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ruthann,

i am sorry you had such an experience. but if you think positively about it you won't be having one for another year, and you will be thinner.

warm hugs ,

maura

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Ruthann,

Although I

am 42 I have never had a mammogram. It is one of those things that I have

always put off because of my size. I know this is really stupid on my part, to

risk my health because of the way I look. I am sorry this was such a horrible

experience for you. Be proud of the fact that you put your health first. I have

my yearly checkup with my PCP next month. I am going to schedule a mammogram

after this appointment.. Hopefully I will loose some of this chest! Just think

how different this test will be next year.

Joni – 11/27/00

Dr. Thayer

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From: Ruthann leBlanc

Sent: Thursday, January 18, 2001

7:25 AM

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Subject:

Depressing

Hi

I went

yesterday for a mammogram, when she started to do it I was so mortified with

such big breast it was just so embarrassing the way she fixed my breast to take

the pictures I felt like Bread dough that had raised, I had to bite my lip not

to cry, I wanted to just tell her to stop and run out of there, when I did get

out of there I did cry, I wanted to call the doctor and beg them to let me have

my operation sooner, how awful I felt to have to have someone see how gross I

look.

Have A

Thin day

Ruthann

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I wish I had waited till next year!!! But thank you, for your support the one thing it did do was make me 100 % sure the operation is best, than go through this.

Have A Thin dayRuthann

RE: Depressing

Ruthann,

Although I am 42 I have never had a mammogram. It is one of those things that I have always put off because of my size. I know this is really stupid on my part, to risk my health because of the way I look. I am sorry this was such a horrible experience for you. Be proud of the fact that you put your health first. I have my yearly checkup with my PCP next month. I am going to schedule a mammogram after this appointment.. Hopefully I will loose some of this chest! Just think how different this test will be next year.

Joni – 11/27/00 Dr. Thayer

-----Original Message-----From: Ruthann leBlanc Sent: Thursday, January 18, 2001 7:25 AMTo: OSSG-NewEnglandegroupsSubject: Depressing

Hi

I went yesterday for a mammogram, when she started to do it I was so mortified with such big breast it was just so embarrassing the way she fixed my breast to take the pictures I felt like Bread dough that had raised, I had to bite my lip not to cry, I wanted to just tell her to stop and run out of there, when I did get out of there I did cry, I wanted to call the doctor and beg them to let me have my operation sooner, how awful I felt to have to have someone see how gross I look.

Have A Thin dayRuthann

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Dear Ruthann

When I had mine my breast was huge too. I was imbarrased also ..BUT was

so damn glad to find nothing wrong with it I got over it. My next one

will be with squishy ones they will be kneeding like sillyputty.

In time it will get better

Beth Peluso

3-21-2000 Dr Reines

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To all mamogram interested ppl.

Newton Wellesley Hospital is booking mamograms at about 6 to 7 months

from the phone call. So dont wait.... I called in December and got

scheduled for July!!

Beth Peluso

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Hi ,

That is even worse than my experience, Oh yes I forgot to mention also that my gown no where near fit!

It is so sad we have to go through this, they could at least provide us with gowns that fit.

thank you for your story and support it helps, thank God for all you guys.

Have A Thin dayRuthann

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Ruthann, When I read your post it really hit home for me. I had my firstmammogram about a year an a half ago. (before my RNY) My breast sizewas a whopping 50 DDD and I was falling out of it. When the woman saw mybreasts it was obvious she didn't know what to do with them. She had touse two slides for one picture. I was fighting back the tears. Standingthere with my breast in that machine and coming out all sides of it, thejohny of course didn't fit so I was standing there just about naked. That wasn't the worst of it. When she was done and had to have someonecome in and look at it they obviously didn't think I was still therebecause when the person came around the corner to see the x-ray, theylet out this huge gasp and a muffled laugh. I'm still standing there. the woman told me not to get dressed yet because of the size of mybreasts she wasn't sure she got good pictures. The whole experiencebrings tears back to my eyes. It was terribly humiliating. I couldn'tget out of there quick enough. I sat in the parking lot and cryed. Thenof course I went and binged. Talk about making matters worse but that'swhat I did. Anyway, I now am a 36D. Ya, they look pretty sad but hey I've lost 135 pounds. I am due for another mammogram, and I'm looking forward to it because Ihave spoken with my Doctor about what had happened that day and while I'mtelling her in tears, she wanted to find out who it was, and she herselfwould come with me so I could get a private mammogram. (I said NO.) I will have a mammogram like everyone else, and I'll find out who itwas (myself) and I will make the complaint (myself). I just love myDoctor for wanting to help me with this, But this is something I need todo for myself. Sorry for rambling but this really hit home.Pam On Thu, 18 Jan 2001 07:24:40 -0500 "Ruthann leBlanc" writes:> > Hi> I went yesterday for a mammogram, when she started to do it I was so > mortified with such big breast it was just so embarrassing the way > she fixed my breast to take the pictures I felt like Bread dough > that had raised, I had to bite my lip not to cry, I wanted to just > tell her to stop and run out of there, when I did get out of there I > did cry, I wanted to call the doctor and beg them to let me have my > operation sooner, how awful I felt to have to have someone see how > gross I look.> Have A Thin day> Ruthann________________________________________________________________GET INTERNET ACCESS FROM JUNO!Juno offers FREE or PREMIUM Internet access for less!Join Juno today! For your FREE software, visit:http://dl.www.juno.com/get/tagj.

