Nancie

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No, no, and no. I don't want to talk to a hotline, because they'll talk me into

hospitaliztion. I don't have anyone at all for soupport. My pcp didn't say

anything when I asked for a muscle relaxer, just " No " . My husband made an

appointment for me to see a dr here in So. Cal. this afternoon...but I doubt if

much will be done...they all seem to think I'm under the care of my pcp and

don't want to mess with his treatments. Of course, I'm not getting any

treatment from my pcp, but the drs are careful about not stepping on each

other's toes.

Now I have to worry until 2:00 to decide if I'm going to go at all.

nancie

teacher_mira wrote: Dear

Nancie,

It's awful that you feel so bad that you want to have someone kill

you. I'm glad that you at least talked to your husband about it and

that you know your brain is " out of it. " It's such a drag to be in

pain and not know what to do. Do you feel like you have some way to

get support before you find another pcp? Can you call a suicide

hotline if you feel really desperate? When you asked the pcp for a

muscle relaxer and couldn't get one - did he or she suggest anything

else you could do for the pain?

Mira

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Nancie - I'm so happy and relieved to hear you got some helpful meds from

this doctor. See, there is hope even when things seem at their worst.

Merry Christmas to you.

Jeanne in WI

>I went to the dr appt. my hubby made for me. The doctor asked who was

>treating me for my fibro, I said no one, but told him who diagnosed me...a

>doctor at the same office. I didn't bother telling him anything about

>having a pcp in OH. I told him about the awful head pain and foot pain, he

>asked me what I took for it, I said aspirin. He wanted to know what fibro

>meds I'd been on, I told him none, just vicodin for years. He couldn't

>believe it. The nurse said, all I have to do is request to see a

>rheumatologist. Sure wish someone had told me that years ago. Anyway, he

>put me on Robaxin, which works better for me than Flexeril, and Midrin for

>the head. I took Robaxin, Midrin, klonopin, and Vicodin round the clock

>since Friday at 4:00 p.m. I woke up this morning and could actually stand

>up without stumbling! My husband said it looks like I'm walking

>better...I can't believe it...I'm not in awful, awful pain. Thank God!!!

>The muscle relaxers seemed to make my

> thighs worse for a while...I was painless unless I tried to walk, and then

> my thighs were so tight I couldn't straighten my legs. But they seem to

> have relaxed quite a bit now, and when my feet start up, it's not nearly

> as painful as it was a few days ago. Wow, you have no idea what a relief

> this is for me...it's been a long, long time since I've felt this good. I

> know I'll be in pain later....I mean I know I'll have to take all the meds

> again today, but wow, the difference....I'm so happy!!!

> I will attempt to get a new pcp when I get home...the insurance we have

> only covers their own doctors, so there's no a whole lot to choose from.

> My pcp is a D.O. I don't even know what that stands for.

> Please don't worry about me...I'm feeling better and feeling a little more

> positive mentally. I know I'm not " cured " and that I'll be in pain later,

> and that I'll have to take the meds all day, so I won't be let down when

> it happens. We're expecting my sons and their wives and children for

> dinner today. My son is a Sheriff's Deputy, and my other son's wife is a

> Sheriff's Deputy. They both come over with loaded guns...they wear and

> carry. I've asked each of them what they would do if I tried to get their

> guns....they would not allow it. They are professionals and they know how

> to keep someone from taking their guns....and they would do what they had

> to, to stop me, mom or not. So I'm safe there. It's nice to know that

> they would stop me, even though they don't know I've thought about a

> bullet in my brain.

> So, I think I'm safe, and I think I'll be able to enjoy the day, and

> please do the same and don't worry about me. Things are looking up.

> thanks so much, but please enjoy your day, and Christmas Eve and

> Christmas.

> nancie