Guest guest Posted March 21, 2009 Report Share Posted March 21, 2009 >> thanks for the vent K. and inspiration. >> A great way to start my day! Judy >> >> Lately I have been thinking what would it feel like to not let myself >> talk this way... And fear comes up. I am afraid that if I let myself >> feel beautiful, inside and out, that someone will come along and >> knock me down. I will be going through life feeling great about how I >> look and someone will come along and say " Hey, Missy you aren't that >> great looking. You better tone your confidence down a bit " . >> >> I have this fear because this has happened to me before. Several >> years ago when I was (unintentionally) practicing I.E. I gained a lot >> of weight while legalizing taboo foods and also recovering from >> disordered eating. I felt AMAZING, inside and out. I was gaining >> weight but I had no idea. I actually didn't even give it a thought, I >> just felt so good. But then I had some important people in my life >> take me aside and say they were concerned about my weight gain. They >> meant well but it hurt so much. I felt betrayed and robbed of my new >> found confidence. >> >> Since then my " recovery " has been side - tracked. Since that time I >> have spent years on diets trying to lose weight, trying to be the >> weight these people want me to be. >> >> But I just can't do this anymore. I look good! I am hot! We are all >> hot! I am NOT going to let other people, whoever they are, let their >> negative energy seep into me. I can't give other people power to >> dictate how I live mine. As long as I am happy and healthy with my >> life who cares what my weight is! >> >> Okay, vent over. : ) >> >> - K >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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