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Wow, all these mammagram posts are bringing tears to my eyes!

So proud of you, Pam, for telling your doc about the experience back then. I don't think I could have...not then, still feeling so shameful about the way I looked. And not thinking I was necessarily deserving of any better treatment, probably. Wouldn't it be totally awesome to go back and recognize the same person working so you could get her name?

I'm so sorry for your experience Ruthann. There is no excuse for the way the medical profession has a habit of treating the obese. I have my own horror stories, some happened decades ago & I still catch myself getting upset over them. But, I tell you what, one of the best side effects of this surgery is a new-found (for me) feeling of self-worth and confidence. Not because I've lost a lot of weight, but because I've learned how to take care of myself physically...and that resonates with how I treat myself emotionally. I promise you will be surprised at the changes you (and others!) will see in yourself.

Lori

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Ruthann,

When I read your post it really hit home for me. I had my first

mammogram about a year an a half ago. (before my RNY) My breast size

was a whopping 50 DDD and I was falling out of it. When the woman saw my

breasts it was obvious she didn't know what to do with them. She had to

use two slides for one picture. I was fighting back the tears. Standing

there with my breast in that machine and coming out all sides of it, the

johny of course didn't fit so I was standing there just about naked.

That wasn't the worst of it. When she was done and had to have someone

come in and look at it they obviously didn't think I was still there

because when the person came around the corner to see the x-ray, they

let out this huge gasp and a muffled laugh. I'm still standing there.

the woman told me not to get dressed yet because of the size of my

breasts she wasn't sure she got good pictures. The whole experience

brings tears back to my eyes. It was terribly humiliating. I couldn't

get out of there quick enough. I sat in the parking lot and cryed. Then

of course I went and binged. Talk about making matters worse but that's

what I did. Anyway,

I now am a 36D. Ya, they look pretty sad but hey I've lost 135 pounds.

I am due for another mammogram, and I'm looking forward to it because I

have spoken with my Doctor about what had happened that day and while I'm

telling her in tears, she wanted to find out who it was, and she herself

would come with me so I could get a private mammogram. (I said NO.)

I will have a mammogram like everyone else, and I'll find out who it

was (myself) and I will make the complaint (myself). I just love my

Doctor for wanting to help me with this, But this is something I need to

do for myself. Sorry for rambling but this really hit home.

Pam

On Thu, 18 Jan 2001 07:24:40 -0500 " Ruthann leBlanc "

writes:

>

> Hi

> I went yesterday for a mammogram, when she started to do it I was so

> mortified with such big breast it was just so embarrassing the way

> she fixed my breast to take the pictures I felt like Bread dough

> that had raised, I had to bite my lip not to cry, I wanted to just

> tell her to stop and run out of there, when I did get out of there I

> did cry, I wanted to call the doctor and beg them to let me have my

> operation sooner, how awful I felt to have to have someone see how

> gross I look.

> Have A Thin day

> Ruthann

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That is the funniest thing I have heard all day about the painting funny

faces. Do you think that some washable marker writing will show up on

the X-ray. I hated my mammogram and would love to do that.

I have never told anyone here about what I did to Dr Rienes for my

surgery. I have some relatives with Cystic Fibrosis and am part of a

pretty large support group. Well anyway they have had all kinds of

surgeries and one almost had the wrong part operated on once, so they now

write on themselves little notes to their docs. They told me I HAD to

put something on my belly for Dr Reines. I left it up to them to tell me

what to write. So these wacky kids told me that my note would be this

" WAIT..... JUST ONE MORE TWINKIE! " and it was also done as a dare to

me. Well who can refuse a dare. Well the am of my surgery after my

shower I took a crayola blue marker and wrote exactly what they told me

to. hahahaha

The nurse at pre op came in to wash my belly with betadine and cracked up

and said she wasn't gonna touch it and showed another nurse. So off I

went and actually forgot about it.

