Family

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Every year before I even started IE. Every huge holidays even I got invited over

a friend and her or his family for dinner. However, that feels never same where

the point I tend end up binging to make myself sick or very extreme uncomfort

for few days at a time. Part of it being binging as I never had acknowledge this

type of emotions until this year for first time in little over 20 years. That

was when I lost my mother to cancer. She was so close to my sister and me. She

always very lovely, caring, open mind, and such as that as we both feel lucky to

have her for our mother even only for short time on our life. I lost my mother

when I was 12 years old.

Each year I have not able to stop missing a mother so much. Every Halloween,

Thanksgiving, and Christmas was her first favorite holidays. I tend to be a bit

depression but at same time very excite and high spirit influences on others

into good moods. Anyhow, this I have finally realized another emotional eating

worst time of year for me until this year for first time as I start learning IE

and accepting that I have a lot issues when there no mother around for so long

as I thought I didn't able to survive but I did. I am sure my mother's proud me

just for that.

Eliza

[Guest guest]

Eliza, it is wonderful that you've made that connection...and at the same time,

let me say I am so very sorry for the loss of your mother. You were so young.

Do you ever talk to your sister about missing your mom?

After my mother died (I was a grownup, though!) I had a couple of dreams in a

row where she was doing things with me that she had liked doing in life. For

example, she loved to go shopping. I didn't...but I loved being with her when

she was that happy and fun, so the experience was heaven to me. Well, in one of

my dreams she came shopping with me. After that, when I was getting ready to do

some big shopping--like Christmas shopping--I'd say aloud if I were alone, or in

my head if I weren't, " Mom, I'm going shopping. Want to come with me? " and I'd

be able to get that feeling of going shopping with Mom again.

I am a little weird but I do believe something remains of a person after

death--if not the exact person only in robes, then at least some of the person's

love, emotions; her presence. And I do believe that when I " talk " to my mom she

is there with me. I know it's not the same but it helps me to know that there

really is no such thing as " gone forever. " I don't know what your beliefs are

but this helps me.

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> Every year before I even started IE. Every huge holidays even I got invited

over a friend and her or his family for dinner. However, that feels never same

where the point I tend end up binging to make myself sick or very extreme

uncomfort for few days at a time. Part of it being binging as I never had

acknowledge this type of emotions until this year for first time in little over

20 years. That was when I lost my mother to cancer. She was so close to my

sister and me. She always very lovely, caring, open mind, and such as that as we

both feel lucky to have her for our mother even only for short time on our life.

I lost my mother when I was 12 years old.

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> Each year I have not able to stop missing a mother so much. Every Halloween,

Thanksgiving, and Christmas was her first favorite holidays. I tend to be a bit

depression but at same time very excite and high spirit influences on others

into good moods. Anyhow, this I have finally realized another emotional eating

worst time of year for me until this year for first time as I start learning IE

and accepting that I have a lot issues when there no mother around for so long

as I thought I didn't able to survive but I did. I am sure my mother's proud me

just for that.

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> Eliza

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