Guest guest Posted April 13, 2009 Report Share Posted April 13, 2009 Weighing myself always triggered eating for me. I've read that it can be due to disappointment (weight gain), self congratulations (weight loss) and even self sabotage (weight loss panic!). I just don't weigh myself any more because 1) it does trigger me, 2) the # is NOT 'accurate' - water and other factors play into it 3) I don't believe I 'am' a number! 4) my clothes are as good if not a better 'measurement' for me. Are you mad because you are unhappy with yourself or because you feel you have 'failed' to meet someone else's idea of what you 'should' weigh? Are you going to live unhappy until the 'magic moment' that you weight what the world would like to tell you you should? To me that is more reason to be angry than what a thing like a scale has to tell you. You really deserve to be happy about how you are not seduced by Easter candy!! That is progress and something to be proud of too. Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > boy am I aggravated today. i went to bed thinking about how happy I was to be free of easter candy, and of course weighed myself and of course i was heavier than ever. then I was so mad, and I ate everything in sight, well past the point when i was full. I haven't eaten like this in a while. I don't even know why because I had the thought " I am eating because I am mad which is not going to help in any way " but I did anyway. > > I feel so sick and angry at the moment. > > thea > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 14, 2009 Report Share Posted April 14, 2009 yeah, i really should just stop with the weighing. i should throw out the scale. but i feel addicted to it. and like i can't trust my own perceptions of my body. it's often happened that my clothes feel slightly looser one day and then i'll weigh myself and if anything I weigh more, so I feel like i NEED to weigh myself. why AM i mad? i've been sitting here thinking about it. because i feel like all this effort in thinking about my eating is getting me nowhere (not that that's true). and because in the past i've felt angry and felt like eating and have stopped myself because I knew it wasn't going to make me feel better, and today I didn't. i've been trying to talk myself down a little, like ok, now you've actively tried to use food to handle anger, and it didn't help, but you needed to do it because you couldn't think of anything else at the moment, and that is ok. i'm not sure if i believe it, but now I need to think of something else. thea > > > > boy am I aggravated today. i went to bed thinking about how happy I was to be free of easter candy, and of course weighed myself and of course i was heavier than ever. then I was so mad, and I ate everything in sight, well past the point when i was full. I haven't eaten like this in a while. I don't even know why because I had the thought " I am eating because I am mad which is not going to help in any way " but I did anyway. > > > > I feel so sick and angry at the moment. > > > > thea > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 14, 2009 Report Share Posted April 14, 2009 That's excellent to read Thea, and very much in the right direction too. ANY 'new' practice will feel odd or wrong when first done. Especially when its trying to displace a very entrenched habit that, wrong as it is, has 'served' you for a long time. Keep up the good work and I hope you keep us posted on your efforts too. These inspire others as well as help you too. Thanks - Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > yeah, i really should just stop with the weighing. i should throw out the scale. but i feel addicted to it. and like i can't trust my own perceptions of my body. it's often happened that my clothes feel slightly looser one day and then i'll weigh myself and if anything I weigh more, so I feel like i NEED to weigh myself. > > why AM i mad? i've been sitting here thinking about it. because i feel like all this effort in thinking about my eating is getting me nowhere (not that that's true). and because in the past i've felt angry and felt like eating and have stopped myself because I knew it wasn't going to make me feel better, and today I didn't. > > i've been trying to talk myself down a little, like ok, now you've actively tried to use food to handle anger, and it didn't help, but you needed to do it because you couldn't think of anything else at the moment, and that is ok. i'm not sure if i believe it, but now I need to think of something else. > > thea > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 14, 2009 Report Share Posted April 14, 2009 I think the fact that you acknowledged that you were eating because you were mad and that you knew it wasn't going to help is a great big step. Even if you don't stop eating until you're uncomfortable, being able to identify why you were eating is something that many have trouble doing. I know a lot of days I would look back and think " why did I eat that much? " and really wasn't able to identify with my feelings. I have days where I say " I'm really anxious and want to eat to soothe myself, " I try to breathe it out or find something to calm me down but if that doesn't work I still give myself permission to eat because I figure as long as I have permission from myself I won't feel so guilty about dealing with my emotions the only way I know how right now, regardless of whether or not it really helps. My fiance took the scale to work with him to get it away from me lol. I asked him to hide it really well though. I feel bad in a way that I have to ask him to hide it from me so that way I don't weigh myself and that I can't have the " self control " to just stay away, but whatever works, works. I just can't weigh myself. It is triggering regardless of what the number says and in a way it turns IE into a " diet " for me because then I think I am expecting to see the number go down with every day that I listen closely to my body and if it doesn't, I get frustrated and want to " give up " and go back to my emotional eating and food banning. Keeping the scale out of the picture really keeps my focus on bettering my relationship with food and learning how to cope with my emotions without eating rather than putting so much focus on my body, weight, and size. > > boy am I aggravated today. i went to bed thinking about how happy I was to be free of easter candy, and of course weighed myself and of course i was heavier than ever. then I was so mad, and I ate everything in sight, well past the point when i was full. I haven't eaten like this in a while. I don't even know why because I had the thought " I am eating because I am mad which is not going to help in any way " but I did anyway. > > I feel so sick and angry at the moment. > > thea > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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