Re: Am I soothing or hurting myself??

[Guest guest]

Good for you, Warrior. I think that's something that we all have to learn ... and remind ourselves of from time to time. Pick yourself up, learn from your actions or mistakes and move on.

Sharon

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Thursday, June 11, 2009 12:39:58 PMSubject: Am I soothing or hurting myself??Hi guys. Let me preface by saying I"m new to IE. Haven't even finished the book yet. But am becoming familiar with some of the insights.This past weekend was going to be very stressful and I new it. I soothed a bit with comfort food. Then it turned into this thing that I picked up while in ww, a bad habit I acquired of all or nothing. Like, oh, well, I "blew it" now, i might as well go crazy with the food. It's a a form of bingeing. So I eat whatever would be the "bad" food choices even if it's not really

what I"m craving because I am on leave from my jail sentence and I might have to head back to jail any second (if that makes sense.)I hope someday I can be healthy enough to maybe put the scale away. But at least I am not going to ww anymore and I only check it about twice a week, while trying to see the results differently. Instead of the scale being my boss, before I get on I specifically direct my thinking to be more kind with myself and just to be aware but not critical of any gain.When I have been "bad" for a few days or more like I was through and around the weekend, I would usually be scared to get on the scale and have tons of guilty feelings. Instead, I told myself, it is what it is. Just know where you're at. I got on and had gained like 5 pounds (had to be a lot of water weight.) So instead of going anorexic thinking where I eat extremely "healthy" low cal. foods for a set period of time to

make everything "right," like I usually would, I just decided to get off the wagon I was on but not get on a different one, if that makes any sense. I ate more foods that agree with my body and are good for me spiritually, emotionally and physically. A little junk too. lol But now I can go back to martial arts tonight and feel strong, not like a bad girl who needs to perform some act of contrition to make up for her food sins, lol, but just a girl who wants to work out and get strong.Anyway, because of you guys and IE, I was able to be gentle to myself and pull out of it. Being hard on myself just always sort of put me on a different wagon, like I said. No more wagons! lolWarrior------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Sounds like you are making progress. Baby steps get ya 'there' too

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Hi guys. Let me preface by saying I " m new to IE. Haven't even finished the

book yet. But am becoming familiar with some of the insights.

>

> This past weekend was going to be very stressful and I new it. I soothed a

bit with comfort food. Then it turned into this thing that I picked up while in

ww, a bad habit I acquired of all or nothing. Like, oh, well, I " blew it " now, i

might as well go crazy with the food. It's a a form of bingeing. So I eat

whatever would be the " bad " food choices even if it's not really what I " m

craving because I am on leave from my jail sentence and I might have to head

back to jail any second (if that makes sense.)

>

> I hope someday I can be healthy enough to maybe put the scale away. But at

least I am not going to ww anymore and I only check it about twice a week, while

trying to see the results differently. Instead of the scale being my boss,

before I get on I specifically direct my thinking to be more kind with myself

and just to be aware but not critical of any gain.

>

> When I have been " bad " for a few days or more like I was through and around

the weekend, I would usually be scared to get on the scale and have tons of

guilty feelings. Instead, I told myself, it is what it is. Just know where

you're at. I got on and had gained like 5 pounds (had to be a lot of water

weight.) So instead of going anorexic thinking where I eat extremely " healthy "

low cal. foods for a set period of time to make everything " right, " like I

usually would, I just decided to get off the wagon I was on but not get on a

different one, if that makes any sense.

>

> I ate more foods that agree with my body and are good for me spiritually,

emotionally and physically. A little junk too. lol But now I can go back to

martial arts tonight and feel strong, not like a bad girl who needs to perform

some act of contrition to make up for her food sins, lol, but just a girl who

wants to work out and get strong.

>

> Anyway, because of you guys and IE, I was able to be gentle to myself and pull

out of it. Being hard on myself just always sort of put me on a different

wagon, like I said. No more wagons! lol

>

> Warrior

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks for the reminder.

Warrior

> >

> > Hi guys. Let me preface by saying I " m new to IE. Haven't even finished the

book yet. But am becoming familiar with some of the insights.

> >

> > This past weekend was going to be very stressful and I new it. I soothed a

bit with comfort food. Then it turned into this thing that I picked up while in

ww, a bad habit I acquired of all or nothing. Like, oh, well, I " blew it " now, i

might as well go crazy with the food. It's a a form of bingeing. So I eat

whatever would be the " bad " food choices even if it's not really what I " m

craving because I am on leave from my jail sentence and I might have to head

back to jail any second (if that makes sense.)

> >

> > I hope someday I can be healthy enough to maybe put the scale away. But at

least I am not going to ww anymore and I only check it about twice a week, while

trying to see the results differently. Instead of the scale being my boss,

before I get on I specifically direct my thinking to be more kind with myself

and just to be aware but not critical of any gain.

> >

> > When I have been " bad " for a few days or more like I was through and around

the weekend, I would usually be scared to get on the scale and have tons of

guilty feelings. Instead, I told myself, it is what it is. Just know where

you're at. I got on and had gained like 5 pounds (had to be a lot of water

weight.) So instead of going anorexic thinking where I eat extremely " healthy "

low cal. foods for a set period of time to make everything " right, " like I

usually would, I just decided to get off the wagon I was on but not get on a

different one, if that makes any sense.

> >

> > I ate more foods that agree with my body and are good for me spiritually,

emotionally and physically. A little junk too. lol But now I can go back to

martial arts tonight and feel strong, not like a bad girl who needs to perform

some act of contrition to make up for her food sins, lol, but just a girl who

wants to work out and get strong.

> >

> > Anyway, because of you guys and IE, I was able to be gentle to myself and

pull out of it. Being hard on myself just always sort of put me on a different

wagon, like I said. No more wagons! lol

> >

> > Warrior

> >

>