I think I've had enough. Me whining

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OMG I've had all I can take. My parents sent Christmas cards that arrived

yesterday. Of course they had to have some added comments that sent me in to a

turmoil. My friend went off about the balance of his credit card he gave me; he

forgot that he put stuff on it himself. Then he bitched about my daughter not

working. Like I can force her to get a job. Then he bitched at me about not

getting Unum on the phone and not talking to that lady about a job yesterday (I

left her a msg).

So I went into a full panic attack last night; and totally forgot about the

Xanax; so I was up all night. Didn't sleep a wink; flying high on adrenalene.

Writing draft responses to my parents for the most part and trying to make the

numbers in my bank account look better than they are. This morning rolls around

and I sent the email to my parents and have been to the POB; mailed my Christmas

cards, stood in the line to get a registered mail; walking around partially bent

over from the awful backache I have today in my lower back. Having to stop a

couple times to let the pain subside. I made both Rh and Gp appointments for

this week; plus I already had an ENT appt. I called Unum 22 times and hit zero

6 times each to get someone on the phone before I finally got a live person.

That person then tells me that I need to contact my employer on the status of my

claim. She won't tell me. Of course, I can't get the employer contact on the

phone now. I

left a message and sent them an email; blind copying my lawyer on it. If I

could just get a denial I could get the other lawyer on it. But without any

answer I'm left hanging. Of course I'm furious because its my employer AGAIN

causing me extra grief, because that's how they operate.

I still haven't slept. I have sorted mail, laundry and eaten a bagel and fed

the dogs. I'm finally starting to wind down and I don't think I could take

another run around from someone today. So I think I'm going to try to take a

nap. I feel like I have a caffeine buzz like when I drink coffee; but I didn't

have any coffee.

JEEZ I hope this stuff works itself out soon. I can't take much more of this.

Please keep me in your prayers.

Angie Harley Mama Double-D

Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 5 cats, snow skiing,

camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers

member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken, and open minded.

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