Re: Ominous times?

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Well, I've definitely been struggling, for reasons that are indirectly related to the faltering economy. To summarize a very long story, I moved and am now commuting a very long way, back to my old job (which I had been laid off from when our program closed... but then got reinstated when parents and administrators rallied on our behalf), while my new job works on the credentialing process. I've been getting home so exhausted that I have been eating mindlessly, and in particular, doing so while watching TV. I am feeling really frustrated with myself. And I've definitely put on weight, which is also really frustrating. 

But I guess I blame myself for this, and don't remember that I'm in a vacuum. I'm trying to be patient with myself but at the same time encourage myself to do better... it's a really difficult balancing act. One I don't think I am doing very well with at the moment. But I'm trying. Trying to remember, in particular, that this is, indeed, a difficult time and that I am doing what I can to survive. Taking good care of my patients if not myself. 

Thanks for posting.Abby

 

The quiet at this group, and on net in general, seem to me to be a reflection of the depressed economy? If a person has to choose between keeping their lives going vs. personal development, the first is going to win out. And while we are not challenged with such tough life decisions, I have to admit that I find myself in a bit of 'breath holding' at times. Such un-resolvable concern is finding its way into my eating where 'worry' slips back into auto 'care' (mindless eating). I'm hoping that just posting this will help me to re-focus back on track.

Hope everyone is hanging in not only in positive eating practices, but in their own lives too.

ehugs, Katcha

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I, too, am faltering, and perhaps it can also be indirectly blamed on the economy....we switched our middle son to a school in town because our tiny district here in the foothills where we live in CA was hit so very hard by the state budget cuts and we wanted a good education for our son....so I'm devoting more of my energy and time to hauling him and my other son who goes to private school on a much longer journey to school each day.  This means less time in my day over all, and I'm feeling it.  I'm happy for our decision, but I definitely am just barely surviving time-wise, getting the basics done.  I feel a combination of anger/frustration and bewilderment as to how the rest of the world does it.....I feel like I would love to have time to journal, work out, think about what I'm eating, etc., but I literally have no time, except to throw in emergency loads of laundry, hope that dinner gets made, and help people with homework, and then start all over again the next day.  I am facing surgery in the next 2 weeks for a tear in my hip joint - not being able to walk or move very well certainly hasn't helped the time factor....am hoping that I can be pain-free after my surgery.  Thanks for giving me a poke, Katcha - I need to wake back up!

Hugs,

 

Well, I've definitely been struggling, for reasons that are indirectly related to the faltering economy. To summarize a very long story, I moved and am now commuting a very long way, back to my old job (which I had been laid off from when our program closed... but then got reinstated when parents and administrators rallied on our behalf), while my new job works on the credentialing process. I've been getting home so exhausted that I have been eating mindlessly, and in particular, doing so while watching TV. I am feeling really frustrated with myself. And I've definitely put on weight, which is also really frustrating. 

But I guess I blame myself for this, and don't remember that I'm in a vacuum. I'm trying to be patient with myself but at the same time encourage myself to do better... it's a really difficult balancing act. One I don't think I am doing very well with at the moment. But I'm trying. Trying to remember, in particular, that this is, indeed, a difficult time and that I am doing what I can to survive. Taking good care of my patients if not myself. 

Thanks for posting.Abby

 

The quiet at this group, and on net in general, seem to me to be a reflection of the depressed economy? If a person has to choose between keeping their lives going vs. personal development, the first is going to win out. And while we are not challenged with such tough life decisions, I have to admit that I find myself in a bit of 'breath holding' at times. Such un-resolvable concern is finding its way into my eating where 'worry' slips back into auto 'care' (mindless eating). I'm hoping that just posting this will help me to re-focus back on track.

Hope everyone is hanging in not only in positive eating practices, but in their own lives too.

ehugs, Katcha

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[Guest guest]

Well, it's funny. I wonder if posting had a therapeutic effect. I normally journal a lot but haven't had time with the new, LONG commute. Anyway, after writing it I started thinking that i wasn't being fair to myself. instead of only counting the ways i'm NOT doing well, i decided to be fair to myself i ought to focus on all the things i AM doing right. no point in focusing on the negative! nevermind the fact that i am always more motivated by thinking positively! 

so i'm MOSTLY eating intuitively. i've been exercising. i eat mindfully most of the time. and i am going to stop thinking about the weight at all. it's a symptom of what's going on inside me, not the problem itself. 

i'm tired enough i think perhaps i'm not writing in a way that makes all that much sense, but i wanted to share how posting seems to have helped me!abby

 

I, too, am faltering, and perhaps it can also be indirectly blamed on the economy....we switched our middle son to a school in town because our tiny district here in the foothills where we live in CA was hit so very hard by the state budget cuts and we wanted a good education for our son....so I'm devoting more of my energy and time to hauling him and my other son who goes to private school on a much longer journey to school each day.  This means less time in my day over all, and I'm feeling it.  I'm happy for our decision, but I definitely am just barely surviving time-wise, getting the basics done.  I feel a combination of anger/frustration and bewilderment as to how the rest of the world does it.....I feel like I would love to have time to journal, work out, think about what I'm eating, etc., but I literally have no time, except to throw in emergency loads of laundry, hope that dinner gets made, and help people with homework, and then start all over again the next day.  I am facing surgery in the next 2 weeks for a tear in my hip joint - not being able to walk or move very well certainly hasn't helped the time factor....am hoping that I can be pain-free after my surgery.  Thanks for giving me a poke, Katcha - I need to wake back up!

