Guest guest Posted October 17, 2009 Report Share Posted October 17, 2009 Hello Everyone,' I am also reading " When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies " and I love, love, love it and truly find it inspirational. Not even necessarily about the body image stuff, but the whole cultural significance embedded behind it and the gentle reminder that this is really not about the food or our bodies. I have been relatively silent and only reading posts sporadically for the past few weeks because I have been very busy with both school and work. But my food is falling apart. I am binging a skipping meals like crazy and I am regularly either anxious or depressed. I am seeing my doctor this week. I have a lot of stressors going on and I am feeling ambivalent about so many parts of my life right now. I feel scattered, all over the place. I am proud to say I have the divorced the belief that says things would be better if I was thinner....but I still despise the overeating just because the act of it alone (regardless of whether or not I gain weight) makes me feel so guilty and sends off a red flag that something is up and I am too scared to process it in any other way. SO I am incredibly stressed, anxious, depressed, going through ambivalence in my relationship, having financial setbacks.....and I feel like I am a person with all of this creative energy ready to explode but at the same time I am so tense that it can't flow out....hence, why I am binging. Wishing I could use these feelings in another way!!!! But I guess that is what recovery is all about and I'll keep trying to do the next right thing one day at a time. I am also reading " When > > In another group Latoya reminded us that October 21st if Love Your Body Day. Boy did that hit a nerve with me - I look at mine and wonder how did it get into the (mis?)shape its in?!? Yet I also know that the more I focus on my body's 'flaws', the less helpful this is for me in the long run. I've made myself lovely clothes which fit and look great on me too. And I've also noticed that I really can't eat as much as I did before - I fill up much more quickly too. YET, how can my body stay so blasted pear shaped?!? Its very challenging to not focus on a tummy that I feel is an alien attached to me (lol). > > Katcha > IEing since March 2007 > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 18, 2009 Report Share Posted October 18, 2009 its challenging to channel all one's energy into a new endeavor! The trick with IE seems to be not trying to do 'everything' all at once and gifting yourself the time to tackle what you can as you can. I can so relate to dieting creating a build up of stresses - mainly frustration! So now you can release those and the binging is an example of that happening. Give yourself permission to binge and just be observant of that whole process while you are in it. I bet you calm down with it and eventually get bored with the misdirection of it all ;-) See if you can get a bit mindful as you (binge) eat. That helped me to slow down too. BEST to you, Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > > > In another group Latoya reminded us that October 21st if Love Your Body Day. Boy did that hit a nerve with me - I look at mine and wonder how did it get into the (mis?)shape its in?!? Yet I also know that the more I focus on my body's 'flaws', the less helpful this is for me in the long run. I've made myself lovely clothes which fit and look great on me too. And I've also noticed that I really can't eat as much as I did before - I fill up much more quickly too. YET, how can my body stay so blasted pear shaped?!? Its very challenging to not focus on a tummy that I feel is an alien attached to me (lol). > > > > Katcha > > IEing since March 2007 > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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