Guest guest Posted November 2, 2009 Report Share Posted November 2, 2009 Hi, I’m new today. I just turned 40 – been overweight my whole life. Started my lifestyle change journey on Jan. 1, 2006 at 240 pounds. Got down to 160 - lost 80 pounds – by counting calories and exercising. I even became a certified fitness instructor and work at a gym – teaching 13 classes per week! However, over the last year or so I’ve become lax and started binge-eating again and have regained almost 30 pounds – up to 189 today. I know something has to change. I am tired of a life obsessed with calories and counting and weighing and measuring. I am tired of being just a number on a scale. If I woke up every day and weighed myself and the scale said $%^ & * then how would I measure my self-worth? I am tired of being black or white – all or nothing – compulsive, rebellious, perfectionistic, and hating myself all the while. I have read all of Geneen Roth’s books – LOVE her! And I did Weigh Down about 10 years ago, and loved the principles of it, but went away from it due to theological differences. I am happily married – 16 years – 3 beautiful girls....we go to a Lutheran church and live in Nebraska. I am very excited to have found this group this morning....am going to order the Intuitive Eating book off Amazon this morning. I’m really looking forward to taking the FitDay (calorie counting) program off my computer...... taking a sledgehammer to my scale..... burning all the calendars I’ve kept for 4 years....with my daily weights on them.... and giving away all the diet books I own...... (It may take me a while to ACTUALLY destroy/give away all these items, baby steps! But I will get there.) Guess that’s enough for a start. Can’t wait to get involved in discussions and get going! Today is Day One of freedom from overeating, bingeing and defining my life by weight and food.....I am so much more than this! Jolene in Nebraska ------------------------------ It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye. -Antoine de Saint-Exupery (The Little Prince) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2009 Report Share Posted November 2, 2009 Welcome Jolene! I had a great grin maker thought - wouldn't it be great fun to have videos at some place like You Tube with us smashing, tossing, sticking our tongues out at, etc. etc. our scales?!? Talk about an instrument of the 'devil' - lol!!! Happy to have you here and looking forward to reading more posts from you. Katcha (soon to embrace the last year of my 50s decade IEing since March 2007 > > Hi, > > I'm new today. I just turned 40 - been overweight my whole life. Started > my lifestyle change journey on Jan. 1, 2006 at 240 pounds. Got down to 160 > - lost 80 pounds - by counting calories and exercising. I even became a > certified fitness instructor and work at a gym - teaching 13 classes per > week! However, over the last year or so I've become lax and started > binge-eating again and have regained almost 30 pounds - up to 189 today. > > > > I know something has to change. I am tired of a life obsessed with calories > and counting and weighing and measuring. I am tired of being just a number > on a scale. If I woke up every day and weighed myself and the scale said > $%^ & * then how would I measure my self-worth? > > > > I am tired of being black or white - all or nothing - compulsive, > rebellious, perfectionistic, and hating myself all the while. > > > > I have read all of Geneen Roth's books - LOVE her! And I did Weigh Down > about 10 years ago, and loved the principles of it, but went away from it > due to theological differences. > > > > I am happily married - 16 years - 3 beautiful girls....we go to a Lutheran > church and live in Nebraska. > > > > I am very excited to have found this group this morning....am going to order > the Intuitive Eating book off Amazon this morning. > > > > I'm really looking forward to taking the FitDay (calorie counting) program > off my computer...... > > taking a sledgehammer to my scale..... > > burning all the calendars I've kept for 4 years....with my daily weights on > them.... > > and giving away all the diet books I own...... > > > > (It may take me a while to ACTUALLY destroy/give away all these items, baby > steps! But I will get there.) > > > > Guess that's enough for a start. Can't wait to get involved in discussions > and get going! > > > > Today is Day One of freedom from overeating, bingeing and defining my life > by weight and food.....I am so much more than this! > > > > Jolene in Nebraska > > > > ------------------------------ > > It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; > > what is essential is invisible to the eye. > > -Antoine de Saint-Exupery (The Little Prince) > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2009 Report Share Posted November 3, 2009 Welcome Jolene! I am so happy for you for deciding to give dieting a rest once and for all. You won't regret it! I started IE about this time last year, but only stuck to it for about a month before I got freaked out by a small weight gain and went back to dieting. Lost about 10 lbs and went on vacation at the end of June. I decided I'd give myself some freedom on vacation and eat what I wanted. Once I was there though I realized how insanely messed up my relationship with food was. I thought I was fine, but all I thought about the whole time was food. When I was going to be able to eat again and what it was going to be. I was so scared that I was going to blow all my progress and gain a bunch of weight. I agonized over it the entire vacation and ruined a lot of moments I should of spent happily with my boyfriend. After that vacation I didn't have anymore dieting left in me. I reread Intuitive Eating and have been making it a part of my life again since July 28th. It feels WONDERFUL. I did gain a little bit of weight, but I expected it. That's not to say it was easy to deal with, but I was (and still am) completely determined to NEVER EVER diet again. I think I might be losing weight, but I don't know for sure bc I refuse to weigh myself. Maybe my attitude about myself is just better? Either way I feel good about myself and that's what counts. I have finally gotten to the point where I can eat foods considered healthy (which I actually prefer) without it feeling like a diet. I am also to the point where I can eat something considered unhealthy without feeling like I'm going to automatically gain weight. It takes a little while, but you will get there too! You just have to be patient with yourself, go through the process, and KNOW that you will be successful. There are definitely ups and downs, but this board really helps, especially when you're in one of the lower points. Welcome again and sorry this was so long! By the way, I also work at a gym as a fitness specialist. It's great, but lots of people at gyms are in full-mode diet mentality. It can be hard to deal with sometimes when beginning IE so if you ever need to talk/vent, I'm sure I'll be able to understand where you're coming from! > > Hi, > > I'm new today. I just turned 40 - been overweight my whole life. Started > my lifestyle change journey on Jan. 1, 2006 at 240 pounds. Got down to 160 > - lost 80 pounds - by counting calories and exercising. I even became a > certified fitness instructor and work at a gym - teaching 13 classes per > week! However, over the last year or so I've become lax and started > binge-eating again and have regained almost 30 pounds - up to 189 today. > > > > I know something has to change. I am tired of a life obsessed with calories > and counting and weighing and measuring. I am tired of being just a number > on a scale. If I woke up every day and weighed myself and the scale said > $%^ & * then how would I measure my self-worth? > > > > I am tired of being black or white - all or nothing - compulsive, > rebellious, perfectionistic, and hating myself all the while. > > > > I have read all of Geneen Roth's books - LOVE her! And I did Weigh Down > about 10 years ago, and loved the principles of it, but went away from it > due to theological differences. > > > > I am happily married - 16 years - 3 beautiful girls....we go to a Lutheran > church and live in Nebraska. > > > > I am very excited to have found this group this morning....am going to order > the Intuitive Eating book off Amazon this morning. > > > > I'm really looking forward to taking the FitDay (calorie counting) program > off my computer...... > > taking a sledgehammer to my scale..... > > burning all the calendars I've kept for 4 years....with my daily weights on > them.... > > and giving away all the diet books I own...... > > > > (It may take me a while to ACTUALLY destroy/give away all these items, baby > steps! But I will get there.) > > > > Guess that's enough for a start. Can't wait to get involved in discussions > and get going! > > > > Today is Day One of freedom from overeating, bingeing and defining my life > by weight and food.....I am so much more than this! > > > > Jolene in Nebraska > > > > ------------------------------ > > It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; > > what is essential is invisible to the eye. > > -Antoine de Saint-Exupery (The Little Prince) > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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