14 days until MYO-fear, memories, and sexual abuse

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JUly 2, 2003

Hello,

I feel really scared in little spurts every so often I am really

into long bubble baths these days. Today though I shaved my legs

because I am heading for the beach for the holiday weekend. I

couldn't stop thinking about the surgery. Almost subconciously I

began to shave all my pubic area. When I was done, it seemed that I

was looking at my inner child's pubic area. I felt like crying but

the tears would not come.

Then immediately I began thinking about how I am reclaiming what was

taken from me as an eleven year old girl. I felt proud of myself. I

wish this surgery wasn't so emotionally charged for me but it is. I

have done a tremendous amount of work around this issue and the fact

is that I, as a 40 year old woman, am equipped to handle fear,

memories, and natural residual effectes on my child sexual abuse.

Happy 4th of July ladies!