Guest guest Posted December 16, 2007 Report Share Posted December 16, 2007 Thank you for your post . I joined this group a few months ago when I was diagnosed, but things were just too overwhelming for me to even try to post and read messages in the group then. They still are for me, but I'm trying to do something to snap out of my fog. I just cannot understand why I'm okay one day,then wake up the next day hurting and by the end of the week I'm in so much pain I thought I was dying. I would lay in bed at night and cry from the pain and told my husband a number of times I had to go to the ER because it hurt so bad I thought something was really wrong and I was dying. I'm 32, and I have 3 small children. I'm not ready for death yet - but after I finally got the Fibro diagnosis, they left me with little hope of improvement. The pain has been overwhelming. I haven't been able to work, take care of my kids, or my house. I used to have a clean and organized home, all the meals were cooked by me. Now I don't do any of that, I just can't. I cannot work either, but so far can not get disability. My doctor keeps trying to give me wimpy pain meds that do nothing for me. So I got more and more depressed. I also attempted suicide a few months ago. Everything seeemed so hopeless, and that I was just a dead weight to my family more than anything else. How can I contribute to their lives and share experiences when I can hardly get out of bed? I just feel like I'm ruining my children's childhood. They deserve better, and more. It's overwhelming guilt for me to think of my kids and my pain. I want to do something or find something that will wake me up from this nightmare of Fibro, but I can't find anything. So many people out there claim to have the answer to cure fibro, so I try it, and no results and less hope. It is very difficult. I appreciate having a place to go and share these thoughts and experiences with people who can relate and have the same themselves. That was a long thank you, huh? lol Welcome to the new people too. Glad to have you here, sorry it's under these circumstances! Hugs, www.warmspirit.org/purebliss Warm Spirit promotes natural self-care, pamper and aromatherapy Spa products. Re: New and confused...Welcome ! ! ! Posted by: " john honeycutt " johnghoneycutt@... johnhoneycutt1963 Sat Dec 15, 2007 6:03 am (PST) Hi and welcome to the group!!! I am and I am Dazed and Confused!!! lol. I just got up and i'm experiencing vertigo for the moment but it'll pass. I think of myself as the under-medicated drama prince for comparison sake. I am DISabled for 15yrss and the cost of my meds exceed my income(SSD). I have several health issues as well and was DXd w/FM 9 mo. ago and I joined this group that very day because I didn't have a clue as to what I was up against. I had been in pain for about 4 yrs, and had no idea WHY? I was totaly DISmissed by 2 Drs. prior to my DX so I don't have a very high opinion of Drs. I'm takinh Celexa,Strattera,Klonopin,Ambien,Robaxin,Lotrel,Prilosec,300mg. Lyrica per day and a couple other meds but I have no pain pills as my current quaso PCP would only give me 30 Darvacet 2 weeks ago as she is afraid of the DEA ! Enough about myself!!! I have founf this to be a very wonderfull group the past 9 months I've been a member. Members have Loved me,encouraged me and supported me even thru a suicide attempt w/out condemning me. I Hope YOU find the Love,encouragement and support I have found in this group! GOD Bless YOU ! ! ! . . . ....................................................................... S.E. Ark. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 18, 2007 Report Share Posted December 18, 2007 > > Thank you for your post . I joined this group a few months ago when I was diagnosed, but things were just too overwhelming for me to > even try to post and read messages in the group then. They still are for me, but I'm trying to do something to snap out of my fog. I just cannot > understand why I'm okay one day,then wake up the next day hurting and by the end of the week I'm in so much pain I thought I was dying. I > would lay in bed at night and cry from the pain and told my husband a number of times I had to go to the ER because it hurt so bad I thought > something was really wrong and I was dying. I'm 32, and I have 3 small children. I'm not ready for death yet - but after I finally got the Fibro > diagnosis, they left me with little hope of improvement. The pain has been overwhelming. I haven't been able to work, take care of my kids, > or my house. I used to have a clean and organized home, all the meals were cooked by me. Now I don't do any of that, I just can't. I cannot > work either, but so far can not get disability. My doctor keeps trying to give me wimpy pain meds that do nothing for me. So I got more and > more depressed. I also attempted suicide a few months ago. Everything seeemed so hopeless, and that I was just a dead weight to my family > more than anything else. How can I contribute to their lives and share experiences when I can hardly get out of bed? I just feel like I'm ruining > my children's childhood. They deserve better, and more. It's overwhelming guilt for me to think of my kids and my pain. I want to do something > or find something that will wake me up from this nightmare of Fibro, but I can't find anything. So many people out there claim to have the answer > to cure fibro, so I try it, and no results and less hope. It is very difficult. > I appreciate having a place to go and share these thoughts and experiences with people who can relate and have the same themselves. That was > a long thank you, huh? lol > > Welcome to the new people too. Glad to have you here, sorry it's under these circumstances! > > Hugs, > > > www.warmspirit.org/purebliss > Warm Spirit promotes natural self-care, pamper and aromatherapy Spa products. > > Re: New and confused...Welcome ! ! ! > Posted by: " john honeycutt " johnghoneycutt@... johnhoneycutt1963 > Sat Dec 15, 2007 6:03 am (PST) > > Hi and welcome to the group!!! I am and I am Dazed and Confused!!! lol. I just got up and i'm experiencing vertigo for the moment but it'll pass. I think of myself as the under-medicated drama prince for comparison sake. I am DISabled for 15yrss and the cost of my meds exceed my income(SSD). I have several health issues as well and was DXd w/FM 9 mo. ago and I joined this group that very day because I didn't have a clue as to what I was up against. I had been in pain for about 4 yrs, and had no idea WHY? I was totaly DISmissed by 2 Drs. prior to my DX so I don't have > a very high opinion of Drs. I'm takinh Celexa,Strattera,Klonopin,Ambien,Robaxin,Lotrel,Prilosec,300mg. Lyrica per day and a couple other meds but I have no pain pills as my current quaso PCP would only give me 30 Darvacet 2 weeks ago as she is afraid of the DEA ! Enough about myself!!! > I have founf this to be a very wonderfull group the past 9 months I've been a member. Members have Loved me,encouraged me and supported me even thru a suicide attempt w/out condemning me. I Hope YOU find the > Love,encouragement and support I have found in this group! > GOD Bless YOU ! ! ! . . . ................................................... .................... > S.E. Ark. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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