Thanks So Much For the Warm Welcome

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I was not going to allow myself to post. Per I binged on chocalate

tonight. Key word allow!! Makes me realize how much I think

my morality and self worth is tied in to how I ate today.

So I am giving myself permission to post and say I have had a huge headache

for a few hours and knew chocalate who probaly make me feel

physically worse and ate it anyway.

The good news is I want to go on a collasal binge but know I wont

make it to life including work tomorrow. I feel somewhat deserving

to not eating till I bust. Which is brand new. I never care about the

aftermath. I just binge.

I feel like a pretty self aware person. But for the life of me

I can not tell you, why I cant stop engaging in this behavior.

It seems like I always had a bizarr reaction to sugar even since

I was a litle girl. '

Well more to come ,