THEY NEVER UNDERSTAND.. a few tears

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I am so upset right now. Yesterday was a hard day in that I was depressed all

day. No new reason why. Just in general.

My boss was at work and she was complaining of this " virus " that she has and

how she " hurts " all over, and how " It just has to run its course " .... She or

nobody else ever asks me how I am or offers any kind of encouragement on my

worst days. I just look like $#_t everyday so they think that is just to be

expected from me. I wanted so bad to say.... " well, you know, imagine feeling

two or three times what you feel now and knowing it won't ever run its

course " ......... I know I should not be that way. But from what I suffer

everyday in silence...... I get pissed when someone complains about their

" virus " . Selfish????????

No, I just wish they knew what goes on in my body.

Then to top it off, this morning the d/h decided not to take the kids to

school... because it was my day off. Oh, I should have been able to spring up

out of bed and just go like everyone else and get the kids ready and take them

to school. I could not. So they stayed home. So he said " some mother you

are " ..... Like that makes me feel any better. As if I am just a lazy B_ _tch.

I just worked 4 days in a row which is harder for me than normal people with a

" virus " . NO ONE BELIEVES ME AND I AM SO TIRED OF IT. Sometimes I ask the

selfish question of " Is life worth living this way " ? I don't want sympathy,,,,

just for someone to understand in my daily life. It hurts all the way around.

love,

Debra V

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