others perception to your weight!

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I just turned 50 and have looked back on all the time wasted on

worrying about my weight, all the diets etc. My Mom is still a size 5

and thru most of my life I was no bigger than a size 9, and she

harassed me to lose more telling me if SHE gained 1 pound she would go

on an instant diet. I spent years hating my beautiful body and

thinking I was too fat to wear shorts or a bathing suit and was

ashamed of my body. Now, I am very overweight and I refuse to miss out

on my life ever again, I am sick of her abuse and can't believe I have

allowed her to rule my whole life. She has sent me skinny pictures of

myself at 16 years old , sent me old blue jeans I used to fit into

that are a size 5 and just last week ranted at me about how disgusting

I am to let myself go, how gross I looked and how she didn't bring me

up to look this way and how ashamed she was of me. It finally struck

me how sick she was and how I was no longer going to take her abuse,

what a waste of time that I listened to her and missed out on most of

my life. I finally am done and have thought a lot about why I was

overeating and what I wanted and I quit eating when I'm full, I am

not eating when I'm not hungry and I am losing weight, 8 pounds this

week. I hope anyone reading this will not put their ONLY LIFE on

hold, it passes so fast, enjoy your life, go swimming, wear shorts,

have fun and don't tell yourself how ugly and fat you look. Lose

weight for yourself or be happy with yourself as you are.