Control and Change

[Guest guest]

I woke up this morning feeling down because I'm still trying to control my

journey. I'm still trying to change my eating behaviors. I guess it's normal

to want to change and control things. For many folks it seems like the only

answer, the only way out of a dilemma.

The thing is, intuitive eating (which I believe points me in the right

direction) is not about control and change in my opinion. It is about BE-ing

still and listening to my body. My body has so much more intelligence than I

realize!

Trying to alter my behaviors is what got me into this mess in the first place.

So I said to myself this morning, " Ok, you're really down because you overate

last night. " " This does not define YOU. "

I actually felt a little better. And then I happened to come upon an exerpt

from one of my morning readings which was so helpful. I'd like to share it with

you.

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Be Naked

" You often hear the popular slogans

'Be Happy'

'Be Grateful'

'Be Positive'

But what happens

when you try and be these things

when they are not your experience?

Suddenly you are imposing a mask

on top of what is already here.

You are really saying to yourself

that how you truly are

is unacceptable.

And that you have to lie

to yourself and others

in order to feel accepted.

If you really consider this

you will see that

this is self hatred.

Meditation

is about allowing yourself

to be exactly as you are.

Simply in this allowing

there is peace.

And from this allowing

comes awareness

and from awareness

comes transcendence.

Simply by being

aware of what is here,

you no longer

are confined

by the body/mind/ego,

you exist as awareness.

Then your natural state

of love and gratitude

shines forth.

Not because of something you do,

but simply because

that is what is.

Awareness itself transforms.

But any sense of trying

to control yourself

to change yourself

you empower your ego even more.

You lock yourself

further into the idea

that you should be different

than you are.

So rather than be positive,

be naked,

without the make up

and the hair extensions.

Be aware of your experience

exactly as it is.

The moment you do this,

you rest as awareness.

You move into your true state

of unconditional peace.

Even in the awareness

of the deepest anger and sadness

there is incredible peace and bliss.

The mind could be whining,

cursing and hating

and you would be immersed in bliss.

This is the honest truth.

Peace is not something you do,

it is what you are.

It is what is naturally here

when you stop resisting this moment.

Kip Mazuy

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Always seeking and learning,

Deb