Positive thoughts after weighing myself

[Guest guest]

I stepped on the scale this morning. It's funny b/c the weight that it said on

the scale was what I expected. I knew I had gained weight...I could feel it in

my tummy and the way some of my clothes were fitting. My son said something

yesterday that triggered anxiety about my weight. Since then I'd been wandering

in the unknown about my weight. Thoughts like I must have gained a bunch...like

10 pounds in three weeks. So for me this morning, before I stepped on the

scale, I told myself that I don't have to act out (either by restricting or

overeating) based on the number it shows. And it was quite funny b/c the number

I thought I was, I actually was. Yes, I did gain. I knew that. But for me in

that moment it was okay to weigh myself. It took away the boogey men that were

saying I had ballooned (I feel like I've done that). It was also a comfort to

me to know that I have gained but it's b/c I've been overeating and not

exercising as much (running 20 miles a week). This experience this morning

helps me to know that I can work on IE and eventually I will eat with peace,

have a fuller life, and my weight will come down naturally without all the hyper

attentiveness of dieting. It's reassuring to know that when I let myself have

freedom with food (imperfect)that I don't go way out of control. I have chosen

limitless amounts recently, but even then I really don't want to do that. I

guess what I'm trying to say is that me () wants to have a happy and

peaceful relationship with food and my body. I really don't want to

self-destruct with food. I can trust myself. It will just take some time.

Thanks,