Fear of Desire to Eat

[Guest guest]

When I first started IE, I was surprised how fearful of food I was. I almost

never allowed myself to buy anything that I might feel like binging on. Then

when I started IE and legalized food, I would walk into the grocery store,

realize I was going to buy whatever I wanted, and feel nearly paralyzed in fear.

I don't do that anymore. But yesterday, all at once, I realized I was

subconsciosly trying to avoid the thought of food, eating, hunger, and desire

for food. I'm realizing that I just fall back into the old habit without even

consciously realizing I'm doing it. As soon as I realized I was doing it, I

changed my intention to welcoming hunger and desire for food. My hunger and

desire for food immediately left me as I did this. The change was so immediate

and so complete it blew me away. Just with the tinyest shift in perspective, my

hunger immediately vanished. After that, I immediately fell back into a place

where I felt very satisfied with food. I only wanted to eat when I was

moderately hungry. I was satisfied with much less food than I've been eating

lately. I had had much more hunger lately, which I blamed on autumn, and my

period. I still beieve those were factors, but I think in response to these

things, I was subconsciously falling back into a fear of hunger, and also a fear

of fullness.

I've been reading about the concept that having a fear of something actually

attracts it into your life. That's definitely true where the IE principals are

involved for me.

Someone wrote here about inviting Mr. Hyde (big hunger when arriving home from

work) in, and welcoming him, and that that took his power away. That's

definitely so true for me. So I'm writig this to help me remember to stay

focused on welcoming hunger, desire, food and eating into my day and life.

Does anybody else have any experience with a small shift in perspective having

an immediate effect like that? It just blew my mind.

I'm off to eat some yummy chicken wings with blue cheese dressing.

Sara

[Guest guest]

I like this post, Sara. I am beginning to understand this more. What I

immediately thought of was when I might start to obsess on a food, and then I

say to myself, okay, wait, you can have it if you really do want it. Most of

the time, then, all of the sudden, I don't want it when I tell myself I can have

it.

KT

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> When I first started IE, I was surprised how fearful of food I was. I almost

never allowed myself to buy anything that I might feel like binging on. Then

when I started IE and legalized food, I would walk into the grocery store,

realize I was going to buy whatever I wanted, and feel nearly paralyzed in fear.

>

> I don't do that anymore. But yesterday, all at once, I realized I was

subconsciosly trying to avoid the thought of food, eating, hunger, and desire

for food. I'm realizing that I just fall back into the old habit without even

consciously realizing I'm doing it. As soon as I realized I was doing it, I

changed my intention to welcoming hunger and desire for food. My hunger and

desire for food immediately left me as I did this. The change was so immediate

and so complete it blew me away. Just with the tinyest shift in perspective, my

hunger immediately vanished. After that, I immediately fell back into a place

where I felt very satisfied with food. I only wanted to eat when I was

moderately hungry. I was satisfied with much less food than I've been eating

lately. I had had much more hunger lately, which I blamed on autumn, and my

period. I still beieve those were factors, but I think in response to these

things, I was subconsciously falling back into a fear of hunger, and also a fear

of fullness.

>

> I've been reading about the concept that having a fear of something actually

attracts it into your life. That's definitely true where the IE principals are

involved for me.

>

> Someone wrote here about inviting Mr. Hyde (big hunger when arriving home from

work) in, and welcoming him, and that that took his power away. That's

definitely so true for me. So I'm writig this to help me remember to stay

focused on welcoming hunger, desire, food and eating into my day and life.

>

> Does anybody else have any experience with a small shift in perspective having

an immediate effect like that? It just blew my mind.

>

> I'm off to eat some yummy chicken wings with blue cheese dressing.

>

> Sara

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