Peanut Butter Addict Followup

[Guest guest]

I just wanted to thank everyone for your supportive, empathetic, compassionate

words last week after my post on peanut butter addiction. All of your thoughts

have resonated with me tremendously. Particularly the thought that peanut butter

reminds one of growing up, childhood, and feeling protected. I think this might

be where it stems from with my situation. When I get home after a long day of

work/school, I just want some solace and comfort--a getaway of sorts from my

emotions and feelings. When I was a kid, I did this as well, comforting myself

with sweets. But with peanut butter, it is like, for a moment, all the worries

just go away and I can be a kid again and just say " scr%w it! " to the world and

to myself. it's almost like i'm trying to tell myself that it is okay to eat

this stuff when i want it, however it is the after-effects, the cognitive

irrational thoughts, the self-criticism and destructive self-bashing that causes

the problems.

i know i must legalize peanut butter, and everything else. the truth is, i have

restricted myself from not eating anything with sugar (except fruit), and by

eating peanut butter, i have convinced myself that i am eating protein and fat

(and also getting away with being " naughty " at the same time). it's silly, i

know.

the point is, i have a long way to go on this IE journey as you can tell. what

is the name of the book you all are reading? i've just started this, and i need

to educate myself as much as possible. thank you again for all of your insight

and support. You all are wonderful!