When I woke up Dr Reines asked me my name and I told him and asked if he

saw my note.

He said " oh very funny " and I'm thinking " oops I did a no-no "

Then one of the docs on the team came over to me and said , forget what

he just said, he first wanted to fire someone for writing that and the

nurse said it was me. He then laughed for a full 5 minutes, and after

surgery he went in to tell the other docs what I did.

As a funny side note. That happened to be just days before the Wonder

truck drivers went on strike and refused to deliver Twinkies to stores.

Well that's my funny story. If you have to be big you can at least have

fun with it, right?

Beth Peluso

3-21-2000 Dr Reines

On Thu, 18 Jan 2001 17:02:48 -0500 Priscilla King

writes:

> Hi Ruthann; Its sooo depressing, the medical professions to us

> large size

> people. A mammogram is hard enough as it is but sensitivity from

> the

> squesser should be part of their job discription. I too was

> mortified to

> have my huge pillows squished and pinched and done again because

> they were

> not sure they got it all. Egad! We are as human as the " skinny

> minnies

> with peas instead of cantelopes. I'm sending you a hug:) a gentle

> hug. I'm

> supposed to have a mammagram this spring and they are going to get

> winzined

> sacs. I suppose the whole gang will have to come in and see the new

> apperiations. Oh well there's less of me so it will pinch more and

> be flat

> as a pancake. Maybe I'll paint them with silly faces. Have a great

> day..

> Sometimes tears bring relief. Take care Priscilla

>

> > From: valiantduffy@...

> > Reply-To: OSSG-NewEnglandegroups

> > Date: Thu, 18 Jan 2001 08:49:33 -0800

> > To: OSSG-NewEnglandegroups

> > Subject: Re: Depressing

> >

> > Ruthann,

> > When I read your post it really hit home for me. I had my first

> > mammogram about a year an a half ago. (before my RNY) My breast

> size

> > was a whopping 50 DDD and I was falling out of it. When the woman

> saw my

> > breasts it was obvious she didn't know what to do with them. She

> had to

> > use two slides for one picture. I was fighting back the tears.

> Standing

> > there with my breast in that machine and coming out all sides of

> it, the

> > johny of course didn't fit so I was standing there just about

> naked.

> > That wasn't the worst of it. When she was done and had to have

> someone

> > come in and look at it they obviously didn't think I was still

> there

> > because when the person came around the corner to see the x-ray,

> they

> > let out this huge gasp and a muffled laugh. I'm still standing

> there.

> > the woman told me not to get dressed yet because of the size of my

> > breasts she wasn't sure she got good pictures. The whole

> experience

> > brings tears back to my eyes. It was terribly humiliating. I

> couldn't

> > get out of there quick enough. I sat in the parking lot and

> cryed. Then

> > of course I went and binged. Talk about making matters worse but

> that's

> > what I did. Anyway,

> > I now am a 36D. Ya, they look pretty sad but hey I've lost 135

> pounds.

> > I am due for another mammogram, and I'm looking forward to it

> because I

> > have spoken with my Doctor about what had happened that day and

> while I'm

> > telling her in tears, she wanted to find out who it was, and she

> herself

> > would come with me so I could get a private mammogram. (I said

> NO.)

> > I will have a mammogram like everyone else, and I'll find out who

> it

> > was (myself) and I will make the complaint (myself). I just love

> my

> > Doctor for wanting to help me with this, But this is something I

> need to

> > do for myself. Sorry for rambling but this really hit home.

> > Pam

> >

> > On Thu, 18 Jan 2001 07:24:40 -0500 " Ruthann leBlanc "

>

> > writes:

> >>

> >> Hi

> >> I went yesterday for a mammogram, when she started to do it I was

> so

> >> mortified with such big breast it was just so embarrassing the

> way

> >> she fixed my breast to take the pictures I felt like Bread dough

> >> that had raised, I had to bite my lip not to cry, I wanted to

> just

> >> tell her to stop and run out of there, when I did get out of

> there I

> >> did cry, I wanted to call the doctor and beg them to let me have

> my

> >> operation sooner, how awful I felt to have to have someone see

> how

> >> gross I look.

> >> Have A Thin day

> >> Ruthann

> >

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Beth

That is to funny, I love it , They must still be talking about you.

