Re: 'Where' I'm at . . .

[Guest guest]

I've had some worries about jinxing myself as well! Last week, I experienced the

first prolonged period of eating only to respond to my hunger. IE has helped me

develop a habit of responding to my hunger and I had continued to experience

episodes of using food to respond to my emotional needs or to numb out feelings

of discomfort in my body.

I went for 5 straight days last week of being able to tolerate my present

experience without using food to take the edge off. It was freaking amazing and

felt sooooo weird at the same time! I also started burping at a point in my

meals too during that time. I think it's a sign of body satisfaction for

me...like a sign that my body has had enough to satisfy. So, I was noticing the

burp and feeling/sensing into whether I had enough...I would eat a couple of

more bites and be done. This whole new burping experience reminded me about the

fact that I was around an infant last month and how helping her burp was a

natural part of the eating process.

I was afraid that that time would end...and it did. I found myself using food in

the past few days. However, I had a glimpse of what it feels like in my body and

life to be truly free...taking care of myself and standing on my own for a

longer duration. I know that these first prolonged experiences of staying with

myself without the aid of food can turn into my dominant experience of my eating

life. Food and eating has been one of the great mirrors in my life...reflecting

where I am in my body and in my experience and probably always will be to some

degree. The difference will be, as the IE book suggests, that I will use

thoughts of food, when I'm not hungry, as signals that I need to care for myself

or pay attention to myself and my life in the moment.

Latoya

Practicing IE since January '08

Its a marvelous realization and I'm trying not to make too big a deal out of it

for fear of jinxing myself (knock on wood and all that ;-)

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> Katcha

> IEing since March 2007

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[Guest guest]

I eat what I want and eat until I'm full. Today I had to fast most of the

day for medical tests. When we left the hospital we went to Pizza Hut. My

husband, Brent's, favorite place. I ordered spaghetti. It was very good,

but I didn't feel compelled to eat the whole bowl. I brought some of it

home.

I'm no longer hiding food or drinks. I like me. I am worthy of eating good

tasting food.

I'm not stress eating as much. I figure this will be off and on for the

rest of my life. But, I know longer I fee out of control.

Deborah Ledgerwood

For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be

compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. Romans 8 " 18

'Where' I'm at . . .

Its been a bit quieter here of late. Thought I'd get the ball rolling again

with sparking up a topic.

'Where' I am at this moment -

Myself, I'm finding that I'm not focused on eating as I had been in the

past. Eating had been the 'challenge' (aka enemy) and I tiptoed between

'good' and 'bad' foods/times/feelings etc. etc. etc. Of late I have been

more able to just respond to eating for a normal requirement of my life. At

this time I am not as triggered by 'seductive' foods (oh poor dear chocolate

must feel sooooo neglected - lol!!) and more worried about external dictates

about eating than simply eating when I need fuel. Its a marvelous

realization and I'm trying not to make too big a deal out of it for fear of

jinxing myself (knock on wood and all that ;-)

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

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