Re: Monday musings

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Lovely 'progress' report Mikki Sounds like you are doing pretty dang good

considering you are not 100% up to steam health wise. Great job not letting that

drag you 'down'!

ehugs, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> I've spent a good two weeks on the concept of being kind to myself and I

> think it's starting to sink in LOL. Last week was rough on a physical level

> (started a second, stronger round of antibiotics for a lung infection that

> I've had for a month), but " taking care of myself " in my illness translated

> (for the frsit time!) to eating what my body wants rather than what my head

> says is a treat! I now have a new definition for " indulgent " = " eating

> exactly what is most satisfying and delicious in the moment " .

>

> I also found a new workout video (though it's not really a " workout " ) called

> " Hot Body, Cool Mind " (stupid title, great content LOL). I'm not sure if

> someone here recommended it or if I just ran across it - but I've done it

> twice and it's a wonderful way to wake up and get energized for the day...

> based on yoga, tai chi, and tibetan practices but not too " new age " . I did

> the standing section this morning and started the day happy and peaceful,

> and realized that it is so NICE to do a morning routine that feels like " me

> time " to nurture myself, not " drag my sorry butt out of bed way to early and

> punish myself for eating like a pig by forcing myself through a tortuous

> aerobics video " (don't get me wrong, I like to exercise, but not first thing

> in the morning - although that's frequently the only quiet time I get for

> it).

>

> It was the first time I realized that I've used exercise (or thought of it)

> as a punishment for overeating or not being small enough. I need some more

> time to process this new thought, but it feels right!

>

> So this week I'm going to focus on nurturing ways to " indulge " myself (by

> having exactly what brings me joy, not by the usual criteria of fat or

> calorie content , and also nurturing movement - I DO want to regain some

> strength and stamina after a long spring of illness in the family and

> myself, but I am going to take care that I don't feel that what I'm doing is

> punishing or a burden. I also have my 1st counseling session tomorrow and

> have no idea what that will bring, but I'm looking forward to it. I'm

> " scheduled " , as it were, to descend into PMDD hell shortly but at the moment

> I'm feeling pretty peaceful even though I'm starting to have the physical

> symptoms - so I can't decide whether to take my Zoloft or now, right now i'm

> leaning towards waiting for the emotional kick in the nuts (or ovaries I

> suppose . who knows, with all this new emotional equilibrium maybe I

> won't need it!?

>

> Mikki

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