Guest guest Posted October 26, 2003 Report Share Posted October 26, 2003 Welcome back , So glad that things are going better for you and your son. That is also wonderful that you have maintained your weightloss. Are you exercising and do you have trouble watching what you eat? Best wishes, Bridget Pre-op for lap rny. > Well Folks > > I know the last time you guys herd from me was back in July when I > mentioned my son was in a car accident.. Well he is better now. The > recovery for him has been hard and just wanted to thank you all for your > prayers and individual emails to me. Once again thanks. > > In NJ > Surgery 2-7-02 > 5 " 5 " --BMI 46 (298-147)Lost 151 LBS > Surgeon: Dr. H. Holup/Pascack Valley > > Yahoo Screen Name: rossae > Aol chat Screen Name: rossaee > MSN Messenger authenticity1 > > Visit my Picture album at the link below. Password is suemia > > http://www.PictureTrail.com/gid630896 > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 13, 2009 Report Share Posted July 13, 2009 Welcome and glad to have you back. Overcoming an emotional driven eating disorder is hard work and will just take time. Its good that you are able to see that this is not something you want to continue with and are willing to address your underlying issues too. Post away and know that you will be supported here as best we can Best to you, Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > i sought this group out when i first bought the book. i was convinced IE was going to save me from my ED. but they tell you if you are not in it 100% it's not going to work. and soon enough i went back to my old ways. but i'm so tired of feeling worthless all the time. i'm tired of the numbers (calories, weight) running my life. honestly, i still don't feel like i have enough strength to do this but i know in my heart and head that this is really the only way to live. for me at least. i'll explain a little about myself and my food issues. > about a year ago i lowered my calories drastically. eating under 1000 per day. and exercising. in a few months time i lost 10lbs. and had developed a whole slew of issues. i was now deep into the world of anorexia. but i also had a binge problem. so that lead to a brief episode of bulimia behaviors. that's about when i tried to get better the first time. and it did help for a while. but i became so scared about putting weight back on, i still was aiming for another 10lb. loss. so i returned to the restricting. but the second time around wasn't so easy. the weight didn't come off and i was binging A LOT. in fact i gained 5lbs. now i'm binging 3-4 days a week and feel awful. i'm starting to realize that this goes back all the way to my childhood and how food has always been a tool of comforting me. and i'm starting to see that there are quite a few issues all wrapping together. anyways, before i get off on a tangent that may never stop- i'm am tired of feeling this way. i want to be healthy AND happy. i need all the support and help i can get. thank you. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 14, 2009 Report Share Posted July 14, 2009 Your self-awareness, honesty and courage are so inspiring and something to be emulated. Thank you for sharing your struggles and pain. It's an amazing step to be proud of. Freja Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 14, 2009 Report Share Posted July 14, 2009 > > Your self-awareness, honesty and courage are so inspiring and something to be emulated. Thank you for sharing your struggles and pain. It's an amazing step to be proud of. > > Freja > thank you both so much! it means alot to know i'm not alone. no matter how different our struggles are. i am having a hard time accepting my bodies changes (i have gained a little more than 5 lbs)but i keep trying to tell myself this is for the best. this is what i need to do to be healthy and happy. it is hard for me to accept that maybe i just wasn't meant to be super skinny. i hate the way this makes me sound so vain, because really i'm not- i just have a lot of issues. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 14, 2009 Report Share Posted July 14, 2009 I hear you, my friend! I am new to this IE journey, but I have fought body issues and bingeing issues for a long time. It's difficult for me to accept that what's best for me is not to be " in control " of the number on the scale...not that I was much " in control " of it before! It's hard for me to believe that listening to my body's signals and giving it what it needs will lead to a " good " weight...aka, what if I'm not meant to be super skinny? " At least if I could count calories, I could be skinny even if I'm not meant to be " ... I fight that battle several times a day, sometimes seemingly every few minutes, arguing with myself and trying to convince myself that this will be better for me. " I would rather be happy than skinny " ... a valid point, but how do we let go of the idea that being " skinny " will MAKE us happy? Hang in there...we can do this! Dawn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 14, 2009 Report Share Posted July 14, 2009 Dawn, there is a suggested exercise called the Thin Fantasy in a book called When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies. Its purpose is just that, to help you see for yourself what fantasies you hold for yourself around being thin. I am sure this would be interesting to you, but looking back I'm glad I didn't try and take it on when I just started. I really needed to just get some IE 'basics' under my belt first and then be ready for next steps like dealing with deeper emotional issues. Let your intuition be your guide and 'savor' the steps you are drawn to as you find what appeals to you. Hopefully just knowing that there are suggestions and help for about any issue, now or later too, will keep you on YOUR course of action. Best to you, Katcha IEing since March 2007 > but how do we let go of the idea that being " skinny " will MAKE us happy? > Dawn > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 15, 2009 Report Share Posted July 15, 2009 > > I hear you, my friend! I am new to this IE journey, but I have fought body issues and bingeing issues for a long time. It's difficult for me to accept that what's best for me is not to be " in control " of the number on the scale...not that I was much " in control " of it before! It's hard for me to believe that listening to my body's signals and giving it what it needs will lead to a " good " weight...aka, what if I'm not meant to be super skinny? " At least if I could count calories, I could be skinny even if I'm not meant to be " ... I fight that battle several times a day, sometimes seemingly every few minutes, arguing with myself and trying to convince myself that this will be better for me. " I would rather be happy than skinny " ... a valid point, but how do we let go of the idea that being " skinny " will MAKE us happy? > > Hang in there...we can do this! > > Dawn > yes, exactly i could have written this myself. it's very much how i feel. right now i'm trying to realize and appreciate everything i can do now that i've given myself more freedom. reminding myself how much better i feel when i allow myself to be intuitive. i'm still struggling many times a day, but hopefully it will get easier with time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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