Guest guest Posted January 29, 2004 Report Share Posted January 29, 2004 I have to agree with the body image thing, I know exactly what you mean (both of you). When I reached goal in May 2001 I had gone from a 22/24 to an 8/10 and I never really could accept looking in the mirror or windows and seeing that I was thin (I'm 5'10 " ). It's so hard and really powerful too because the demons are lurking ever so close to whisk us away if we really can't think of ourselves as thin. There are so many of those victories that are away from the scale, but they come as a really big surprise to me too some days--no, that CAN'T be me with room on the sides of the chairs at the movies or in the car, etc. That can't be me buying a size adult small, must be mislabled, etc. I've got about 20 to go to get back to lifetime again, but I don't look " fat " to others and that's where some of my trouble lies because they don't understand how hard it is and that I'm still technically in the " overweight " category on the doctor's charts or WW charts. Guess we really have to do some soul-searching to be at peace with our new/newer bodies and ourselves--will always be a constant struggle for me I think. Anyone else?? Seems like I can't just relax and " remain " because I'm always thinking that's really not me and that I'm not down far enough, even though the relief of wearing much smaller clothes and having ski clothes and swimsuits and all that normal stuff is joyful beyond belief. A real tug of war and I think that I finally now understand the alcoholic or the drug addict. I don't want to ever be fat again or lose control but I realize that it will be a hard road forever, worth it but definitely hard. Kris, are you in those size 8's from your sister?? Just wondering... Re: Kris's weigh in Kris, This is indeed a major victory. Body image is something I have big trouble with. At this point, noone considers me fat anymore - and when I take a good honest look at myself, I don't either - all though I have problem areas - tummy overhang is the worst one (probably more then you wanted to know) - and I know I have another 15 pounds or so to lose - but I'm no longer fat. That said, I often still feel like a fat person - I even surprise myself sometimes if I catch a passing glimpse of myself in the mirror - thinking " who's that? " I don't know when or if this changes at some point - but right now the NSV's surprise me so much because I don't think of myself as " thin " . Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 29, 2004 Report Share Posted January 29, 2004 I definitely agree with you, but my problem isn't so much excepting that I'm thin (I've been here before so I can definitely accept that!) my problem is that evil thought that say's " I'm thin now, I can splurge and have a doughnut " . Not that a it's bad to eat the doughnut if I want it, it's just that I won't be able to stop at just one. Just because I'm thin now it doesn't make it any easier to control or resist temptation. Know what I mean?? Yep, I fit in size 8 jeans with the exception of Levi's which I still wear a 10. They just aren't cut right in the hips to get away with an 8. I can get them on, and buttoned, and zipped, but sitting down in them is another matter LOL! I found a really nice pair of Levis size 10 at Goodwill for $6 and was so excited because I haven't worn Levis in about 10 years and I got home and put them on, was all proud of myself, went to show my husband and he say's " That's nice honey but they look to big in the butt. You should have bought an 8 " Kris _____ From: Sent: Thursday, January 29, 2004 2:53 PM To: Serious-Weight-Watchers Subject: RE: Kris's weigh in/Mitch I have to agree with the body image thing, I know exactly what you mean (both of you). When I reached goal in May 2001 I had gone from a 22/24 to an 8/10 and I never really could accept looking in the mirror or windows and seeing that I was thin (I'm 5'10 " ). It's so hard and really powerful too because the demons are lurking ever so close to whisk us away if we really can't think of ourselves as thin. There are so many of those victories that are away from the scale, but they come as a really big surprise to me too some days--no, that CAN'T be me with room on the sides of the chairs at the movies or in the car, etc. That can't be me buying a size adult small, must be mislabled, etc. I've got about 20 to go to get back to lifetime again, but I don't look " fat " to others and that's where some of my trouble lies because they don't understand how hard it is and that I'm still technically in the " overweight " category on the doctor's charts or WW charts. Guess we really have to do some soul-searching to be at peace with our new/newer bodies and ourselves--will always be a constant struggle for me I think. Anyone else?? Seems like I can't just relax and " remain " because I'm always thinking that's really not me and that I'm not down far enough, even though the relief of wearing much smaller clothes and having ski clothes and swimsuits and all that normal stuff is joyful beyond belief. A real tug of war and I think that I finally now understand the alcoholic or the drug addict. I don't want to ever be fat again or lose control but I realize that it will be a hard road forever, worth it but definitely hard. Kris, are you in those size 8's from your sister?? Just wondering... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2004 Report Share Posted January 30, 2004 YES YES!!! Every time I buy a 12 (still on my way down) I think it must be a " big " 12! Like I think everything in my closet is just plain " sized wrong " - I thought I was losing my mind! Jenn ) Subject: RE: Kris's weigh in/Mitch That can't be me buying a size adult small, must be mislabled, etc. I've got about 20 to go to get back to lifetime again, but I don't look " fat " to others and that's where some of my trouble lies because they don't understand how hard it is and that I'm still technically in the " overweight " category on the doctor's charts or WW charts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2004 Report Share Posted January 30, 2004 Kind of an opposite situation, but when I used to be thin, I NEVER thought I was. I recall a size 8 skirt that I was convinced was a " big 8 " . I went from overweight to thin and I never really acknowledged that I was thin, so then getting bigger again didn't seem to matter. In my mind I went from fat to only slightly fatter. So when you get down towards your goal, take the time to appreciate where you're at because it might help you to keep the pounds off! Cheyenne > YES YES!!! Every time I buy a 12 (still on my way down) I think it must > be a " big " 12! Like I think everything in my closet is just plain > " sized wrong " - I thought I was losing my mind! > > Jenn ) > > Subject: RE: Kris's weigh in/Mitch > > > That can't be me buying a size adult small, must be mislabled, etc. I've > got about 20 to go to get back to lifetime again, but I don't look " fat " > to others and that's where some of my trouble lies because they don't > understand how hard it is and that I'm still technically in the > " overweight " category on the doctor's charts or WW charts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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