a small victory!

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so yesterday i was feeling kind of bad...i had PMS and had been fatigued for

several days...and was being down on myself for not getting stuff at done at

work.

i was thinking about what to eat for lunch and i thought " well, why not taco

bell? i'm allowed to eat anything right? "

but then i analyzed it more. i haven't eaten at taco bell in years but a couple

weeks ago when i started IE, i allowed myself to eat there. it was ok.

so i asked myself i REALLY wanted to eat taco bell. it turned out that i was

thinking that i had already " messed up " by having a small frappucino the day

before that i might as well just throw the bag in and eat that taco bell. i was

thinking of punishing myself with food i know is not the healthiest thing to

eat!

if it wasn't for IE or for some of the comments i've seen on this forum, i would

never have realized what i was doing. i had no idea i was a binge eater! and

that's exactly what would have happened. i would have gone and ordered too much

food, ate it all, and then felt bad and like i had no " willpower " .

i ended up having a sandwich at a place next door and enjoying it. i didn't even

eat the whole thing - i just stopped when i had had enough. i felt much better

about what i ate and WHY i ate it.

it's such a strange gray area to be in - it's ok to give myself permisssion to

eat anything, but making healthy choices doesn't mean i'm " dieting " .