how many steps backward do i need to go?

[Guest guest]

I'm told that when i am relapsing into overeating that there is something to be

learned and that I really need to pay attention to what is going on and

especially write about it.

Well, I've been overeating and feeling like crap and writing about it.

I am soooooooo good at being negative and beating myself up, this almost feels

normal to me.

Far cry from my zen-like posts of hope from before, right? I'm sorry but I'm

having a temper tantrum here!!!!! I'm tired of being this way!!!! I've

suffered enough. I just want this to be over!!! Enough already!!!! Will

somebody please remove my brain because it is me doing this to myself!!!! I need

a miracle here!!!

Arrrrggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!

Deb