Feeling good about this journey...

[Guest guest]

Hello all

I just wanted to share a little bit of happiness that I had today.

This journey is really a struggle for me mentally. It's been about a week since

I recommitted to IE and the day before yesterday I was overtired and worried

that this wasn't going to work. I had been eating chocolate chip cookies/ or

cookie dough just about every day trying to allow myself whatever I wanted.

Since I also told myself I wasn't going to get on the scale, I started feeling

anxiety and felt like I was gaining and gaining with every bite...

I decided I was getting tired of the cookie dough and feeling crappy because I

was eating so much junk. Little thoughts saying 'NO MORE SUGAR' started

flooding my brain. Old diet thoughts creeping in... Yesterday I just focused

on eating more 'nourishing' foods that would help my energy level. I felt

better, but still could hear the 'NO SUGAR' voice, which really is a DIET voice!

Then this morning, I couldn't take it anymore. I woke up and had to go step on

the scale. It had been a week! I was used to getting on that thing at least

daily. And, the battery was dead... Funny Got to the Dr.'s office for my

appointment and they didn't weigh me like usual. Then sitting in the exam room

waiting for the doc, I noticed the scale... I sat there for just over 45

minutes before I hopped on it. I had not gained weight, I had not lost weight.

I'm still in the beginning stages, so I know that I shouldn't focus on weight,

but I felt relieved. I could eat like a 'normal' person and not GAIN weight???

What a concept!

So, on my way home, I stopped at a fancy chocolate shop and treated myself to a

couple dark chocolate, raspberry truffles. I savored them instead of devouring

them and they were delicious

I am so looking forward to feeling free to enjoy food everyday!

Thank you for reading,

[Guest guest]

That is wonderful! I know how scary the thought of gaining weight can be. I am

in the same boat as you. I just recommitted to IE about 3 weeks ago, and it can

be very hard mentally. I have not weighed myself since June (went on vacation

after dieting, ate a bunch of food, haven't stepped on the scale since), but I

do notice things like my pants feeling just a bit tighter, etc. Nothing too

major though. I am pretty confident that my weight will level out, and I might

even lose a little bit of weight after awhile. I have been eating a lot of

previously restricted food lately, but there is a lot of healthy stuff I really

do love. Once the newness of being able to eat whatever wears off and I truely

trust myself, I think I'll start craving the healthier stuff more. I do have one

thing going for me though. I LOVE exercising. I liked it before, but now that

I've disassociated it from weight loss, it is SOOO much better! I still have

feelings of guilt though if I miss a day or something, which I need to get rid

of!

Sorry for all the rambling! That is awesome that you've been able to maintain

your weight while eating like a normal person. Isn't IE great?

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> Hello all

>

> I just wanted to share a little bit of happiness that I had today.

>

> This journey is really a struggle for me mentally. It's been about a week

since I recommitted to IE and the day before yesterday I was overtired and

worried that this wasn't going to work. I had been eating chocolate chip

cookies/ or cookie dough just about every day trying to allow myself whatever I

wanted. Since I also told myself I wasn't going to get on the scale, I started

feeling anxiety and felt like I was gaining and gaining with every bite...

>

> I decided I was getting tired of the cookie dough and feeling crappy because I

was eating so much junk. Little thoughts saying 'NO MORE SUGAR' started

flooding my brain. Old diet thoughts creeping in... Yesterday I just focused

on eating more 'nourishing' foods that would help my energy level. I felt

better, but still could hear the 'NO SUGAR' voice, which really is a DIET voice!

>

> Then this morning, I couldn't take it anymore. I woke up and had to go step

on the scale. It had been a week! I was used to getting on that thing at least

daily. And, the battery was dead... Funny Got to the Dr.'s office for my

appointment and they didn't weigh me like usual. Then sitting in the exam room

waiting for the doc, I noticed the scale... I sat there for just over 45

minutes before I hopped on it. I had not gained weight, I had not lost weight.

I'm still in the beginning stages, so I know that I shouldn't focus on weight,

but I felt relieved. I could eat like a 'normal' person and not GAIN weight???

What a concept!

>

> So, on my way home, I stopped at a fancy chocolate shop and treated myself to

a couple dark chocolate, raspberry truffles. I savored them instead of

devouring them and they were delicious

>

> I am so looking forward to feeling free to enjoy food everyday!

