I am a newbie

[Guest guest]

Hello everyone,

I am very new. I am horribly upset with myself right now! This time last year I

was very happy at 145 and I weighed myself today at 167. I really am going down

a path I don't like. I am very good at condemning myself and I know I eat too

much lately. Quite frankly I am overwhelmed. My heart needs to be in serve mode

with my family and it is so overwhelmed and discouraged that I find myself

eating instead.

A bit about myself: I am a stay at home homeschooling mom of four kids ages 9,

8, 5, and 3 (almost4:) and have been married for eleven years now. I will be

turning 30 at the end of this year. We just moved in February from a lake house

to a farm house about 50 miles away. We have cows, chickens, dogs, cats, ducks,

and a mini horse. Not to mention a garden and lots of 4-h activities.

I have to say that as busy as that all sounds, I find myself in a huge hole of

loneliness. My hubby works nights 4am-4pm. So, I find myself eating a lot.

I cry a lot because I hate the choices I am making in this area, but really

don't have the support or strength to stop. I wake up in the mornings and think,

today will be the day I don't overeat and then by noon I am so weak, I just fall

in the food trap. So, I have the book Thin Within. A couple years ago I did the

weigh down Workshop. I was disappointed in some aspects of that although it did

teach me some fundamentals of non dieting. So, here is my life and some

struggles in short. Any questions, encouraging words, and just accountability

and much prayer would be wonderful. I will be doing the same for others as best

as I can.

Thank you and from the looks of the posts today, this seems like a group I can

identify with!

Thanks again,

Mindy Jo:)