Guest guest Posted June 24, 2009 Report Share Posted June 24, 2009 Bleh, it's quite hard to stick to the image of the food anthropologist but after I binged (and fully knowing that I are emotionally and because the food was so yummie) it's better to try to stick to it than to yell at myself. The food is in me now anyway. What's even harder is to avoid the " tomorrow I will listen to my body again " . Sounds too much like " tomorrow I will be a good girl and start another diet " . After getting the job I'm more nervous than ever. Will I be able to make a good job? Won't it be too stressful? It *will* be a challenge for sure. What about my dissertation? Will I ever get that Dr. before my name? It's more disturbing than I thought it would be. I thought I would relax a bit after getting the job but I find myself being quite ambivalent about it (or at least more than I thought I would be) It's very frustrating at the moment to be fully aware of eating emotionally yet not being able to stop many times. After stopping myself from eating out of MH yesterday and today several times I gave in tonight. My blood sugar (usually quite good readings) seems to be a bit off since yesterday as well. Ok, that could as well be because I have a cold so I won't make anyting out of that though I tend to view myself as a " bad patient " when my readings are higher than usually. How do you all cope with being aware of eating out of MH and yet not being able to stop? I wonder WHY I don't stop? Because I want to yell at myself to blur other things out? Because I want to soothe myself? s. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 24, 2009 Report Share Posted June 24, 2009 hmmm Styxia. I hope you do real well about that job thing. After having spoken to my friend who is also a case when it comes to keeping jobs (she quits BEFORE they fire her, even though I don't think they will fire her) for so long, the only thing I can say is that if you are reliable and do your job as they desire you to, there's no reason why you should not keep it. Politics being what they are, it is hard for some to stay out of the way of feeling the rub, but stay out of it you must. To me what is sad is that many supervisors don't know hw to supervise thus making the job of the subordinates so much harder. With your good mind, why shouldn't you succeed? People today need reliable workers; to me that is one key to keeping your job.It is tempting to think of it as a failure to say tomorrow I'll do better ... I've learned to try to do better right now, not tomorrow. I know the food will stick with me if I eat too much of it; that much I know. So if I fall off the wagon which I do occasionally, I don't wait until tomorrow to get back on.CindiSubject: The Food AnthropologistTo: "Intuitive Eating" <IntuitiveEating_Support >Date: Wednesday, June 24, 2009, 4:35 PM Bleh, it's quite hard to stick to the image of the food anthropologist but after I binged (and fully knowing that I are emotionally and because the food was so yummie) it's better to try to stick to it than to yell at myself. The food is in me now anyway. What's even harder is to avoid the "tomorrow I will listen to my body again". Sounds too much like "tomorrow I will be a good girl and start another diet". After getting the job I'm more nervous than ever. Will I be able to make a good job? Won't it be too stressful? It *will* be a challenge for sure. What about my dissertation? Will I ever get that Dr. before my name? It's more disturbing than I thought it would be. I thought I would relax a bit after getting the job but I find myself being quite ambivalent about it (or at least more than I thought I would be) It's very frustrating at the moment to be fully aware of eating emotionally yet not being able to stop many times. After stopping myself from eating out of MH yesterday and today several times I gave in tonight. My blood sugar (usually quite good readings) seems to be a bit off since yesterday as well. Ok, that could as well be because I have a cold so I won't make anyting out of that though I tend to view myself as a "bad patient" when my readings are higher than usually. How do you all cope with being aware of eating out of MH and yet not being able to stop? I wonder WHY I don't stop? Because I want to yell at myself to blur other things out? Because I want to soothe myself? s. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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