Revelation

[Guest guest]

I'm learning that my binging is triggered by anxiety, and I've always been aware

that if I didn't have to eat for energy, I could just give up food altogether.

However, I just realized this: I eat because of how the food makes me feel after

I eat it. The sugar highs, allergic reactions to milk, yeast, and corn make me

feel " alive " . Maybe it sparks some discomfort, replaces my problematic anxiety

somehow? I have been anorexic- I believe what I had done was use the feeling of

hunger as a signal of success; as a sign that I was in control. My husband was

very controlling back then, and I rebelled!

Knobloch

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[Guest guest]

Wow those are some powerful insights!  I think you are on the right track, that even the discomfort of overeating or allergies can be preferable to the discomfort in our heads sometimes.  Thank goodness you are in a safer place now and hopefully with this awareness, able to find new ways to nurture yourself

 

hugs

Mikki 

I'm learning that my binging is triggered by anxiety, and I've always been aware that if I didn't have to eat for energy, I could just give up food altogether.  However, I just realized this: I eat because of how the food makes me feel after I eat it.  The sugar highs, allergic reactions to milk, yeast, and corn make me feel " alive " . Maybe it sparks some discomfort, replaces my problematic anxiety somehow? I have been anorexic- I believe what I had done was use the feeling of hunger as a signal of success; as a sign that I was in control. My husband was very controlling back then, and I rebelled!

KnoblochSent from my BlackBerry® wireless device from U.S. Cellular------------------------------------