Lost My Job

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Yesterday my boss called me in his office and let me know they had to lay me off

bc they cannot afford to pay me anymore. I had been looking for other jobs

anyway so it was sort of a relief, but I was still upset. I don't have any money

saved or anything, and I keep hearing all this stuff about how hard it is to

find a job these days. He came in at 12 to do it, but I knew it was going to

happen since 6am. I didn't cry when it happened, and I thought I was completely

fine. At least I acted completely fine all day yesterday. I was suprised when I

was trying to fall asleep that I just started crying so hard. Although I wanted

to quit and was really hating my job in the last month, I just kept thinking

about all the good memories. I really did love that job for a long time. It was

my first " career " type job out of college, and I'm really sad to see it go. It

felt really good to just let myself cry though and not hold it all in like I had

been all day.

Hopefully I will find a new job soon, and I'm planning on going back to school

in the summer to be a registered dietician which I think is going to be a

perfect fit for me (I hope so anyway). Ultimately I'd love to be a nutrition

counselor and help people with eating disorders.

I guess the reason I'm posting this is because I did NOT eat away my feelings. I

held them in for awhile, but I did let them come out. I'm looking at this

hopefully short period of unemployment as a gift. I've been so tired from always

waking up at 4:30am, and now I don't have to do that. I feel like that extra

sleep is going to make me feel so much better. I'm going to have the time and

energy to do the stuff I've been wanting to do for awhile like painting my room

and living room, learning to use my sewing machine, and learning to cook

delicious and healthy meals for my boyfriend and me. Not only that, I will have

more time to finish reading WWSHTB and 2 others I have (forgot their name), and

spend time on this board! And I will be able to use the time to become much more

intune with my hunger/fullness signals, eating completely on my own schedule!

So I guess this doesn't really have much to do with EATING, but I do think it

has to do with taking care of myself. I realize that this period of unemployment

is a great opportunity to really care for myself and recharge. A fresh start to

a new year. With the IE, eventually a new job, and returning to school, 2010 is

going to be a completely new chapter in my life, and I look forward to it.