Have A Thin dayRuthann

Re: Depressing> > > > Ruthann,> > When I read your post it really hit home for me. I had my first> > mammogram about a year an a half ago. (before my RNY) My breast > size> > was a whopping 50 DDD and I was falling out of it. When the woman > saw my> > breasts it was obvious she didn't know what to do with them. She > had to> > use two slides for one picture. I was fighting back the tears. > Standing> > there with my breast in that machine and coming out all sides of > it, the> > johny of course didn't fit so I was standing there just about > naked.> > That wasn't the worst of it. When she was done and had to have > someone> > come in and look at it they obviously didn't think I was still > there> > because when the person came around the corner to see the x-ray, > they> > let out this huge gasp and a muffled laugh. I'm still standing > there.> > the woman told me not to get dressed yet because of the size of my> > breasts she wasn't sure she got good pictures. The whole > experience> > brings tears back to my eyes. It was terribly humiliating. I > couldn't> > get out of there quick enough. I sat in the parking lot and > cryed. Then> > of course I went and binged. Talk about making matters worse but > that's> > what I did. Anyway,> > I now am a 36D. Ya, they look pretty sad but hey I've lost 135 > pounds.> > I am due for another mammogram, and I'm looking forward to it > because I> > have spoken with my Doctor about what had happened that day and > while I'm> > telling her in tears, she wanted to find out who it was, and she > herself> > would come with me so I could get a private mammogram. (I said > NO.)> > I will have a mammogram like everyone else, and I'll find out who > it> > was (myself) and I will make the complaint (myself). I just love > my> > Doctor for wanting to help me with this, But this is something I > need to> > do for myself. Sorry for rambling but this really hit home.> > Pam > > > > On Thu, 18 Jan 2001 07:24:40 -0500 "Ruthann leBlanc" > > > writes:> >> > >> Hi> >> I went yesterday for a mammogram, when she started to do it I was > so> >> mortified with such big breast it was just so embarrassing the > way> >> she fixed my breast to take the pictures I felt like Bread dough> >> that had raised, I had to bite my lip not to cry, I wanted to > just> >> tell her to stop and run out of there, when I did get out of > there I> >> did cry, I wanted to call the doctor and beg them to let me have > my> >> operation sooner, how awful I felt to have to have someone see > how> >> gross I look.> >> Have A Thin day> >> Ruthann> > > > ________________________________________________________________> > GET INTERNET ACCESS FROM JUNO!> > Juno offers FREE or PREMIUM Internet access for less!> > Join Juno today! For your FREE software, visit:> > http://dl.www.juno.com/get/tagj.> > > >

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Beth,

I am laughing so hard!!!!!! That is the funniest thing. I only wish I

could of thought of it.

You are to much.

Pam

On Thu, 18 Jan 2001 18:49:11 -0500 Beth Peluso

writes:

> That is the funniest thing I have heard all day about the painting

> funny

> faces. Do you think that some washable marker writing will show up

> on

> the X-ray. I hated my mammogram and would love to do that.

> I have never told anyone here about what I did to Dr Rienes for my

> surgery. I have some relatives with Cystic Fibrosis and am part of

> a

> pretty large support group. Well anyway they have had all kinds of

> surgeries and one almost had the wrong part operated on once, so

> they now

> write on themselves little notes to their docs. They told me I HAD

> to

> put something on my belly for Dr Reines. I left it up to them to

> tell me

> what to write. So these wacky kids told me that my note would be

> this

> " WAIT..... JUST ONE MORE TWINKIE! " and it was also done as a dare

> to

> me. Well who can refuse a dare. Well the am of my surgery after my

> shower I took a crayola blue marker and wrote exactly what they told

> me

> to. hahahaha

> The nurse at pre op came in to wash my belly with betadine and

> cracked up

> and said she wasn't gonna touch it and showed another nurse. So off

> I

> went and actually forgot about it.

> When I woke up Dr Reines asked me my name and I told him and asked

> if he

> saw my note.

> He said " oh very funny " and I'm thinking " oops I did a no-no "

> Then one of the docs on the team came over to me and said , forget

> what

> he just said, he first wanted to fire someone for writing that and

> the

> nurse said it was me. He then laughed for a full 5 minutes, and

> after

> surgery he went in to tell the other docs what I did.

> As a funny side note. That happened to be just days before the

> Wonder

> truck drivers went on strike and refused to deliver Twinkies to

> stores.

> Well that's my funny story. If you have to be big you can at least

> have

> fun with it, right?

