Re: Tell me how you made peace with food.

[Guest guest]

McKella my legalization took me several months and pounds and pounds of

chocolate! Not sure if I was enjoying the 'freedom' to eat chocolate whenever I

wanted or if my rebellion was having a better time tantruming?!? Either way, it

really only worked when I 1) had PLENTY of it around and 2) I did not beat

myself up over eating it. I bought the cheapest bulk item I could find -

chocolate covered peanuts and kept it in a large glass container right on my

kitchen counter top. My biggest mistake during this time was trying to share

this with my nurse practicitioner when I went in for annual exam. BIG mistake -

she not only didn't think that had a thing to do with my tests being 'off', she

went into lecture mode about dieting - which did NOT help either.

It took me lots more time than I wanted it to, but I finally got to the point

where chocolate didn't appeal and I found that I could indeed trust myself

around what I felt was my most untrustworthy food. This year is the first time I

have had no desire to 'bag' in on the after holiday candy sales. When I want it

I can have it.

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Good morning everybody,

> I'm going through the legalization period right now, and I think I'm doing

pretty well. This is my second shot at IE because the first time around, I

shortchanged myself on the 'make peace with food' part, and of course everything

else crumbled. Someone (sorry, I forgot your name!) replied to one of my posts

that she ate cheesecake for breakfast for three months, and I found that so

inspiring that I want to hear more stories like that.

> I want to hear what you went through when making peace with food, or how

you're doing if you're going through that now. How long did it last? What snags

or fears did you run into, and how did you overcome them? Did you have any

'aha!' moments?

> I find that hearing other people's experiences really help and inspire me, and

I could really use a boost. I look forward to reading these.

>

> You are all awesome, thanks a bundle.

>

> McKella

>

[Guest guest]

I'm the cheesecake eater :-)

I also ate egg rolls, candy, chips, and overate quite frequently. I believe I

gained about ten pounds during that period, and it lasted...nine months or more?

I was either slow to learn or just plain busy, but that's ok, we all have

different paths.

I know that I had to (and still have to) set aside money that I would normally

not allow myself to spend on food. And, I bought more than I would eat. Also,

at certain points I had to buy the boys their own stuff and draw a line around

mine--feeling like I had to compete for food was not healthy.

Eventually I was able to listen to my mouth and my tummy. I found out that I

hate chocolate for the most part. Don't get me wrong-chocolate is wonderful,

but only when it's expensive, and even then, I am picky! It's the candy bars

that became too sweet, and now the only one I will eat is Almond Joy. Poor

Snickers--used to be my best friend.

Eventually I also found that food doesn't taste as good when you aren't hungry

and that it makes me queasy. I mean, you can read those words, but it doesn't

penetrate until you feel it yourself.

It took a long time of letting myself have anything I wanted, in any quantity,

before my inner child felt secure enough to turn food down.

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