Worried sick, PLEASE HELP me.

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Hi everyone,

My husband's surgery is in 6 days, mine in 28 days. The " what ifs "

are really getting to me. I read the story about the 2 women from

Iowa and the memorial page on another site. We have 4 young

daughters to get healthy for, so I know this surgery is right for

us, I just can't shake this feeling. I think it's normal to feel

this way, but it's so overwhelming that I have trouble sleeping and

I think about it all the time. Husband sleeps like a baby though, he

seems to have no fear, or so I thought. He told me last night to

make sure we have a tape for our camcorder to film him with the

girls in the next few days before surgery, " just in case " . I was

speechless. Just the thought of doing that makes me cry. I can't

imagine our lives without him. I've thought about writing letters to

my love ones, just in case. Is that a good idea, or will it will put

me in a negative mind set? I feel like there's so much I want to say

to them but I don't want to scare them either. Girls are 16,15,13 &

12 months. How in the world do I get some peace of mind? I would

welcome ANY advice...Please.

Leah Booth