> Beth Peluso

> 3-21-2000 Dr Reines

>

>

>

>

> On Thu, 18 Jan 2001 17:02:48 -0500 Priscilla King

> writes:

> > Hi Ruthann; Its sooo depressing, the medical professions to us

> > large size

> > people. A mammogram is hard enough as it is but sensitivity from

> > the

> > squesser should be part of their job discription. I too was

> > mortified to

> > have my huge pillows squished and pinched and done again because

> > they were

> > not sure they got it all. Egad! We are as human as the " skinny

> > minnies

> > with peas instead of cantelopes. I'm sending you a hug:) a gentle

>

> > hug. I'm

> > supposed to have a mammagram this spring and they are going to get

>

> > winzined

> > sacs. I suppose the whole gang will have to come in and see the

> new

> > apperiations. Oh well there's less of me so it will pinch more

> and

> > be flat

> > as a pancake. Maybe I'll paint them with silly faces. Have a

> great

> > day..

> > Sometimes tears bring relief. Take care Priscilla

> >

> > > From: valiantduffy@...

> > > Reply-To: OSSG-NewEnglandegroups

> > > Date: Thu, 18 Jan 2001 08:49:33 -0800

> > > To: OSSG-NewEnglandegroups

> > > Subject: Re: Depressing

> > >

> > > Ruthann,

> > > When I read your post it really hit home for me. I had my first

> > > mammogram about a year an a half ago. (before my RNY) My

> breast

> > size

> > > was a whopping 50 DDD and I was falling out of it. When the

> woman

> > saw my

> > > breasts it was obvious she didn't know what to do with them.

> She

> > had to

> > > use two slides for one picture. I was fighting back the tears.

>

> > Standing

> > > there with my breast in that machine and coming out all sides of

>

> > it, the

> > > johny of course didn't fit so I was standing there just about

> > naked.

> > > That wasn't the worst of it. When she was done and had to have

> > someone

> > > come in and look at it they obviously didn't think I was still

> > there

> > > because when the person came around the corner to see the x-ray,

>

> > they

> > > let out this huge gasp and a muffled laugh. I'm still standing

> > there.

> > > the woman told me not to get dressed yet because of the size of

> my

> > > breasts she wasn't sure she got good pictures. The whole

> > experience

> > > brings tears back to my eyes. It was terribly humiliating. I

> > couldn't

> > > get out of there quick enough. I sat in the parking lot and

> > cryed. Then

> > > of course I went and binged. Talk about making matters worse

> but

> > that's

> > > what I did. Anyway,

> > > I now am a 36D. Ya, they look pretty sad but hey I've lost 135

> > pounds.

> > > I am due for another mammogram, and I'm looking forward to it

> > because I

> > > have spoken with my Doctor about what had happened that day and

> > while I'm

> > > telling her in tears, she wanted to find out who it was, and she

>

> > herself

> > > would come with me so I could get a private mammogram. (I said

>

> > NO.)

> > > I will have a mammogram like everyone else, and I'll find out

> who

> > it

> > > was (myself) and I will make the complaint (myself). I just

> love

> > my

> > > Doctor for wanting to help me with this, But this is something I

>

> > need to

> > > do for myself. Sorry for rambling but this really hit home.

> > > Pam

> > >

> > > On Thu, 18 Jan 2001 07:24:40 -0500 " Ruthann leBlanc "

> >

> > > writes:

> > >>

> > >> Hi

> > >> I went yesterday for a mammogram, when she started to do it I

> was

> > so

> > >> mortified with such big breast it was just so embarrassing the

> > way

> > >> she fixed my breast to take the pictures I felt like Bread

> dough

> > >> that had raised, I had to bite my lip not to cry, I wanted to

> > just

> > >> tell her to stop and run out of there, when I did get out of

> > there I

> > >> did cry, I wanted to call the doctor and beg them to let me

> have

> > my

> > >> operation sooner, how awful I felt to have to have someone see

> > how

> > >> gross I look.

> > >> Have A Thin day

> > >> Ruthann

> > >

> > > ________________________________________________________________

> > > GET INTERNET ACCESS FROM JUNO!

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In a message dated 1/18/01 7:23:01 PM Eastern Standard Time,

BethPeluso@... writes:

> JUST ONE MORE TWINKIE! " and it was also done as a dare to

> me. Well who can refuse a dare. Well the a

Beth you are card. Does DR Reines ever say anything to you on visits.

NORMA

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I said " ok, now that I'm not on drugs, What did you think of my note?

and I had to refresh his memory. He said, you people are always

surprising me with something.

And that was all he said.

I guess you have to be asleep for Dr Reins to laugh at you. :)

Beth

On Fri, 19 Jan 2001 11:19:24 EST ppbird100@... writes:

> In a message dated 1/18/01 7:23:01 PM Eastern Standard Time,

> BethPeluso@... writes:

>

> > JUST ONE MORE TWINKIE! " and it was also done as a dare to

> > me. Well who can refuse a dare. Well the a

>

> Beth you are card. Does DR Reines ever say anything to you on

> visits.

> NORMA

>

>

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