Negative Experiences this Weekend

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All last week I was feeling really postive about myself and my relationship with

food. I felt like I was making some serious progress with IE and felt really

great. Then this weekend I went out of town to visit some friends from college.

It was like a switch was turned. All of a sudden I started feeling really bad

about the food I ate, compared what and how much I ate to those I was with, and

just felt incredibly anxious and stressed. I felt like I was ruining all of my

progress. I was very irritable and kept taking things out on my boyfriend. When

I got home, I kept looking at my stomach in the mirror and thinking about how

much fatter it looked. I was so upset I just sat on my floor and cried. I feel a

lot better today, but I'm just trying to figure out what happened this weekend.

It's so frustrating bc I was doing so well and feeling really strong, and then

all of a sudden I felt completely out of control. I know when I was dieting,

going out of town always caused huge amounts of anxiety in me bc I was afraid I

wouldn't be able to stick with my diet. I guess I'm just still really afraid of

gaining weight. I guess that's an issue I need to continue working on

(acceptance). I'm just trying to figure out what happened this weekend. If

anybody has any input, suggestions, or experience with this please let me know!

I want to learn as much as I can from this experience and use it to make me

stronger otherwise it'll probably continually get worse each time I go out of

town. Thank you!