Subconsciously Restricting

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I'm reading When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies very slowly. Part of the reason

I'm going so slowly is because I currently have an aversion to facing all that

psychological stuff that goes alone with compulsive eating. My life has a lot

of stress in it right now, and I tend to just shut down emotionally when that

happens.

I've had a relapse in recent weeks in not wanting to stop eating when I was

satisfied. I really couldn't understand why, so I've just been kind of waiting

for it to go away. The book goes into great detail about either looking for

ways that you're continuing to restrict or look for psychological issues that

might be rearing their head. I've been focusing on the psychological and some

things resonated. But when I turned my attention to possible restriction, I

realized I had slipped back into restriction. It wasn't some big decision to go

hungry, just a slight psychological shift. It was more like a desire to not pay

too much attention to hunger. Now I need to look back at the psychological for

why I shifted back into slight restriction in my mind.

With my personal history of going hungry nearly every day in my non-IE days, I

really have to diligently remain consciously committed to eating whenever I'm

hungry, period. Actually, I need to eat whenever I want to. If I feel any

restriction I start overeating. It's amazing to me how I can just so

subconsciously slip back into a slightly restrictive mindset. I'm also amazed

at how quickly I can slip back into IE once I realize it, but it gets annoying

to keep going back into those mindsets without even realizing it. At least it

dawns on me quicker now.

Sara