Letting Go of the Food......

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Hello everyone, I need to share a couple things I am struggling with. I am

trying IE now for my second week. I have had really good days/meals, and other

not so good days. It's tough for me because I am a dietitian, and I have so

much food knowledge in my head, and it always turns on me.

I guess what has been the hardest is surrenduring the so called " control " I

think I have when I am controling, dieting, restricting my food. It's really

scary for me to eat whatever I want, and feel like my body is going to still be

the way I want it. I'm hard on myself; with my body shape and feel like I

should be total muscle. It's crazy.

So, my diseased mind tells me if I control my food then I will be ok, or my body

will not turn into something crazy. My sane mind knows for a fact that when I

try and control my food, diet, count calories, whatever, Food controls my life

and my thoughts. That is not what I want.

I am also stuggling at night becuase this is when I am both tired and hunrgy

when I get home. I seem to always get my needs confused when I 'm tired. I

always think I need to eat to self soothe, but I really need to rest. I am also

struggling with the urge to continue eating/bingeing because it's a habit.

So, that's where I am today. Again, I am so thankful for this group.