Re: psych appointment

[Guest guest]

Cecilia~ I believe that for the most part a higher power sets the

pace. I remember when I was thinking about " permanate " weight loss a

couple of years ago. The surgery was suggested by my doctor. I

listened but could imagine life without food. It didn't appear to be

an option to let go of the one thing I loved most. About 9 months ago

that changed for me. I don't know what made my thoughts change. I

just believe it was the right time along with attending a support

group in Vacville. I finally realized that to live being 490 lbs

took alot of effort. Planning where you could go to fit in the

chairs, modifing the family activity to be included, worrying about

what car I could actually ride in never the less drive. Finding

cloths,looking in the mirror and really caring about what I saw. I

watched the others at the meetings take " A " step closer to a life

with much less limitations.

All of a sudden I realized that attending the meeting was " A " step

for me. I was moving forward for me. I feel empowered now by each

step no matter how little. Daily its work, but its work for me.

I know live very differently. Life is an adventure to the next

step. Sometimes I backstep..; I think its to perfect the step. I

hope you celebrate each step know matter how small. Things will come

in due time and at the pace chosen. Dr. Phil said " People acheive the

Goals they believe they deserve " Believe it it will come.

I started my orientation July 20th in Richmond at 490lbs. I've lost

98lbs as of last week and hope to be at 100 or more lbs on my surgery

day next Monday, January 3, 2005. I believe in me know.

Tawny

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> I again have myself just " lurking " and not posting. You all help so

> much. I " Tend " to try to make things go faster or try to " Fix " it

> or just simple manipulate until I get my way or worse yet ruin it

> for myself. I started this procedure in June and for whatever

reason

> i have not been in a hurry or tried to rush things. I have shared

> that I have been fearful and that I have been grieving my friend

> food.......and little by little food is getting less

> important........slowly! Here it is the last part of this year and

I

> go Tuesday for my psych evaluation. So then its wait some more for

> the letter and so on. I am truly letting my god handle this as far

> as the time. For now Im sure if I got some of the run around

that

> some of you are posting i might get a little grumpy and then maybe

> not.........what a big big big deal this is. It truly is the

biggest

> deal of my life. And thats what this is about for me ....MY LIFE.

> I cannot wait to get up and down a cushy couch without straining!

> to cross my legs...to walk my dogs...to play with my grandkids...to

> play in the dirt of my garden....to breath easy at night....to wear

> jeans again to many to mention.........

> Again as always....thanks for the ear

> Cecilia

[Guest guest]

Great going, Tawny! All the best with your surgery, hope it brings you

everything you want! LaWanda At 07:11 AM 12/30/04, you wrote:

>Cecilia~ I believe that for the most part a higher power sets the

>pace. I remember when I was thinking about " permanate " weight loss a

>couple of years ago. The surgery was suggested by my doctor. I

>listened but could imagine life without food. It didn't appear to be

>an option to let go of the one thing I loved most. About 9 months ago

>that changed for me. I don't know what made my thoughts change. I

>just believe it was the right time along with attending a support

>group in Vacville. I finally realized that to live being 490 lbs

>took alot of effort. Planning where you could go to fit in the

>chairs, modifing the family activity to be included, worrying about

>what car I could actually ride in never the less drive. Finding

>cloths,looking in the mirror and really caring about what I saw. I

>watched the others at the meetings take " A " step closer to a life

>with much less limitations.

>

>All of a sudden I realized that attending the meeting was " A " step

>for me. I was moving forward for me. I feel empowered now by each

>step no matter how little. Daily its work, but its work for me.

>

>I know live very differently. Life is an adventure to the next

>step. Sometimes I backstep..; I think its to perfect the step. I

>hope you celebrate each step know matter how small. Things will come

>in due time and at the pace chosen. Dr. Phil said " People acheive the

>Goals they believe they deserve " Believe it it will come.

>

>I started my orientation July 20th in Richmond at 490lbs. I've lost

>98lbs as of last week and hope to be at 100 or more lbs on my surgery

>day next Monday, January 3, 2005. I believe in me know.

>

>Tawny

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> >

> > I again have myself just " lurking " and not posting. You all help so

> > much. I " Tend " to try to make things go faster or try to " Fix " it

> > or just simple manipulate until I get my way or worse yet ruin it

> > for myself. I started this procedure in June and for whatever

>reason

> > i have not been in a hurry or tried to rush things. I have shared

> > that I have been fearful and that I have been grieving my friend

> > food.......and little by little food is getting less

> > important........slowly! Here it is the last part of this year and

>I

> > go Tuesday for my psych evaluation. So then its wait some more for

> > the letter and so on. I am truly letting my god handle this as far

> > as the time. For now Im sure if I got some of the run around

>that

> > some of you are posting i might get a little grumpy and then maybe

> > not.........what a big big big deal this is. It truly is the

>biggest

> > deal of my life. And thats what this is about for me ....MY LIFE.

> > I cannot wait to get up and down a cushy couch without straining!

> > to cross my legs...to walk my dogs...to play with my grandkids...to

> > play in the dirt of my garden....to breath easy at night....to wear

> > jeans again to many to mention.........

> > Again as always....thanks for the ear

> > Cecilia

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