Mothers

[Guest guest]

I have been reading various posts related to mothers issues. I admit that no

where sound like my mother would do such talk me down or belittle me over my

size. After all she was big as well and always proud of her two daughters no

matter what size. My older sister is natural intiutive eater and also natural

thin yet there time she would complain how lucky with fats in my body that keep

me warm during winter as she have none in her body. LOL, honest when it come to

body size there were never negatives about any of us in this family.

However, that was not what cause me fall into emotional eating. There were

something happen to me very badly. Some of you might not able to imagine what

it's like. Being deaf child was never easy in full of hearing family and

neighbors. That was where I got hurts by sexual harassed by neighbor's father

for 4 years. I have had even told my own mother and others. Nobody believe me

that happen and they were just think I wanted to be center of attention. Until

in the end of 4 years someone my own age had made bet with me and I won the bet.

Her father spilt everything and my mother was felt so guilt.

After my mother died and I have to live in foster home which was make it a lot

far worse. This foster mother was just like everyone else. She loved to call me

names such as Fat girl, lazy worthless, and how unfit I would be into girls

society because of how strong tomboy I was and I still am.

It took years to relearn to be intiutive eater I once was. So far I am doing

pretty good. Once in while sure I would fall into emotional eating but during

that time I tend to think about it while eating as I noticed my body begin to

losing interest in that stage of emotion eating. It feel good to acknowledge my

problems and try to deal with it one step at a time.

Eliza