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April 4, 2009

Hi Sharon,

Do you like the normal eating website/book/forum? Do you think it's worth it?

I hadn't heard of it before, was just looking at the site and wondered what you

thought.

Thea

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> Subject: Days where I " give up " on trying.

> Date: Wednesday, April 1, 2009, 6:35 PM

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> This morning started well. I was nervous because we were making

pancakes for breakfast, but I gave myself less than I usually do because I

always get too full and figured I could get more if I wanted, and then I paid

attention to my fullness and satisfaction, eating away from the tv and

distraction. I ate a little more than half and found myself bordering a tiny

bit past fullness and stopped. I was proud of myself.

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> Things then happened that caused a great deal of frustration and anxiety and

for some reason after I finally calmed down I found myself eating a lot. I kept

telling myself " it's ok, you can eat this " at the same time as I was calling

myself fat. I just felt like in a way I didn't care.

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> What can I do about those days where I just want to give in to all of the bad

feelings (or good feelings even) that food brings? I ate out of guilt and

frustration, and I also ate to comfort and soothe. I knew why I was eating and

that it wasn't for the " right " reasons, but I just didn't care to have the

energy to sit down and think of why I was eating and deal with my emotions.

This is the third day in a row! Yesterday I ate because I was soooo tired and

grasping at calories for energy before work and wound up so bloated and

excessively thirsty it was ridiculous.

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> I really want to learn to feel my emotions and deal with them the way they

should be dealt with, but sometimes when I have a baby crying and a mother in

law being a pain in the you know what, I just don't FEEL like feeling. I just

want to drown out the noise and the only way I know how is with food.

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> I know not every day will be successful and this is just the beginning of a

very long journey, but I am actually starting to feel comfortable with past

" forbidden " foods, it's just that I don't know how to deal with emotions.

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