have a melt down every couple days.... I am now living

with one of my older sons because thier is no why I could pay rent we lost our

home in December...I feel like such a burden on him ....failure...but it is

better to let it out not hold it in you can't heal if hold it in ....I have

even been on this web at 3 am because I

can't sleep it has helped to know that I have somewhere someone to reach out to

.....I keep telling myself that thier is a reason behind all this pain and

insanitey....what I don't know yet ...have faith...

" lauren.stach " wrote: Hi everyone,

My name is , I am 28 years old and was diagnosed with stage III

breast cancer in March. I had a bilat mastectamy in April with

expanders (the reconstruction is the one thing that is keeping me

going...) and I started Chemo on June 1st. I just finished my 4th A/C

and will start Taxol on the 28th. Through all of this I am still

working full time and running after my 2 1/2 year old son. I took

yesterday and today off of work, I just couldn't do it. I feel like

such a failure when I don't go in. Today I can't do anything without

crying I am just so fed up with everything. Thanks to all of you for

letting me vent. I just keep telling myself that I have 4 more left

and then radiation (which shouldn't be that bad).

My thoughts and prayers are with all of you!

---------------------------------

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[Guest guest]

,you are so young ...I am 50 with stage 2 my surgery is tomarrow doing a

bilat mastectamy,not doing any reconstruction,will be starting cemo a month

after surgery... just the stress alone of all this has taken controll of me...

working I have 7 childern ..and 2 jobs ...4 of my childern are grown and on

thier own but 3 are at home my 13 year old boy is my issue he is a runner we

live in town a small one but he just dissapres on me the stress of keeping a

rope on him ....so I know where he is and not getting into trouble ...I took a

medicial leave from my jobs a week ago just to get my ducks in a row before my

surgery ... the crying I have a melt down every couple days.... I am now living

with one of my older sons because thier is no why I could pay rent we lost our

home in December...I feel like such a burden on him ....failure...but it is

better to let it out not hold it in you can't heal if hold it in ....I have

even been on this web at 3 am because I

can't sleep it has helped to know that I have somewhere someone to reach out to

.....I keep telling myself that thier is a reason behind all this pain and

insanitey....what I don't know yet ...have faith...

" lauren.stach " wrote: Hi everyone,

My name is , I am 28 years old and was diagnosed with stage III

breast cancer in March. I had a bilat mastectamy in April with

expanders (the reconstruction is the one thing that is keeping me

going...) and I started Chemo on June 1st. I just finished my 4th A/C

and will start Taxol on the 28th. Through all of this I am still

working full time and running after my 2 1/2 year old son. I took

yesterday and today off of work, I just couldn't do it. I feel like

such a failure when I don't go in. Today I can't do anything without

crying I am just so fed up with everything. Thanks to all of you for

letting me vent. I just keep telling myself that I have 4 more left

and then radiation (which shouldn't be that bad).

My thoughts and prayers are with all of you!

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[Guest guest]

, I am also new to the group, I was diagnosed

Dec 2004, had a mastectomy Jan 2005(w/reconstruction

at the same time)I know how you must feel, but sweety

you have your whole life ahead of you (and this is

just a bump in the road)and that little boy needs

you.. I finished my chemo on July 5,2005 and two days

before on July 3, our first grandchild was born, I

can't tell you how this little girl has given me a new

lease on life. I know going to work and trying to take

care of a child is very hard at this time,do you have

any help? ASK FOR IT......Talk to your Dr, regarding

your depression maybe he or she can give you something

to get through this time. Keep in touch,I will keep

you in my prayers, try to take just one day at a time

I know we are all different but it does help...

BIG HUG!!!!

Jeanne NY

--- Ellen wrote:

> Hi and welcome to the group - I was also

> diagnosed in March

> of this year, have been through my A/C chemo and am

> now into my 7th

> of 33 radiation treatments. Honestly, I believe all

> of us have had

> a spell where " we just can't take it anymore " . I

> know I have, but,

> believe it or not, you do make it through and some

> days are a little

> better and brighter. Hang in there hon - we're all

> pulling for

> you. Just look into the eyes of your 2 1/2 year old

> and see what

> you're fighting for, and then give him an extra hug

> or two. I am

> fairly new here too and the women here have been so

> supportive.

> Look to whoever and whatever gives you support and

> let them carry

> you when the times get rough. Take care.

>

> Ellen

>

>

> >

> > Hi everyone,

> >

> > My name is , I am 28 years old and was

> diagnosed with stage

> III

> > breast cancer in March. I had a bilat mastectamy

> in April with

> > expanders (the reconstruction is the one thing

> that is keeping me

> > going...) and I started Chemo on June 1st. I just

> finished my 4th

> A/C

> > and will start Taxol on the 28th. Through all of

> this I am still

> > working full time and running after my 2 1/2 year

> old son. I took

> > yesterday and today off of work, I just couldn't

> do it. I feel

> like

> > such a failure when I don't go in. Today I can't

> do anything

> without

> > crying I am just so fed up with everything.

> Thanks to all of you

> for

> > letting me vent. I just keep telling myself that

> I have 4 more

> left

> > and then radiation (which shouldn't be that bad).

>

> >

> > My thoughts and prayers are with all of you!

> >

> >

> >

>

>

>

>

>

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[Guest guest]

Hi ....

I know exactly what you are feeling. Went through it all, and then some in

2001-2002. I am living proof that if I can do it, you can too. My stepchildren

(and the 3 cats!) were much older than your little one, but still, there were

days when all I wanted to do was lie down and pull the covers over my head. And

some days I gave myself permission to do just that!

It's really absolutely OKAY to feel overwhelmed by all of what is happening to

you. Who wouldn't?

