Re: buying food from restaurants/stores

[Guest guest]

This is a great topic!

Since I have started to practice more IE and eating more mindfully I have found

that my eating habits are usually dependent on my need for self care.

Alot of times this is because I push myself too hard in work, school, life

etc... The first thing I cut out are my hobbies and sleep. This lands up leaving

me physically tired and needing time to take a breath and relax. But I rarely

let myself have these momments. I struggle with feeling like taking time to

relax or sleep is a " waste " of time. This time isn't graded...

On top of this I always want to get the good grades and reviews. And I struggle

with being able to sit down and focus on one thing for hours to get the work

done. So I land up procrastinating a lot. I think I have ADHD but I have never

been officially diagnosed.

SO anyway all of this leaves me needing to feel nurtured but not allowing myself

to have the time to do so. So I land up relying on external things to nurture

myself. Usually this means food. Definitely a lot of food that is take - out.

Buying food at a convenience store or restaurant for some reason makes me feel

like I am nurturing myself. Maybe because for many years these food items and

just the act of eating out I considered taboo. I think I have been able to

remove more of that taboo feeling but I still consider it that special event.

But this ironic since I get some type of food at a convenience store almost

every day. haha! : ) For some reason, eating out just feels like I am putting

that exra effort into myself and I really need that a lot of times.

Goodluck!

K

> because it taps into my insecurity that i am unable to take care of

myself.....not just in the sense of putting myself first, but also in the sense

of feeling like i am not a " real " grown up.

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