A little lesson (hopefully) learned.

March 29, 2009

So this morning my daughter woke up early so I wasn't really hungry when I first

woke up. However, I got so wrapped up in taking care of her and

cleaning/organizing the kitchen that I wound up getting over hungry. I really

wanted pop tarts, but I opted for cereal instead because I figured I could eat a

bowl of cereal for less calories, yet I convinced myself the real reason why I

was eating the cereal was because it would fill me up more. BAD idea! I wound

up eating TWO bowls of cereal AND the pop tarts! I actually don't feel over

full, and I am perfectly satisfied right now, I just feel a little sick and

shakey though due to all the sugar!

To make matters worse, I dug through my fiance's closet to find the scale that

he does a really bad job at hiding from me to weigh myself. It was really

stupid because I have been starting to exercise recently (FINALLY! I love

exercising and my daughter finally lets me do a little here and there!) so my

muscles may be retaining water since I always gain a bit when I start

exercising, plus I drank a lot of wine last night which makes me retain water as

well. More water retention due to being on my period and of course I'm going to

weigh more because I just ate! But of course, I see that number that is oh so

inaccurate and still get bummed out.

I am not feeling TOO bad about all this because I have had maybe 3 great days in

a row and know that this is all a learning game and I WILL get there. This is

my first time allowing myself pop tarts in forever so it's one of those " new "

alluring foods and I will get better with them in a few days.

One day I will learn that regardless of the calorie count or how full I THINK it

will make me, I need to eat what I truly want, no excuses. And I really need to

stay away from that stupid scale!!!

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