And I also think it's a great thing that you are here on this board, telling

us your story and asking for support. That is one of the very best things you

can do for yourself right now. Know that you are not alone. We are all with you

in spirit.

Also, Shirley is right..... your doctor can give you a prescription for

something that will ease the anxiety. It really does help, and there is

nothing wrong with asking for help to calm yourself.

Peace, joy, and keep writing to us!

We are here for you,

Anne Marie

There is no right path.

Only the one that allows you to

sleep soundly and wake up excited.

--- Louden

" All shall be well, and all shall be well,

and all manner of thing shall be well. "

Dame n of Norwich,

14th-centruy English mystic

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[Guest guest]

Hi ....

I know exactly what you are feeling. Went through it all, and then some in

2001-2002. I am living proof that if I can do it, you can too. My stepchildren

(and the 3 cats!) were much older than your little one, but still, there were

days when all I wanted to do was lie down and pull the covers over my head. And

some days I gave myself permission to do just that!

It's really absolutely OKAY to feel overwhelmed by all of what is happening to

you. Who wouldn't?

And I also think it's a great thing that you are here on this board, telling

us your story and asking for support. That is one of the very best things you

can do for yourself right now. Know that you are not alone. We are all with you

in spirit.

Also, Shirley is right..... your doctor can give you a prescription for

something that will ease the anxiety. It really does help, and there is

nothing wrong with asking for help to calm yourself.

Peace, joy, and keep writing to us!

We are here for you,

Anne Marie

There is no right path.

Only the one that allows you to

sleep soundly and wake up excited.

--- Louden

" All shall be well, and all shall be well,

and all manner of thing shall be well. "

Dame n of Norwich,

14th-centruy English mystic

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[Guest guest]

Hi ,

Welcome to the group.

One thing we have to keep in mind with this process is that sometimes

things are beyond our control. We can't be superwomen every day - I

can't imagine having to work full time plus keeping up with a toddler

during my chemo. My children are older (8 & 9) and I took advantage of

them being at school to sleep >and< I didn't have to deal with working.

Please don't be down on yourself because you can't do everything. Do

what you can, and rest when you can. Take days off from work when you

need to. If you continue feeling down, your onc. can prescribe

anti-depressants. We've all been there and are here to help you through!

take care,

[Guest guest]

Oh, poor , you're not a failure! You're a hero, keeping up with work

and a small child, and with surgery then chemo as well - you are doing

magnificently!

Surgery takes it out of us, and chemo makes us all tired; some more than

others, but all of us feel it to some extent. You need to look after

yourself, and rest when your body tells you that's what it needs.

I had the chemo before surgery, and I had to stay in bed for three or four

days after every dose. I just couldn't open my eyes on those days, far less

stand up. I know I'm 63 to your 28, but it's what the chemo does to us in

spite of our age or fitness.

I'm a week and a half into my five weeks of post-mastectomy radiation now,

and so far it's a breeze - hope it stays that way. <G>

I think you need some sympathy from your work, to let you have regular time

off after each dose. And I think you need help with your child as well,

especially on those days. (Just my opinion, please don't be offended.)

When the chemo's all done, and the radiation too, you will get back to

feeling normal but it can take a while. In the meantime, be good to

yourself and DON'T FEEL GUILTY - none of this is your fault!

Love and admiration,

Margery.

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margery@... in North Herts, UK

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> New to the group, feeling lonely and

> depressed

>

> Hi everyone,

>

> My name is , I am 28 years old and was diagnosed with stage III

> breast cancer in March. I had a bilat mastectamy in April with

> expanders (the reconstruction is the one thing that is keeping me

> going...) and I started Chemo on June 1st. I just finished

> my 4th A/C

> and will start Taxol on the 28th. Through all of this I am still

> working full time and running after my 2 1/2 year old son. I took

> yesterday and today off of work, I just couldn't do it. I feel like

> such a failure when I don't go in. Today I can't do anything without

> crying I am just so fed up with everything. Thanks to all of you for

> letting me vent. I just keep telling myself that I have 4 more left

> and then radiation (which shouldn't be that bad).

>

> My thoughts and prayers are with all of you!

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

,

I just got back and read your message. Your email made me cry. Please

don't feel like a failure. Be proud of what you have survived -

coping with a cancer diagnosis, major, major surgery, treatment that

could cripple an elephant and still you go to work and take care of a

small child. Add to that the anxiety over what the future holds...you

deserve a medal...heck we all do.

I am 38 with a 5 year old (4 at the time I went thru chemo &

radiation). So much of what you are saying reminds me of myself.

I'm trying to think of something profound to say that will help you

feel better. But all I can say is that I'll be thinking and praying

for you and your family.

[Guest guest]

,

Do NOT feel like a failure. You are NOT! You have been working and taking care

of a little one. Ask the dr for something for your nerves/depression. I will

keep you in my prayers.

Hugs

nne

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New to the group, feeling lonely and depressed

Hi everyone,

My name is , I am 28 years old and was diagnosed with stage III

breast cancer in March. I had a bilat mastectamy in April with

expanders (the reconstruction is the one thing that is keeping me

going...) and I started Chemo on June 1st. I just finished my 4th A/C

and will start Taxol on the 28th. Through all of this I am still

working full time and running after my 2 1/2 year old son. I took

yesterday and today off of work, I just couldn't do it. I feel like

such a failure when I don't go in. Today I can't do anything without

crying I am just so fed up with everything. Thanks to all of you for

letting me vent. I just keep telling myself that I have 4 more left

and then radiation (which shouldn't be that bad).

My thoughts and prayers are with all of you!