I am doing something wrong

[Guest guest]

I have been attempting the Intuitive Eating thing since June and I am at an all

time high in my weight. I have bought a couple of books about Emotional Eating,

but I am really frustrated and angry at my self. I overate tonight- in fact I

over ate all weekend. And I just feel fat and full of self loathing. I just

woke out of a dead sleep into an anxiety attack. I have been taking

anti-anxiety medication for 10 years or so and I stopped it about a week ago -

because I quit drinking caffiene and felt a lot better. I drank about 6 cups of

coffe and 2 to 4 Iced Teas or Diet sodas a day. That is a lot of caffiene for

someone with an anxiety problem. So I quit for the most part- I am drinking one

cup of caffinated tea a day. After the withdrawals, and of course missing the

habitual comfort of my morning coffee, I felt better. I knew I was using the

caffiene to block emotions to not feel, which seems to be my thing. But this

weekend I have been feeling pretty good - with the exception of a little pre

Thanksgiving family drama - I have been loving being with my husband and child

and doing fun things. So what's up with over eating? I just feel out of

control and scared.