>

> Thank you for reading,

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Maybe the caffeine in the chocolate is actually helping?? lol

KT

>

> Hello all

>

> I just wanted to share a little bit of happiness that I had today.

>

> This journey is really a struggle for me mentally. It's been about a week

since I recommitted to IE and the day before yesterday I was overtired and

worried that this wasn't going to work. I had been eating chocolate chip

cookies/ or cookie dough just about every day trying to allow myself whatever I

wanted. Since I also told myself I wasn't going to get on the scale, I started

feeling anxiety and felt like I was gaining and gaining with every bite...

>

> I decided I was getting tired of the cookie dough and feeling crappy because I

was eating so much junk. Little thoughts saying 'NO MORE SUGAR' started

flooding my brain. Old diet thoughts creeping in... Yesterday I just focused

on eating more 'nourishing' foods that would help my energy level. I felt

better, but still could hear the 'NO SUGAR' voice, which really is a DIET voice!

>

> Then this morning, I couldn't take it anymore. I woke up and had to go step

on the scale. It had been a week! I was used to getting on that thing at least

daily. And, the battery was dead... Funny Got to the Dr.'s office for my

appointment and they didn't weigh me like usual. Then sitting in the exam room

waiting for the doc, I noticed the scale... I sat there for just over 45

minutes before I hopped on it. I had not gained weight, I had not lost weight.

I'm still in the beginning stages, so I know that I shouldn't focus on weight,

but I felt relieved. I could eat like a 'normal' person and not GAIN weight???

What a concept!

>

> So, on my way home, I stopped at a fancy chocolate shop and treated myself to

a couple dark chocolate, raspberry truffles. I savored them instead of

devouring them and they were delicious

>

> I am so looking forward to feeling free to enjoy food everyday!

>

> Thank you for reading,

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

You bet! There are positives in everything really :)

Katcha

>

> Maybe the caffeine in the chocolate is actually helping?? lol

>

> KT

>

[Guest guest]

Eltihay,

Thanks for your response I know what you mean about pants feeling a bit

tighter. It's a little (ok, a lot) scary, but I'm also hoping things will level

out like you mentioned. I've managed to stay off the scale since last week and

I'm going to continue trying to stay off it. I'm concerned if I get on the

scale and the number is higher, I'll start having the diet thoughts.

Like you, I also love to exercise I'm a bike nerd For me, every time I'm

mentally struggling with this process, it always helps to calm me down to get

moving. And it reminds me that although my body is not perfect, it's strong and

healthy and that's what's important!

Good luck

Jen

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> > Hello all

> >

> > I just wanted to share a little bit of happiness that I had today.

> >

> > This journey is really a struggle for me mentally. It's been about a week

since I recommitted to IE and the day before yesterday I was overtired and

worried that this wasn't going to work. I had been eating chocolate chip

cookies/ or cookie dough just about every day trying to allow myself whatever I

wanted. Since I also told myself I wasn't going to get on the scale, I started

feeling anxiety and felt like I was gaining and gaining with every bite...

> >

> > I decided I was getting tired of the cookie dough and feeling crappy because

I was eating so much junk. Little thoughts saying 'NO MORE SUGAR' started

flooding my brain. Old diet thoughts creeping in... Yesterday I just focused

on eating more 'nourishing' foods that would help my energy level. I felt

better, but still could hear the 'NO SUGAR' voice, which really is a DIET voice!

> >

> > Then this morning, I couldn't take it anymore. I woke up and had to go step

on the scale. It had been a week! I was used to getting on that thing at least

daily. And, the battery was dead... Funny Got to the Dr.'s office for my

appointment and they didn't weigh me like usual. Then sitting in the exam room

waiting for the doc, I noticed the scale... I sat there for just over 45

minutes before I hopped on it. I had not gained weight, I had not lost weight.

I'm still in the beginning stages, so I know that I shouldn't focus on weight,

but I felt relieved. I could eat like a 'normal' person and not GAIN weight???

What a concept!

> >

> > So, on my way home, I stopped at a fancy chocolate shop and treated myself

to a couple dark chocolate, raspberry truffles. I savored them instead of

devouring them and they were delicious

> >

> > I am so looking forward to feeling free to enjoy food everyday!

> >

> > Thank you for reading,

> >

> >

> >

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