Hugs,

 

Well, I've definitely been struggling, for reasons that are indirectly related to the faltering economy. To summarize a very long story, I moved and am now commuting a very long way, back to my old job (which I had been laid off from when our program closed... but then got reinstated when parents and administrators rallied on our behalf), while my new job works on the credentialing process. I've been getting home so exhausted that I have been eating mindlessly, and in particular, doing so while watching TV. I am feeling really frustrated with myself. And I've definitely put on weight, which is also really frustrating. 

But I guess I blame myself for this, and don't remember that I'm in a vacuum. I'm trying to be patient with myself but at the same time encourage myself to do better... it's a really difficult balancing act. One I don't think I am doing very well with at the moment. But I'm trying. Trying to remember, in particular, that this is, indeed, a difficult time and that I am doing what I can to survive. Taking good care of my patients if not myself. 

Thanks for posting.Abby

 

The quiet at this group, and on net in general, seem to me to be a reflection of the depressed economy? If a person has to choose between keeping their lives going vs. personal development, the first is going to win out. And while we are not challenged with such tough life decisions, I have to admit that I find myself in a bit of 'breath holding' at times. Such un-resolvable concern is finding its way into my eating where 'worry' slips back into auto 'care' (mindless eating). I'm hoping that just posting this will help me to re-focus back on track.

Hope everyone is hanging in not only in positive eating practices, but in their own lives too.

ehugs, Katcha

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[Guest guest]

I'm glad it had a therapeutic affect!  That's wonderful.  I think I need a little more therapy, LOL.....I think more journaling is in order for me.  Thank you for your positive post!  It was helpful.

 

Well, it's funny. I wonder if posting had a therapeutic effect. I normally journal a lot but haven't had time with the new, LONG commute. Anyway, after writing it I started thinking that i wasn't being fair to myself. instead of only counting the ways i'm NOT doing well, i decided to be fair to myself i ought to focus on all the things i AM doing right. no point in focusing on the negative! nevermind the fact that i am always more motivated by thinking positively! 

so i'm MOSTLY eating intuitively. i've been exercising. i eat mindfully most of the time. and i am going to stop thinking about the weight at all. it's a symptom of what's going on inside me, not the problem itself. 

i'm tired enough i think perhaps i'm not writing in a way that makes all that much sense, but i wanted to share how posting seems to have helped me!abby

 

I, too, am faltering, and perhaps it can also be indirectly blamed on the economy....we switched our middle son to a school in town because our tiny district here in the foothills where we live in CA was hit so very hard by the state budget cuts and we wanted a good education for our son....so I'm devoting more of my energy and time to hauling him and my other son who goes to private school on a much longer journey to school each day.  This means less time in my day over all, and I'm feeling it.  I'm happy for our decision, but I definitely am just barely surviving time-wise, getting the basics done.  I feel a combination of anger/frustration and bewilderment as to how the rest of the world does it.....I feel like I would love to have time to journal, work out, think about what I'm eating, etc., but I literally have no time, except to throw in emergency loads of laundry, hope that dinner gets made, and help people with homework, and then start all over again the next day.  I am facing surgery in the next 2 weeks for a tear in my hip joint - not being able to walk or move very well certainly hasn't helped the time factor....am hoping that I can be pain-free after my surgery.  Thanks for giving me a poke, Katcha - I need to wake back up!

Hugs,

 

Well, I've definitely been struggling, for reasons that are indirectly related to the faltering economy. To summarize a very long story, I moved and am now commuting a very long way, back to my old job (which I had been laid off from when our program closed... but then got reinstated when parents and administrators rallied on our behalf), while my new job works on the credentialing process. I've been getting home so exhausted that I have been eating mindlessly, and in particular, doing so while watching TV. I am feeling really frustrated with myself. And I've definitely put on weight, which is also really frustrating. 

But I guess I blame myself for this, and don't remember that I'm in a vacuum. I'm trying to be patient with myself but at the same time encourage myself to do better... it's a really difficult balancing act. One I don't think I am doing very well with at the moment. But I'm trying. Trying to remember, in particular, that this is, indeed, a difficult time and that I am doing what I can to survive. Taking good care of my patients if not myself. 

Thanks for posting.Abby

 

The quiet at this group, and on net in general, seem to me to be a reflection of the depressed economy? If a person has to choose between keeping their lives going vs. personal development, the first is going to win out. And while we are not challenged with such tough life decisions, I have to admit that I find myself in a bit of 'breath holding' at times. Such un-resolvable concern is finding its way into my eating where 'worry' slips back into auto 'care' (mindless eating). I'm hoping that just posting this will help me to re-focus back on track.

Hope everyone is hanging in not only in positive eating practices, but in their own lives too.

ehugs, Katcha

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